Monday, August 30, 2010

school..

hi.
school started today.
the classes are going to kill me. well at least the ones for today since they are both research and writing intensive.
although the kid from my greek class from last year is in one of them. and i basically think he's awesome. and he's hilarious so it makes me happy haha.
uh.
guitar looks like it will work out nicely :)
love it.
my friends are already driving me crazy.
well mostly the one she's invited freshmen into our group. one of them is really nice but there are like three others and we already have a big friend group. it's annoying.
whatevs.
need to shop around in giant now. so i send you my love. :)

oh and my peer kids are AMAZING! i love them so much! ahha they are so great. and so funny and sassy. it makes my life :)
and finally hung out with our third peer partner since he hasn't really been around, and he's really nice.
quiet but really nice.
we have more plans with our peer children this weekend. i'm super excited! :)

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Circle of Trust

so have been at school all week doing my peer mentoring stuff you know.
it's been pretty boring mostly we just listen to people tell us basically the same thing they did over the summer. and since i haven't been sleeping that well/been talking to my roommate til early hours of the morning i'm pretty exhausted. haha
so yeah my roommate Sam came on Saturday so that was cool. our apartment is coming along. eventually i will post pictures. once it looks fantabulous of course. and my room is amazing. i actually have a closet this year! ahha. and i have this whole wall of postcards. (well the entire wall isn't filled...yet !) and it looks pretty awesome.
i really enjoy it.
i'm a little nervous about paying rent but i'm sure i'll be able to handle it when the time comes. i always get nervous about rent. i'm going to need to start a job like immediately. probably should get two jobs just in case.
anyways my wonderful peer children don't show up until saturday. since they are transfer students. i'm kind of sad because everyone elses show up tomorrow. :/
so me and my partners don't really have anything to do well they are making us help everyone else move in and such. but they didn't even give us a schedule for the next two days and they ripped our kids off for a lot of things on saturday and sunday. which i'm not happy about.
but whatever i figure if i don't have a lot to do friday i might go home to get my pants and some more shirts. and random other things that i kind of want. and maybe take a few things home that i dont' feel like i will use/need.
i also reallllllyy need to write my internship paper so i think i'll do that tonight. since i'm basically free all night. unless i go play mafia or tye dye with people. which i dont' think i'm going to ha.
so anti social when it comes to the people of peer mentoring. oh wells.
i like the program but the people in it aren't necessarily the type of people i enjoy hanging out with. considering they like to party. alot.

also got my school loan worked out. am finally validated/checked in. which is nice.
i hate loans they take forever to work out. so hopefully it's all good.
i think that's basically it. my school books cost like 275 dollars have no idea if that's good or bad. but oh well. and like four of my classes need like five books which is kind of ridiculous. but you do what you have to.
that's basically it. wish my peer kids came sooner.
anyways i'm on the wifi at giant since i have no internet in my apartment yet haha.
but i need to get some bags and candy for my peer kids. so yup. going to write my paper tonight. it must be done.
and i think that's basically it for the update of my life.
woo.
oh yeah for peer mentor training we've been doing these ice breaker games. like get to know you games and today we did circle of trust. okay so it's like you have a circle of chairs everyone sits on one then everyone turns to one side so that their legs are like on the back of someone else then you lean back so that you are laying on the person behind you. then the trainers start taking out the chairs so that you are holding the person up on top of you while the person under you holds you up. and dude let me tell you my quads BURNED. ahah. i was like wow i need to work out more or something. it was kind of bad. oh well.
ha alright. don't know when i'll blog again...or when i'll have internet so far well for now :)

Saturday, August 21, 2010

BLAHHHHH

so i moved into my new apartment today...only to come home because i def cried like al ittle homesick freshmen.
sigh i'm just not ready to go back to school. a lot of stuff hasn't fallen into place and it just sucks.
like tomorrow i have to go back up already and i'm supposed to check in. but guess who isn't going to be able to..
yeah that would be me. because i have a hold on my account because of the business office. i'm so screwed.
sigh.
i don't want to go back to school. :/
it's my last year and i'm freaking out.
yup.
i mean i'm sure it will be fun and all. but i'm not readyyyyy.
blahbuaoeiaefoaif
:(
i'm going to bed now. i'm exhausted.
i hope everything works out tomorrow :(

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Perfectly Imperfect.

Last night was my one and only concert of the summer.
now i can't decide if it makes it more awesome. or sadder.
anyways the day started off with me getting ready. woo
then picked up the biffle at like 12:15. we hit up the library so she could print out the email confirming the fact that she won the meet and greet to meet demi. :)
then we headed to NJ.
crazy times.
some people cannot drive. seriously. they like tail gate you then they pass you and give you angry looks. or the speed limit is 65 and they go 50.
ridic.
anyways we arrived there safely.
and thennnn we realized we forgot the tickets.
uh yes.
sadtimes.
but no worries they luckily printed out new ones for us after Ali gave them all the information they needed and such.
it was good.
but then Ali got to go in for soundcheck and to meet Demi
and i was stuck outside.
so i hung out with this crazy mom for this girl who went in with ali.
it was hilarious. we talked about the interesting outfit choices people have. pedophiles (for Nick) and cougars (for Kevin and Joe) and how hot it was. until it rained then how much it would suck if it rained the entire time.
so we hung out for like three hours.
yup just me and this mom.
we also talked about how Jonas is good because they are so clean cut and none of that cursing stuff :)
it was funny.
there were also these guys walking around giving out promos of their cd's/making you buy them for five dollars.
met Justin Tyler. which he let me listen to his music. and it was pretty good. so i thought what the hey so i bought one of his promo cd's, which had five songs on it. which is pretty good. and i figured why not. plus he was wearing red toms. ahha :)
he's from Cali and he writes all his own stuff, sings and performs it too. pretty cool.
THEN FINALLY we got to go in. by the time we got in it was almost seven which is ridiculous since the doors were supposed to open at 6.
anyways finally got to my seat (Section 101 Row R Seat 12) and the concert had already started.
yeah.
that was dumb.
but it was only Alyson Stoner talking and showing previews from Camp Rock 2 with Jordan and Anna Maria.
so it was alright.
then they showed us some dance moves from the movie.
and then Alyson sang her single "Make History" which was surprisingly better than I expected, mostly because i had no idea what to expect.
she's also a really good dancer.
After her Jordan Francis came out and sang start the party with Alyson and Anna Maria.
he's a crazy awesome dancer too.
Also Demi's back up band came out to play the music. which i love them so i was excitedddd. especially Kevin (@kevinmakesmoney) he makes me laugh hysterically with his tweets :)
anyways after that they all sang We Rock. which was kind of weird because JB and Demi weren't even out to sing it.
so it was kind of dumb...
oh well.
then Demi came out she rocked Get Back right away. which was awesome. Then she did La La Land. which was cool because the screens in the back would flash certain words. it looked awesome :)

that's the lines that were showing up too. and that's how close she got :) super awesome.
Then she sang Remember December.

It was like girl empowerment central when she was out. it was awesome :)
Which basically led to more girl empowerment when she sang catch me (which i can play on the guitar!!) and dont' forget together kind of like a medley. it was interesting because catch me was like all light and happy and then dont forget she kind of seemed to get like angry. it was interesting. i dont know if it was an act or she was remembering things because of it. but it was cool.
after that was Got Dynamite, which was cool because she had these awesome dance moves with the backup dancers. makes me wish i could dance

really enjoyed the sparks :)
After that she sang Here We Go Again,

some of my favorite back up band members :)
followed by Brand New Day and then Can't Back Down. Which she changes outfits for. she also sings one of the songs from the soundtrack that i have no idea what it is. it could be different summers. or the other one she sings. yeah i'm bad...wait isn't it called Take It All Back? anyways i'm sure you know what i'm talking about!
anyways after that they do It's On.
then after that Demi's set is done.
so we were waiting for Jonas to come out and next thing i know people around me are like looking back and like freaking out amongst themselves and i looked and i was like so what it's some girl.
and then Ali was like it's DANIELLE!
and i was like uh okay. then she was like HELLO IT'S KEVIN'S WIFE.
and i was like ohyeah hahaha. this summer has clearly messed with my head because i was just like big deal who is Danielle?
bhaha. anyways she's a lot shorter in person than i expected.
but she's also super pretty. i tried to get a picture. but my camera still has a broken graphic card. so i couldn't tell what any of the pictures were that i was getting so i'm lucky i got any.
anyways. then it was time for Jonas
they played Bounce to pump everyone up which was awesome sauce.
then they came out playing Feelin' Alive.
Followed by Hold on, Year 3000, where they had people on crazy bouncing stilts.
then was Play My Music. Heart and Soul. And then Nick sang introducing Me. it was super funny though because Joe challenged him to sing it in 2 minutes and 10 seconds but the song i guess is supposed to be 2:30.
so Nick tried and he sang real fast and he still was saying the words it was impressive
but he didn't do it. he was six seconds too long.
and right afterwards he fell on the ground it was pretty hilarious. then Joe and Kevin came out and Joe did this weird little dance/walk around Nick like haha you didn't do it.

it was hilarious. then Nick was like you couldn't do it! and Joe like pretended to sing it but was like mumbling random words and Nick was like what is that and he sang part of it again super fast. and Joe tried again and still obviously wasn't doing it. it was pretty awesome. haha
After that they did Gotta Find You and then Demi came out for This Is Me, and then they sang Wouldn't Change A Thing together and at the end when Demi was leaving they hugged and it was adorable :)
Then they did LA Baby.
(oh weird as i wrote that LA Baby came on my itunes shuffle! haha)

anyways here's Joe super close. looking nice like always :)
After that is the Beatles Cover Drive My Car. which was amazinggggg.
Then they sing Paranoid.
and after that Nick sings Who I Am.
:)
which since at first i listened to that song way too much when it came out. so i needed a break but now i love it again :)

after that they did Fly With Me. and it was cool since the thing where the piano was went in the air :)
Then they did When You Look Me In The Eyes
AND THEN
they did this awesome It's About Time Medley
they started with Mandy and they did One Day At A Time, 7:05, and I Am What I Am. they also did Just Friends and Hello Beautiful, and Pushing Me Away, AND BB Good, Turn Right, Make It Right and Biggest Fan as part of that wonderful acoustic medley they also were showing pictures from their lives in the back. it was so awesome.
I mean they didnt' play Please Be Mine then. (even though i tweeted that i think i just thought they were going to, but i honestly don't think they did...) they still played a crazy amount of songs acoustically and it was beautiful :)
after that they went and changed and did Love Bug
then it was encore time. which they did super fast.
it was SOS and Burnin' Up

Garbo during' SOS :)

Garbo and Joe :)
i must say i loved Joe's bow tie shirt ahha :)
anyways after Burnin' Up they were gone.
it was sad.
so we left, got food at Wendy's
and since it was after 11 we had to go through the drive thru even though i seriously had to pee. i mean i drank two bottles of water so i really had to go. but luckily we found a grocery store so i could go to the bathroom haha.
then we drove home. got home at like 1:30 in the morning. and went to bed.
it was a pretty awesome concert though. although i honestly could have done without all the camp rock songs. what can i say. i like camp rock but it's not worthwhile to have a camp rock tour. it's kind of lame.
but i blame disney for that :)

oh and by the way Ali sells bracelets that have words on them like Catch Me, We'll Be A Dream, Don't Surrender and Perfectly Imperfect on her dress like demi site. so if you would be interested in that you should get them :) I like them a lot you can get them
HERE
so do it :)
okay that's it i need to start packing for school. i leave friday...and i haven't packed ANYTHING.
i'm failing.
plus i don't really want to go back.
at least not yet.
and my loan hasn't gone through yet so i can't even really check in... :/
sigh.
well bye.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Happy 700th update.

I know it's ridiculous! I can't even believe i've had 700. I didn't even realize i blogged that much. ahah.
so in the update of my life.
lets see last night there were only THREE people there to help the customers and then clean up at the end of the night because one kid felt sick and went home.
SO ridiculous.
so then each of us had to take two different sections for clean up.
of course i was like freaking out since i obviously thought i would get out fairly early considering i wanted to leave for the beach!
but luckily we were done by 11. so it wasn't too bad.
so then i showered real quick and then they came to pick me up at 11:30 and we headed down to the beach! well to the house/trailer the one girls grandparents own/rent.
it was pretty awesome.
the trip down was hilarious. pry because we were all tired everything was super funny.
then today we got up at 9 had breakfast and headed to the beach.
and wouldn't you know it...
it was COLD and WINDY and the sun wasn't out.
it was sad.
but we made the best of it.
by falling asleep on the beach for two hours. all four of us. hahah
then when we woke up it was sunny! it was awesome.
also when we woke up there were all these people everywhere around the beach it was crazy.
but pretty awesome.
we had a good time making fun of the lifeguards. the one couldn't whistle at all.
he was kind of mean about it.
actually they were both mean in general. so whatevs.
they were also wearing sweatpants and a jacket...when the sun came out and it was kind of hot.
strange.
anyways so we had a food sand building contest.
it was hilarious.
i made an ice cream cone, with the details being the cone was a waffle cone, it had two scoops, whipped cream and a cherry. it was actually super lame looking but whatevs.
haha
someone else did a cupcake and collected seashells to put as sprinkles, it was pretty awesome.
the other girl did a three-tiered wedding cake and the last girl did a carrot and then drew a box around it. and called it carrot cake. it was hilarious.
one of the girl then asked these three guys to judge it for us. which made it even more hilarious.
and surprisingly i won.
which i took to be even more hilarious because it honestly wasn't that good.
then they were like so who made this.
and i was like i did, then they proceeded to congratulate me and shake my hand.
which by then i was like oh my gosh this day is ridiculous.
then we got a picture with them and it was even more hilarious.
quite the adventure.
then we went and played in the ocean.
well the four girls did, and the one girls friend showed up who's dad owns an ice cream shop down there (being Sea Isle, NJ) and we hung out.
then laid on the beach. eventually it was like 4:20 ish so we got pizza for dinner with mozzarella sticks and fries. then went to get ice cream and the kid gave it to us for free! which was awesome. except for the fact i always get ice cream when i work. ahha.
so i tried their mango-vanilla gelati flavor. and it was pretty good. i approved.
so by that time it was like 5:30 we had run into the girl whose grandparents own the trailer's friend. who was dressed up in a beer costume and it was hilarious. (he works at a liquor store) so we met him. then we got ice cream.
and by then it was kind of crazy cold and windy.
so we went back to the trailer packed it all up and left.
it was quite the adventure.
everything was pretty hilarious.
and now i'm just hoping i didn't get burnt. :/ i usually tan right away but idk i haven't been in teh sun that much this summer because of camp so we shall see.
anyways i'm exhausted so i'm going to sleep now!
good night!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

so my brother and his strange british friends are still here. although apparently they are planning on going camping in Boston. hope they have fun with that. haha.
it's been quite interesting having them around.
the one kid (who smokes and is a redhead) is getting sick so he keeps coughing every where. it kind of angers me a bit, because i mean I REALLLY don't want to get sick. i mean seriously. i'm so very annoyed right now.
so my brother and his friends have officially decided they are going to boston. so my brother just asked if he could borrow my mom's gps which i needed to borrow for the cr2 concert on this coming monday. but guess who thinks his reason is better. yeah. my brother. so DUMB. he always thinks that everything he does is better than what everyone else does.
sigh.
it's just stressful. i havent' seen him in what seems like FOREVER. and then he just brings these guys home with him (granted they are very nice and polite, it's kind of ridiculous how polite they are...) and it's like oh guess i won't be talking to you about your camp. which i kind of wanted to do. it's whatevs.
i'm just obviously upset/
girls are just so crazy emotional right?
sigh.
dumbdumbdumb.
so i guess i just need to let him borrow the gps.
annoyance.
:/

well whatever.
i'm going to the beach tonight after i work. and it's going to be awesome.
so i work until like 11 and then i'm going to the beach with my brothers ex-girlfriend (even though no one even like knew they dated) a friend from camp and this other girl whom i don't really know. it's going to be sweet though. hopefully it doesn't rain. and we are only going for a day. so it will be cool :)
they'll make me feel better.
yay friends <3
anyways i'm going to eat a peach. love peaches :)

Monday, August 9, 2010

love is here, love is now.

So i'm not sure if i mentioned on here like three weeks ago about my brother and his british friends from camp? i probably did consider it was a shock when they showed up and then they kept me up for hours and woke me up earlier than i wanted to be up.
well it was a shock when they showed up again TODAY. because they were done camp and i guess they don't go home until the 18th. yeah that's nine days from now. so i'm not sure if this means i'll be seeing a lot of them... or if they plan on doing these random trips to random places?
who knows. either way i guess i'll be getting to know them better.
so strange.
i mean they are both really nice, and the one still likes to be the center of attention while the other doesn't so much.
but lets paint a picture here.
last time i met them i just came home from camp and was sort of trying to nap, considering i was exhausted, and i went to bed early that night and left the next day to go back to camp

(ooo on a sidenote it's 11:11 :) making a wish)
anyways so i was tired then and probably not in the best mood.
well today i happened to be wearing my glasses (i sort of thought i had pink eye this morning and i was freaking out so i decided to just wear my glasses, luckily i just rubbed my eye too much when i woke up) and basically looked like a bum.
but who needs to be attractive looking to guys with accents right?
hahah
oh life.
it's too funny.
also i'm pretty sure i have a dentist appointment sometime soon but i can't remember what day and i can't find where i wrote it down... soo um that's bad. considering i weirdly enjoy going to the dentist, well minus when they tell me the wisdom teeth must come out. such lies.
also i'm almost done house sitting! they come back tomorrow.
so yay.
anyways i'm tired. i've been getting up earlier than i'd like to, to go let the dog out and feed the fishies and such.
so going to bed now! yayaya
good night.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

you know what

you know what i really don't like?
when you go to someone's going away party because they are leaving for boot camp, and they don't show up on time for their own party.
and then while they are there they only talk to you for like two minutes
AND you haven't seen said person for a very long time. over six months.
it's kind of disappointing.
although said person's new guy seems much nicer than the old one.

also i don't like being able to sample any ice cream flavor i want at any time. it's getting really bad.


but you know what i love?
when my camp friends visit me at work. :)
they make my night. i love it.
they make the night so much better.
and they even can tell.
since one of them pointed at that my whole face like brightened up when they showed up.
which is true since i was about to fall asleep behind the ice cream counter before they got there :)
I <3 camp friends.

i also enjoy house sitting, and sitting and watching tv in said house and eating all their wonderful food...although it's also making me fat since i basically eat everything they have :/

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

going round and round...

so life is weird when i'm not at camp. I kind of feel like i'm wasting it away just doing nothing.
maybe i should start working out again.
i dont know.
all i know is i've been wasting time watching tv. lots of disney.
although last night i watched all the episodes of psych that i missed and the second episode of this season made me laugh so hard that i started to cry. haha. it was awesome. i love that show so much. it's hilarious. i can't wait for the new episode tonight :)

anyways in other news i got offered a job to house sit for a few days. so that will be good. the only problem is i think they expect me to like stay over there...which is kind of weird.
oh well.

also been having this hilarious conversation with a kid from camp about being kangaroo kourted. it's been pretty great.
so yeah that's pretty much it :)

p.s. Selena Gomez makes such catchy music. it's ridiculousss

Monday, August 2, 2010

Cast Your Burdens.

so today i hung out with my youngest brother. it was awesome. we went to the bank, the library, the post office, walmart and target. it was a good time. haha
then i dropped him off at my mothers house...aka the place she is staying.
weirdness.
then i did some laundry and went back to pick him up and went to this random worship service it was awesome. i really enjoyed the random service. love praising God :)
plus it was a girl whom i met at camp and she goes to my church so it was fun talking to her about how we miss people from camp and making fun of the people from camp.
sad times.
i feel like i have no idea what to do with my time now. except make like billions of bracelets from string. haha.
on another note my one friend is leaving for national guard bootcamp in less than a week, and i think as my present to her i'm going to buy her a bible and like a mini notebook and write bible passages on the top of the pages of the notebook and have her like check them out. because i think it would be good for her. thoughts?
so yeah. that's basically it for now.
what an exciting life i live :)
Much love.
PS. i looked up Tenth Avenue North and i love them, LOVE finding Christian bands that are awesome :)

Don't Build your house on the sandy land.

(what what)
Don't build it too near the shore.
well it might be kind of nice but you'll have to build it twice
and you'll have to build your house once more.
you have to build your house upon the rock (JESUS)
the firm foundation on the solid spot
well the storms may come and go but the peace of God you will know.

:)
sorry its another camp song stuck in my head.
this time it was because i was at bible study and they mentioned Matthew 7:24 and wouldn't you know it, it's where that camp song is based from. ahha.
so ridiculously i have that song stuck in my head now.

anyways. i'm home from camp.
and i'm kind of sad.
I mean it was like six weeks of my summer.
Where i had an amazing time, made amazing Christian friends, whom i just now realize i really needed the support that they all gave me.
it's basically awesome.
Also this last week of camp was hilarious.
probably because i was sooo tired that i laughed at everything even if it wasn't funny.
let me just think of hilarious stories from the week
well last sunday my dad and brother dropped me off because my dad needed my car.
so at camp there was this kid named Jeff. he's six years younger than me, and i'm pretty sure he had a crush on me. but it's alright. anyways we were walking down to the pavillion in the rain and he was under my umbrella, because he couldnt' stand to get wet and he was like so uh who was that boy who was with you was that your brother? and i was like oh yeah that was my younger brother. he was like oh...how old is he? and i was like he's your age and he was like oh cool...yeah he's big.
and i just burst out laughing. because Jeff was like super skinny and i felt like i would step on him and he would break.
but i greatly enjoyed that he thought my youngest brother was big.
so funny.
so i got stuck in a cabin with a girl who liked to tell me her life story and how she loved this one guy we worked with and he liked her back and blah blah blah. and it was kind of annoying, so i got to the point where i just let her talk AT me, not to me. just AT me and basically i would just not give her any advice like i had been doing because it was getting ridiculous. for one thing we weren't allowed to date and she was like trying to set up secret meeting times with him. which was dumb, even leadership was on her for that, as in they were watching her. anyways so she sang the cabin awake the other day. and it was kind of terrible because she was losing her voice so it kept cracking and it was basically the worst way to wake up. considering she was waking the campers up. and me and another staff member who had still been sleeping as well. i kind of wanted to punch her. mostly because i'm not a morning person.
but Nicole (the other staff member) was hilarious and took it to a whole new level and sang her around the cabin (singing someone around is basically only done in the dining hall, so for someone to be sung around the cabins is ridiculous) of course the girl who sang to wake everyone up proceeded to sing around the cabin. it was painful to my ears. she was singing "rise and shine and give God the glory glory." repeatedly so Nicole remixed it and it was awesome. then one of the campers even told the girl who sang us awake that she needed to stop singing because she sounded like Hannah Montana. which was HILARIOUS. even though i love Miley. i can admit that sometimes she doesn't sound that great.
so it was pretty epic ESPECIALLY when the girl who was singing THOUGHT that i said it. it basically made it better. ahha
then when we went to eat we for real sang her around the dining hall the entire meal. we barely let her sit since it was unlimited songs/parades. it was awesome.

lets see on wednesday night i was in the craft room with Liv and Phil and Isaac came downstairs to do crafts.
yeah.. they did crafts
Phil was making a boat and Isaac was finishing some project he had been working on all summer.
anyways there were lie 80 million flies down in the craft room and Phil was using popsicle sticks. next thing you know he was going around killing flies by bending the popsicle stick back (within reason, as in it didn't break) and killing all the flies. it was gross and hilarious at the same time. because i was tired i was laughing so hard that i was like tearing up. and Isaac was looking at me so weirdly and i was just like i really need to go home and he was like you need to go home? and i was like um yes i'm so ridiculously tired that i'm laughing at dumb things.
and then i laughed more.
and now Phil won't let me forget that he killed all those flies and that i wouldn't stop laughing.
so great.

oh and another story with Isaac then!
so the girl who sang the cabin awake is known to go around and tell people random facts during conversations for no reason, or for not even being apart of a conversation and just walking up and tell you something about her life then leave.
so she of course did that to Isaac while i was standing there and after she walked away he was like you know i should just write down everything she tells me in a notebook and write a book. and i was like you know i should do that too, we could write a best seller and he was like awesome lets do it.
so we had a pretty awesome bonding moment. because then we were talking about how it would become her favorite book and she would be like i can relate to this person so much, and it would be because it was about her life.
it probably seems mean that we talked about that, but it's mostly because she seriously tells anyone anything about her life that you reallly didn't want to know like how much she has left after she paid tuition. and things like that. information that isn't necessary to share.

i also learned how to play "up the river down the river", well we just call it River at camp. it's pretty cool and i'm getting better at it. i greatly enjoyed playing it with Jacob last night though. we had staff weekend this weekend. it was so fun. after the campers left saturday we had our meeting then super cleaned camp then basically did crazy staff things all weekend. it was awesome. we played lots of games well i played River with Sam and UJ while eveyrone else played Hocker and Ultimate. then we had swimming, then we did our banquet which was hilarious especially since they gave everyone ridiculous awards that were hilarious. and there was great food. afterwards we got a nice gift. well if you were there all summer you got a zip up hoodie, but i missed a week so sadness. then everyone got a nice long sleeved shirt. it's pretty awesome :)
then we did more swimming, then to victory hall where the guys played elimination for awhile and i played "JV" river with some people, it was only because there were too many people who wanted to play so we did "varsity" and JV. it was pretty hilarious because then they guys slowly stopped playing and joined in River. so then we had three games of river going.
anyways my favorite River friend is now Jacob. he's hilarious and when eveyrone is tired things get so much more hilarious.
plus i love Jacob's laugh it's so infectious. it's amazing :)

anyways after we were in victory hall we went to the dining hall and had food at 1 in the morning. there was ice cream, as in good ice cream not the lame kind they serve when children are there, bagel bites, soft pretzel and jalapeno poppers. then more river was played and i went to bed at like 2:30
then we got up this morning had breakfast at 9. had to drag all of our stuff down to the pavillion because another group of people rented the camp out and they needed all the cabins immediately.
so we ate then found out that the stupid renter people needed the pavillion so we dragged all our stuff to the day camp tent/put it in the back of the directors truck to drive over to the tent.
then we had a small morning service at the chapel, which was awesome. then we did testimonies as staff and well people cried. including me. it's kind of ridiculous how many times i cried this summer already. and most of the times it wasn't like i'm so sad crying it was like i'm telling my story and this is when i cry crying. i mean i talked about God placing me at camp to help me deal with my parents divorce and having to move and how i feel like being there helped me heal and i felt intense love from everyone. and then i cried. but it's okay because other people cried before me.
and then my one friend Andrea told me she cried when i was talking and i was like well you made me cry when you told your testimony.
then we all had to say goodbye to everyone and more crying was involved and lots of hugging. and Phil made me laugh because he was like yeah so i killed all those flies for you and i was like haha oh man yeah i appreciated that then i like started to walk away and he was like you were really tired that night weren't you and i was like um yes i was, and he was like yeah becasue you were laughing really hard and it really wasn't that funny, and i was like haha yeah i was really really tired that night.
then more hugging happened wiht other people and SM (the boy who basically creeped me out all summer because he was always ridiculously happy) gave me this ridiculous bone-crushing hug for like thirty seconds. and he was like thanks so much for all you did in crafts, while squeezing me and i was like ummyeah no problem and i was like trying to get away. it was awkward.
then i walked away as fast as possible from him. and my dad came and i took all my stuff away and didnt' cry at all on the way home. so proud. but i still feel like at any possible moment i might break down because of how much i miss those people.
also remind me to look up a band called Tenth Avenue North.
and i took a four hour nap today. it was glorious and i greatly enjoyed.
i also went to bible study which was awesome..
and we were in little prayer circles and this guy whom i have never seen before at bible study (but then again i've been missing for like seven weeks) was like oh by the way we are the same age. (well after i told them to pray for me to help with dealing with being out of the wonderful christian bubble of camp and having the wisdom to handle going back to school and everyone there not necessarily being Christian and being in my senior year of college) and i was kind of like okay. because God did do a pretty good job with him...
but it was weird because he like mentioned his family and a wife but i don't know if he was like saying that to help explain what he was talking about because it would make sense in that context. he also had just talked about seeing a cute girl and having to remind himself he was there for God and not to find a girl.
so i was basically really confused and had no idea why he said that.
so strange.
anyways after bible study i went to the store to buy some necessities and i completely forgot that in the real world there are automatic doors.
i seriously haven't seen one in what feels like at least a month when it's actually probably only two weeks. but i just forgot that they existed.
it's kind of sad.
hah.
anyways i need to go to sleep now i'm still exhausted and i'm hanging out with my little brother tomorrow so i have to be awake at like 9:45 to be prepared to pick him up from lifting to hang out.
yay.
good night :)