CAMP IS FUN

Helllooo lovely people!
i am home from camp.
i really should be sleeping at this point consider it's one in the morning, and i've been dead tired all week. buttt i'll just quick update on the strange happenings of camp.
uh sunday:
arrived at camp.
put stuff in cabin.
it rains.
get stuff prepared to meet junior staff.
it continues to DOWNPOUR.
meet junior staff.
eat dinner.
talk to people...
do some other stuff that i forget and is probably not important.
eventually go to cabin to shower and sleep.
MONDAY:
i don't remember if monday or tuesday was unity day but one of those days we were in small teams and rotated and joined other small teams for different events.
climbed GOLIATH. which is the climbing area. there is a rock wall you can climb up, a cargo net and a zip line with a bunch of other things. someday i'll take a picture.
we also played initiative games, and some other things. it was cool.
also awkward.
for the one thing i had to sit on some guys shoulders.
it was awkward because he makes me feel uncomfortable...because he is probably the nicest person at camp.
it's ridiculous. he's always like going out of his way to say hello.
i know it's weird that it makes me uncomfortable but it does.
oh yeah and that was def monday.
also there are two guys who around my age.
we have to call everyone MR. or Miss. unless they are married in which case we call them UNCLE OR AUNT. this is mostly for the campers but it's very strange, at least for me
uh i made some friends with the junior staff :) very nice girls.
learned alot about camp, and the Bible.
and well i must say i actually enjoy camp :)
i'm kind of excited for it!
uh anyways
TUESDAY:
learned some things.
did stuff.
i know that's helpful but i honestly don't remember what we did it all blends together...
WEDNESDAY.
had breakfast duty.
it wasn't too bad.
talked to the one guy who is my age.
it was awkward.
probably because i made it awkward, especially when he asked me where i go to school. that one always makes me be like ..why do you want to know.
went to the craft room to organize things!
one of the guys my age randomly picked flowers and was like WHO SHOULD I GIVE THESE TOOOO! while yelling at his friend when we were all walking the one time. then he gave me one, and i was like uh thanks. haha. it was interesting and that was my first flower EVER RECEIVED FROM A GUY. GASP! i know.
i laughed a lot on the inside.
then i pressed inside my notebook so the flower is in there now.
haha
and then lunch time came around and i was downstairs in the craft room (the dining hall is on the other side of the camp and the people doing bible lessons and camp fire talks were preparing them. well basically senior staff was in the stone house, which the craft room is in the basement of the stone house, and i'm senior staff...haha)
and they left me there. all of them. they didnt' even tell me it was lunch. so you know whatevs.
then it was lunch time
we did ARCHERY AND RIFLERY afterwards! YYYAAAAAYYYYYY
uh i think we had an actual campfire that day, and sang songs.
did a TOUGH QUESTIONS talk that night. it was awesome
THURSDAY
had breakfast duty AGAIN.
did some fun activities.
then we played...CAPTURE THE FLAG.
it was umm interesting. they have different rules for campers which is why we did it, so that we could learn the rules.
so they did team choosing like you do in high school with two captains and picking people off the sides!
good news I WAS NOT LAST! woo.
bad news .. while we were playing i def tripped in a hole while chasing someone and uh fell over. AND later the guy who i was chasing at that time asked me if i tripped while chasing him. i laughed and was like um yeah.
he now thinks i'm an idiot but you know whatever.
also the guy who picked me on his team was the guy who gave me the flower.
again it made me laugh hysterically. well on the inside.
he probably thought i seemed athletic. then our team was strategizing and he was like "can you run?" and i was like hahah...well i CAN run, but i don't necessarily enjoy it.
that's the moment he realized he made a bad decision having me on his team. haha
oh well.
our team still won! woot woot.
then we had lunch
then freee timeeee
we went swimming
although it was kind of cold but it was nice!
then last night we had a camp out
girls at their fort and boys at theirs.
it was sweet.
we made s'mores and talked about guy-girl relationships at camp.
hilarity.
we aren't allowed to date until camp is over.
which i think is splendid, it's better for the campers and everyone else that way :)
then we hung out around the campfire. then went to the fort which is near the fire so all the ashes floated in the air and basically you ate them while you slept, since the fort is sort of like a tree house...
anyways me and two of the junior staff talked until like one.
then everyone woke up at like 7:30 ate breakfast, cleaned up, then we went back to the cabin, and showered. well they opened up all the girls cabins and everyone showered at different places it was awesome. we also beat the guys back to camp. by like an hour. kind of ridiculous
OH MAN! I almost forgot, we all decided while at the camp out to not look at the guys, well make eye contact with them when we first saw them the next day. so all the girls sat together and all the guys looked hilariously confused. it was awesome. i'm pretty sure they still have no idea what happened.
it was great! ahhaha
then yesterday (well friday...)
we cleaned cabins to prepare for the campers
and then had lunch then came home.
i did laundry.
then went to work from 6:30 until 11:30
and now i need sleep
since i leave for school tomorrow for peer mentor training week.
SO INTENSE.
i also have like twenty bug bites on my legs.
okay more like five.
but they kind of itch...
anyways. camp is fun :)
although once real camp starts we can only leave our phones in the stone house and be there to use them. which basically you are never in the stone house.
well i will be because of crafts but i won't be able to check my phone.
sooo. that will be interesting.
anyways i need sleep.
gooddd night.

I'm off. not to see the wizard unfortunately.

well i'm going to finish the quotes i have.
since i'm off to summer camp tomorrow.
i wont be taking my computer.
i will be missing my computer.
and i'll have wayyyyy too much blogging to accomplish when i come back next friday. and with very little time.
so sad.
well quotes:
There are two tragedies in life. One is not to get your hearts desire. The other is to get it. - George Bernard Shaw

What is that express in your eyes? It seems to me more than all the words I have read in my life. -Walt Whitman

He made the word to be a grassy road before her wandering feet. =W.B. Yeats

There is no remedy to love, but to love more. -Henry David Thoreau

A pigeon is the same thing as a dove. Did you know that? -Bridget Vreeland

Pools of sorrow, waves of joy. - John Lennon and Paul McCartney

Let me feel now what sharp distress I may -Charles Dickens.

Love is a snowmobile racing across the tundra then suddenly it flips pinning you underneath. At night the ice weasels come. -Matt Groening

The centaurs were invited too, for though wild and lawless they were nonetheless distant relatives. -D'Aulaires Book Of Greek Myths

If you scatter thorns, don't go barefoot. - Italian Proverb

Please give me a second grace. -Nick Drake

Power corrupts ,absolute power is kind of neat. -John Lehman

Nothings takes the taste out of Peanut Butter quite like unrequited love. -Charlie Brown

LIfe isn't fair. It's just fairer than death, that's all. -William Goldman

Somethings have to be believed to be seen. -Ralph Hodgen

Time is what keeps everything from happening at once. -Graffiti

Sometimes you need to make a mess. - Loretta

Fear is that little dark room where negatives are developed. -Michael Pritehard

alright so i worked today. my wrist still hurt so bad, but i survived. i don't know if i'm just not used to the rush or if i messed it up, my wrist that is, but oh well. i'll have a break til next friday.
oh joy.
well goodbye until friday!
i will miss you all!

YOU'RE GOING TO LOVE IT HERE!... pry not.

worked last night. MY wrist hurts SO BAD. i had to make four volcanoes. which is fourteen scoops of ice cream, eight toppings in this volcano ceramic bowl which we put dry ice in and then put hot water on top and it smokes like a volcano. pretty intense.
oh yeah i also had lunch with my friend from elementary school. it was good. we talked about different things you know catching up.
then we went to this candy store and they had sherbet fudge. i know it sounds weird. but it was SO GOOD. i was like oh my gosh i could eat this entire thing right now. haha. i greatly enjoy sherbet.
i also started packing for camp. and i'm almost done with having everything packed all my posters are down. i have two pictures to take down, and then i have lots of things to take down to my grandmothers house.
which my mom probably expects me to do tonight. after i work from 12-5
sigh i really dont' want to leave for camp tomorrow.
it's way too soon. i have so much to do for moving still. :/
but what can you do. they didn't really give me a choice, and everyone else has been there since thursday.
so yeah.
i need to take down the pictures and what not. then off to work i go.
it's going to be a long day.

I'm GOING TO CAMP ROCK!!!... i wish.

so i'm watching Ninja Assassin right now. I'm not really sure why. it was that THe Box or Shutter Island. and i decided Shutter Island would give me nightmares. i do not do well with horror movies. and i just didn't feel like watch the box. hha. but Ninja Assassin is pretty crazy. lots of blood everywhere. it's weird.
anyways yesterday. consisted of painting the white pair of toms i got. they look so cool! they are like super neon and i used some glow int he dark paint.. and i painted dinosaurs on them :)
haha.
then i went out to dinner with my dad, got paint to paint my bureaus
they are going to be purple. with teal drawers, and the other one will be teal with purple drawers. it's going to be sweet!
i painted the drawers today.
well after i had to go to this camp pre-training.
which i just found out about this morning.
which was ridiculous, this camp is for my internship. i'm pretty sure originally i was only supposed to go for like a week. but guess what. they decided that i'm going to be there the entire time. well minus the week i have peer mentor training.
so now i'll be spending 6 WEEKS at a SLEEP AWAY camp.
and another week at peer mentor training. so i'll be spending SEVEN WEEKS. away from home. but i'll be home on the weekends, but that's when i'll be working at the scoop.
so yeah i won't be having time for a "vacation" until august.
haha. too funny. then i go back to school the 19th/20th of august. so i really only have like three weeks of time.
this is going to be an intense summer.
so yeah. i'll be going starting this sunday after church until next friday. then i'll go to work at the scoop. then saturday i leave for peer mentor training. and i come back the 26th then i leave the 27th for camp and i'll be back that friday. for work again. then i'll pry be working saturdays for now until school or whatever and sundays i'll have to head back to camp until august.
goodness gracious.
so yup. internet time will only be on the weekends.
but at least i get to make crafts all summer?
so yeah. tomorrow i'll finish painting my bureau. i'm having lunch with a friend from elementary school.
and then i work tomorrow night.
i suppose i really must finish packing and start packing for camp.
this is going to be weird considering i never went to summer camp as a child. i mean i did like vacation bible school, but not sleep away camp.
and i should mention this camp is a bible fellowship camp.
very interesting.
the people seem cool. i guess.
well i mean i met i think almost all of the "senior" staff today.
there are three people who are like in charge of the all staff. and one guy who is in charge of the entire camp.
and apparently we go around calling everyone Uncle, Aunt, Miss or Mister.
so if you are married you are uncle or aunt, then everyone else is miss or mister.
and well call other counselors that.
that's going to take awhile to get used to.
but anyways so Uncle Doug... (its really weird even writing that..) runs the entire camp then it's
Mr. Dan, Mr. TJ and Miss Casi
then senior staff would beeee meeeee
Miss Jen, Miss Kaylina, Miss Erica, Mr. Jacob, Mr, Andrew and Mr. Stephen and i think a kid named Phil was missing? idk
haha.
then i guess the "Junior" staff shows up monday?
then the campers start coming saturday when i wont be there
hooray.
sigh.
i don't know what to think about this at the moment. it makes me feel kind of like sick because i know i have so much to do still with moving and such. but if i can raise money then i can get paid every week i'm at camp. soo i'm going to try for that. yup.
well the movie is over and it was weird.
so i'm going to look up craft ideas now. if you have any throw 'em my way :)

GLEEEEE

soo
first of all i packed about five boxes of stuff up today (which by now is technically yesterday)
it was pretty intense.
my Uncle, Aunt and Cousin came up to help us load stuff into this storage thing my mom is borrowing from a co worker. funny thing is...even though i took away all my winter clothing/dvd's/cd's and those five boxes...my room is still crowded.
still have my tv and dvd, and my bureau's, which i'm buying paint tomorrow to paint them.
my bookshelf is also in here. which was supposed to go into the storage thing but that didn't happen. so i need to finish packing things. i dont know what to do with my shorts...since i'm still wearing them. so difficult.
i also did like four loads of wash.
colors, whites, then sheets. oh so actually only three...hmm haha
watched the Glee Season Finale! amazing! Puck just makes me laugh.
I reallllllllllly dont' like Emma and Will together. they annoy me together. but Rachel and Finn! so cute!
and the Quinn's baby! ahh!
i dont know i thought it was weird the way she acted when she was looking at her baby. I mean when she was all I DONT 'WANT TO KEEP IT.
i was like woah.
but whatever.
can't believe it wont' be on until september again. but it's exciting they are showing it all summer on thursdays! must remember to watch!
after Glee i watched the movie The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus.
it was very interesting.
especially with Heath Ledger, it was weird when Johnny Depp appeared, then Colin Farrell and Jude Law.
i mean i knew they did that. because Heath never got to finish the movie, but it was still weird. i liked it though. it was a strange movie but not as weird as i thought it was going to be.
anyways i should pry sleep now.
gooodd night

Strawberry fields forever

So today i went down to my grandma's house. we got brunch, went to pick strawberries, WHICH ARE AMAZING. picking ones grown closer to home are always so good. they are so sweet. and even though they are tinnnyyy. they are amazinggggg.
ahah.
then i helped my grandma clean out the closet in her spare bedroom, because that's where my mother and i will be living. my brother will be in the basement.
i must say i love my grandma and it will be fun to live with her, but me and my mom in the same room. bad. very bad.
i need my own space...
sigh.
plus my grandma lives like 30 mins from my work/internship/camp that i will be working at and all my friends, well almost all my friends.
it's going to be a lot of gas.
sigh.

but anyways i helped my grandma clean out TWO bags of clothing, for good will, ONE bag for this rummage sale her church is doing, and a bunch of things for the yard sale my aunt is having in two weeks. we also had a bag of trash. :)
it was sweet. and i think my grandma appreciated it! i mean she honestly has three closets full of her stuff.
now it's down to two.
one with all her coats/blazers and the other with all her other clothing. haha
it's kind of funny.
but it's good.
and i can tell my grandma is kind of excited for us to live there. she was talking about all the food she can make, and THERE IS A TEN THOUSAND VILLAGES NEAR HER HOUSE!!! which i am ecstatic about! i had no idea there was one down there! it's awesome! so she said we could go to that too :)
haha.
then i came home, ate dinner super fast, well only because i was at my grandma's house for like 6 hours. helping out :)
and then after dinner i went over to my supervisor at my church for my internship's house, to help his wife set up for this jewelry party she was having. and well attend the party.
it was for this cause called Women At Risk.
it's about human trafficking.
It made me so angry to hear about how it is everywhere and no one really does anything about it.
for more information you can check out
www.warinternational.org
I think it's important for women to know about what goes on.
also they have jewelry which women who get out of prostitution and such because of human trafficking make, and it's really amazing. all the money goes to benefit them!
i bought a fish bookmarker...which i decided to wear as a necklace instead, and this super pretty ring.
so now i'm at home again. i should be packing my books up. my uncle and cousins are coming up tomorrow to help load things into this trailer thing my mom is borrowing from a co-worker. so i need to have all my books packed. sighh. i just dont' feel like doing that. plus they are taking away my bed frame. :/ i'll still have my bed though.
sooo i really need to pack.
too bad it's already 10:38 at night... oh well i'll do the books. shower then pack more tomorrow. before they come over.
blahhhh.
okay bye!
please check out that website! it's really informative and i think it's important for people to know about it!

i just haven't met you yet.

so i worked 8 hours today.
it was intense.
i was making waffle cones at the one point and this guy who is friends with my co-worker was asking me questions about my life. it was weird since i dont know him, and he thought i was only 18/19. when i said i was going to be a senior in college he was like REALLY? wow i thought you were only 18 or 19. i was like great.
complete strangers think i look at least two years younger than i am. goodness. oh well
there also was a car show going on. correction a foreign car show going on, in the field right next to my work. so like all those people came in and got ice cream .it was intense.
lots of boys came in, but they were all the kinds of boys who really like cars, and i don't know about that haha
ended up getting like 8 dollars in tips for the day. which is pretty awesome.
i worked from 8 until 4.
then i came home, packed some more things, had dinner, packed again, then went to bible study,
saw two people i graduated with!
and this guy who wasn't there the first night i went came up to me and started asking me a bunch of questions.
at first i was like hmm. who is this guy (his name is Jim.haha) but i couldn't figure out why he looked familair,
and he kept asking me questions about like where i was living, well school and such too, but it was weird when he was like where are you living right now?
i feel like you don't ask people that normally...
right?
i mean upon first meeting someone...
idk
anyways. i figured out that he used to be the "volunteer" cop at my middle school dances.
please proceed and laugh.
HOW AWKWARD IS THAT!
i can't remember if he was at my 6th grade ones, but i am almost positive he was at my like 8th grade ones, and i remember he used to volunteer at football games, because i remember seeing him there too, he always wore this super dorky outfit, WITH these amazingly weird work boots, with his pants tucked into his boots. which i always find weird...
so your like 13/14 in 8th grade, and i think you have to be at least 18 to become like a volunteer which makes him at least 4-5 years older than me.
so he is at least 25. but i think he's more like 27.
i don't know why.
and it's not like it really matters.
i think.
i don't know.
the problem is all these people i know are getting married/engaged or are in a serious relationship.
and it's not like i want to rush into one, again, but it would be nice to find a good guy.
i dont even know what i'm talking about anymore. i'm so tired. haha
i need to go to sleep. i'm helping my grandma clean out some things in her house, because it looks like my mom, brother and i will be moving in with her for a couple of months.
sigh.
that's going to be a lot of driving.
well i'm going to bed now. barely can keep my eyes open..
nightt.

Can you feel it..Can you feel it?

SOOOO i took down almost all of my posters now. have like five left to take down. and i took down almost all the glow in the dark stars that were on my ceiling :(
i also just packed away all my movies, my scarves, hats, and gloves.
not necessarily in the same box for the movies and scarves/hats/gloves haha
i think i'll end up putting my cds in the movies box.
sigh. this makes me sad.
but it's okay. i think i'll aim for cds next then pants and sweatshirts.
sad.sad.sad

work last night was insane. for like two hours it was super slow. then the last two hours it was insane, and i almost lost my voice from having to yell numbers out to help people. but i got about 7 dollars in tips (well we have a tip cup and we split it like 6 ways so it's exciting) i decided that all my tips i'm going to put in a jar kind of thing that way by the end of the summer i'll have money set aside to go shopping and i can use all the money i make for rent in the fall, winter and spring. hopefully at least. that's what i am aiming for. but if i only work 13 hours each week, it's not going to work out :/
that's why i applied for that other job, and i think when i do the day camp for my internship i get paid? so that'll be good.

well i have more quotes still. i need to finish them so i can clean up! bahhh!

"Angels can fly because they take themselves lightly" - G.K. Chesterton

"Angels are both God's messengers and God's message, Witnesses to eternity in time, to the presence of the diving amidst the ordinary. Every moment of every day is riddled by their traces." - F. Forrester Church

"Enter into his gates with thanksgiving and into his courts with praise: Be thankful unto him and and bless his name." -Psalms 100:4

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." -Psalms 139:13-14

"And all these blessings shall come on thee and over take thee if though shalt hearken unto the voice of the Lord thy God." -Deuteronomy 28:2

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." -Philippians 4:13

"Faith the size of a mustard seed can move a mountain." -Matthew 17:20

"Don't believe in miracles-depend on them." -Laurence J. Peter

"It appears I am destined for something; I will." -Robert Clive

"I will praise the name of God with a song and will magnify him with thanksgiving." -Psalms 69:30

"Within your heart, keep on still, secret spot where dreams may go." -Louise Driscoll

"Thy kingdom come, they will be done as Earth as it is in heaven." -Matthew 6:10

"Take a harp, go about the city; make sweet melody, sing many songs, that thou may be remembered." -Isaiah 23:16

"God brings men into deep waters not to drown them, but to cleanse them." -John H. Aughey

"Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us." -Matthew 6:12

"You cannot force peace by conquer only by understanding." -Albert Einstein

"Do I dare disturb the Universe?" _The Chocolate War

"Nothing is too wonderful to be true." -Michael Faraday

"Oh who can tell, save he whose heart hath tried." -Lord Bryon

"there is nothing like reforming to a place that remains unchanged the ways in which you yourself have altered." -Nelson Mandela

"I've had a perfectly wonderful evening, but that wasn't it." -Groucho Marx

"On the other hand, you have different fingers." -Jack Handy

"Men occasionally stumble over the truth, but must of them pick themselves up and hurry off as if nothing has happened." -Winston Churchill

"...You can see only as far as your headlights but you can make the whole trip that way." -E.L. Doctrow

"lovers alone wear sunlight." -E.E. Cummings

"We are born not once, but again and again." -William Charles

"Let the golden age begin" - Beck

I think that's good for today, I'm almost done! :)


on a sidenote my dad saw my brothers nose ring, and it can be easily said that my dad strongly disapproved, and i would even venture to say he was disgusted by it.
yup.
well back to packing. much love.

Taking posters down...

So i'm taking down my posters now. my walls are starting to look bare and it makes me sad.
i'm also trying to pack things away along with my boom box but it's hard. :(
BUT i got my rooney cd in the mail today! their new one called Eureka! and it's pretty awesome. i got a shirt with it, and it looks cool :)
filled out my new job application, need to scan that into the computer, but i need to use my brother's scanner and he's taking a long time to clean it off...
and finished the application for the camp for my internship. so i need to mail that
goodness.
and Rachel gave my brother her present to me yesterday it was super cute, she gave me this card with a pug on it, makes me miss Shwayze! and her message inside was adorable almost made me cry. but hey i'm already being super emotional about everything so yeah haha.
anyways she gave me this journal which has a title called "My Dysfunctions" which made me laugh and i can't wait to use it! then she gave me a car air freshener which smells super good, and soap which i havent' even opened but it's making my room smell amazing! I miss that girl, need to hang out with her soon!
and now i'm going to finish putting all those quotes in here because i have work tonight, and i probably wont' blog since i work from 6:30 to 11:30, and i might go kayaking with my brothers tomorrow? perhaps.

anyways so this is the number one quote I NEED TO REMEMBER.
"But these things i plan wont' happen right away, slowly, steadily, surely the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. if it seems slow do not depair for these things will surely come to pass. Just be Patient! They will not be overdue a single day." -Habakkuk 2:3

"And ye shall seek me and find me when you shall search for me with all your heart" -Jeremiah 29:13

"In Life, as in football, you won't go far unless you know where the goalposts are." -Arnold H. Glasgow

"Faith is not belief without proof, but trust without reservation." -Elton Trueblood

"Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." -Hebrews 11:1

"More tears are shed over answered prayers than unanswered ones." _Mother Theresa

"True thanksgiving means that we need to thank God for what he has done for us and not to tell him what we have done for him." - George R. Hendrick

Do nothing form selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind let each of you regard one another as more important than himself." -Philippians 2:3

"Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your father who is in heaven." -Matthew 5:16

"Music is well said to be the speech of angels; in fact nothing among utterances allowed to man is felt to be so divine. It brings us near to the infinite." -Thomas Carlyle

"To live with fear and not be afraid is the final test of maturity." -Edward Weeks

"You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give." -Kahlil Gibran

"Take good hold of instructions and dont let her go; keep her, for she is your life." -Proverbs 4:13

"Be yourself. Who else is better qualified?" -Frank J. Giblin

"With every deed you are sowing a seed, though the harvest you may not see." _Ella Wheeler Wilcox

"Prayer is less about changing the world than it is about changing ourselves." -David J. Wolpe

"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven;
a time to be born, and a time to die,
a time be plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to breakdown, and time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance."
-Ecclesiastes 3:1-4

"Eternity. It is the sea mingled with the sun." -Arthur Rimbaud

"Now I am light, Now i fly, now i see myself breath myself, now a god dances through me." -Friedrich Nietzsche

"If you want to lift yourself up, lift up someone else." -Booker T. Washington

"Thou shalt love they neighbor as thyself" - Romans 13:9

"To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven." _Karen Surde

"Resolve to be thyself, and know that he who finds himself, uses his misery." - Matthew Arnold

"What a man sows that shall he and his relations reap." -Clarisse Graves

"Woe to the man whose heart has not learned while young to hope, to love, and to put it's trust in life." -Joseph Conrad

"To love another person is to see the face of God" -Victor Hugo

"In the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter and sharing of pleasures." -Kahlil Gibran

"For he shall give his angels charge ver thee to keep thee in all they ways." -Psalms 91:11

"Teaching is the greatest act of optimism." -Colleen Wilcox

alright well i still have a lot to put still surprisingly.
but i need to keep packing. and such. soooo later!

oh life.

alright. so it's thundering and raining now. i should probably shower in case the electricity goes out. but if the electricity goes out. there is a good chance i wont move since my room is a danger zone for boxes....
Packed up my boom box today.
also cleaned out some books from my bookshelf that i'm going to donate to my local library.
I mean i read them once. they were alright, i kept them before just in case i would ever read them again but i probably wont. and well since i'm moving i really don't need the extra amount of weight from books i might never read again.
!
and my mom has this box of her stuff in my room...because she wants me to look at her scrapbooks from when she was a kid so she can burn them?
i dont know.
but it's like right in the way of my door. and i'm starting to feel like it's all closing in on me!
and every time i take down a poster i feel sad.
but i'm going to be away for a week for Peer Mentor training so i figured i need to pack now. since that's in 16 days or something of that sort
i dont' really know the exact date because i refuse to count down to it, because i'm kind of dreading it.
they are doing peer mentor spamming via email with everyone. and it's intense.
and everyone is talking about their summer responding to each other. and i haven't participated because what am i supposed to say? you know. it would be like
oh hey guys
my parents are getting divorced, my family is moving except we have no where to move to, i work at an ice cream place, but they dont' give me enough hours so i need to get another job oh and i'm doing an internship.
and starting to pack my life away in boxes.
oh cool see you 16 days!

maybe i should write that. then they would stop filling up my inbox with unnecessary messages.
or maybe i'm just hatin' since i'm feeling sad.
although i'm not really sure, because everytime someone talks about Peer Mentor training, I feel sick.
it's like this we train for like three days all day. but the nights we have free...and that scares me because well most college students (unlike me) go to bed crazy late and do crazy things.
plus they are talking about capture the flag (which i am horrible at and really do not like playing) and some other games which make me nervous. because
1. i don't want to be like a downer and be like do not want to play
2. i do not want to make a fool of myself by not knowing what they are talking about with certain games
3. i want to actually sleep while i'm out there

and well i don't know i'm just really quiet and almost all of them are not. you know i think i just don't want to go because i know that when i get back i will have four days to make sure my entire life is at a new location.
a new location that is currently undecided.
and well i don't like that idea.
and that one week while i'm away could be a week that i spend in this house that i will never see again after i come back.

i dont know maybe i'm just tired from the last three days.
i will just talk about yesterday and today now.
yesterday.
arrived at internship.
received call from the mom of the girl i used to/hope to continue babysitting telling me about a job at her work that would be two days a week, eight hours a day. scanning/unstapling things.
i was like YESSSSS
i didn't even realize it but i kind of wanted a second job. amazing how that opened up for me!
went to the conference room. the three guys there were all OH HI. blah blah and i was like uh yup morning.
whatever.
everyone showed up, went through the process of listening to whatever they were talking about.
snack time came around.
went downstairs.
met this guy who graduated a year before me, and just graduated from the naval academy's parents. who were SO NICE to me. they were like making jokes and laughing. they seemed super cool.
and i decided i'm going to marry that kid. because his parents are cool.
plus i always secretly had a crush on that kid.
hahah.
snack time was over.
went back to the room. listened some more.
this 95 year old guy showed up. NO JOKE. he was 95, he was hilarious though. he burst through the door (as fast as he could with his cane and being 95) and he was like Agent Reichenbach (which is his last name) has arrived. it was awesome. i want to be that cool when i'm older :)
then lunch time! had lunch.
THEN I LEFT.
because i decided it was my birthday and i didn't want to be there all day.
picked up my best friend.
went and got my license renewed/ got a new picture.
came home watched Funny Face, took like a hundred pictures on my mac with my bff
they are hilarious.
took my best friend home
came back home
my family ate without me. i know. how mean. it was my birthday.
but whatever.
ate. had some cheesecake. my lame-o family sang to me. horribly i must add.
i think, actually i know they felt bad for eating without me
went to youth group.
my brothers separately got me. John Mayer's Cd Battle Studies, and the movie Bandslam!
my mom got me two dresses when we were at Rice's on Monday, and my dad bought me two pairs of Tom's which should be arriving next tuesday!
got some money from the relatives.
which is always nice.
went to bed.
today.
woke up.
had cheesecake for breakfast.
went to internship.
was third person to arrive. so the guy running it asked me a bunch of questions about well me.
umm everyone showed up we started.
snack time came.
went downstairs.
it ended quickly went back up.
more discussion.
the guy from the camp where my supervisor insists i work as part of my internship came to talk. he gave us a free shirt.
except he gave me a size that's kind of way to big. but whatever it was free, and i wasn't really planning on wearing it anyway considering it's a golf challenge polo from last year.
it's the thought that counts.
yup the next presenter was some guy from an old folks home, he gave us free pens!
then it was lunch time.
it was burritos. all the guys raved about it. it was hilarious. since it was the most they talked during meal time all three days.
although i never ate with them. i helped the ladies in the kitchen set everything up. they were super nice and funny.
well by set everything up i mean take things out to the table, then clean up when the guys were done.
while eating with the ladies.
after lunch went upstairs the presenter guy said my name like fifteen times in different sentences because according to him he didn't want to forget my name. by that point i was kind of like oh go figure. since every single presenter that came in was always shocked that a girl was there since it was a seminar for guys to become an ordained pastor.
anyways the presenter guy was funny though. and he made the guys do a sermon/lecture in five minutes as if they had just been surprised by someone asking them to do that.
it was pretty hilarious. until the presenter guy made me do a skit with him.
it was awkward.
but oh well. i had to pretend to be married to an verbally/emotionally abusive husband.
very interesting. after our skit all the guys were like "oh who is this guy we will break his fingers!"
jokingly of course. it was funny. and weird, but sort of nice since i only knew them for like three days at that point.
such strange men.
then all the other guys presented and almost all of them like made it a point to point out that i wasn't a guy. or something. i was like jeez.
but they were all nice. so it wasn't too bad. i wouldn't really consider them my friends, but i figure if i would see them again perhaps i would say hi.
i might as well mention the oldest guy was like 54 and the youngest guy was probably in his mid to late twenties. all were either married or engaged.
and the one guy was always really nice to me.
they were all like oh look me up on facebook, well to each other. and i was kind of like please don't look me up on facebook. that would be so weird.
i mean that would be like becoming friends with five pastors in one day.
that's kind of strange.
i mean it's not like i care about what people think, i just dont think we would stay in contact... so there really is no point.
you know that kind of thing.

anyways.
in an interesting turn of events
my brother came home from camping today.
and apparently he pierced his nose.
idk i haven't really seen him i passed him while driving today but that's it.
and my mom is kind of freaking out.
i think it's weird if he really did. boys with piercing...freak me out.
i kind of dont' think boys should have piercings. but that's just me.
especially not nose ones though..
to each their own i guess.
and well i need sleep. exhausted.
good night.

birthday.

yup. it's my birthday.
i'm exhausted though have to get up early again tomorrow.
need to fill out two applications, but i can't figure out how to make them open up in word so that i can type on them.
blah.
so tired.
need sleep. goodnight.

Happy June!

soo sat in at my internship thing today from 9 until 4. then i talked to my supervisor for thirty more minutes about life. he's a pretty cool dude. and i'm glad that he asked me a bunch of questions and they were like the right ones to ask, so i just like talked a lot. ahha.
but it's okay.
went to target for a bit.
came home didn't really do anything.
haha. went with my mom to her friends to talk about stuff.
now i'm watching glee :)
i love it.
OH MAN next week is already the season finale.
that's sad.....
oh well
anyways my dad let me order two pairs of toms for my birthday WIN!
and they just put new pairs online. so i bought another vegan pair, and a white pair which i'm going to decorate. it's going to be sweettttt.
also tomorrow is my birthday.
still dont' want to be 21.
but it's going to happen regardless.
plus three people already wished me happy birthday.
well one girl is from signapore so my birthday is already happening there.
and i guess the other two people are just lazy and didn't want to do it tomorrow?
who knows.
haha
and while cleaning my room/preparing to move i found a bunch of cards with quotes on them.
so i'm going to write a lot of them now so that i can throw them out, but still remember the quotes i like!

When you blame others you give your power to change - Douglas Noel Adams

You can speak well if your tongue can deliver the message of your heart. - John Ford

The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong. - Mahatma Gandhi

But love your enemies, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and you shall be the children of the highest. - Luke 6:35

Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy. -Matthew 5:7

Every person is Christ for me, and since there is only one Jesus, that person is the one person in the world at that moment. -Mother Teresa

To err is human, to forgive divine. - Alexander Pope.

But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. -Romans 5:8

We have seen his star in the east and have come to worship him. -Matthew 2:2

For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. -Romans 3:23

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. - John 3:16

Yet all who received him to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God. -John 1:12

For they drank from the spiritual rock that followed them, and the rock was Christ. - 1 Corinthians 10:4

and now i leave you, for i must sleep. gotta get up early for the internship stuff again.
hanging out with my biffle for the rest of the day (after i leave the internship)
of course i have to renew my license.
jeez. stupid pictures.
haha
good night