wisdom teeth extraction of doom.

wisdom teeth out.
mouth hurts a lot.
got them out tuesday.
went in, my doctor gave me the iv then he was like you'll feel loopy in twenty seconds in like fifteen seconds i was like woah everything looks weird then he asked me if i was feeling it and i was like uh huh then i guess i went to sleep idk. yo.
but then i woke up and my teeth were out and i just laughed a lot. then i told my one friend that the world looks nicer haha
idk. anyway life has been pretty boring, and painful.
just want to eat a hoagie or pizza or something but can't.
tired of food that isn't really solid. like ice cream or jello or something.
so annoying.
but oh well soon it'll be okay.
just need to ice my mouth a bit tonight because that actually helps a lot.
oh well.
anyway i'm exhausted because my mouth pain woke me up last night.
can't believe tomorrow is new years eve!
it's like two weeks til i go back to school.
majorly depressed. dont' want to go back.
not prepared for the futureeeeee
boo.
okay well that's it
hope y'all have been okay!

God Loves Ugly

Well Christmas has come and gone
i must say i got sick on christmas i felt like my head was going to explode.
but i'm feeling much better now.
gotta get my wisdom teeth out tomorrow.
:( all four.
quite the adventure that will be.
oh well.
also had to use all my christmas money i got for rent.
so great.
not.
but i just got scheduled for two days of work next week
i just finished housesitting for someone and i'm babysitting new years eve. so hopefully that will bring in some money that i can put away (well most of it)
i really want to buy a pair of boots though and the more i think about it the more i think about this pair i saw at macy's when i was shopping with my grandma for christmas. she didn't like them, but i did. haha
they kind of look like combat boots, except not so manly.
hah i don't know i will have to save up and go shopping and see if they are how i remembered them and if i actually want them
you know?
anyways i hope you all got what you wanted :)
i got lovely gray wool cordones from Toms they are niceee, also got a sony ihome type of thing, some movies, socks, itunes card, clothing.
i enjoy it all
ALSO got Christa black's book God Loves Ugly, and i'm soooo excited to read it. of course i'm still working on the harry potter series. i keep stopping and then picking it up again. i just need to be fly through it then be done! then i'll read God Loves Ugly and this whole bag of books from my grandma! crazy!!!
anyways have a good night :)

of all the girls tossing rocks at your window.

Think i did alright with all my finals! John came over wednesday night to say goodbye before i went home on thursday. it was nice. is it weird that i kind of already miss him...
then nina slept over that night. it was crazy hah. then i we rudely woken up by chainsaws on thursday morning at like 8. because they were cutting down trees right outside my window. i was like why do they have to do that at 8 in the morning... grr.
had my last final at 2:30 finished in less than an hour...it was great. i studied a lot for that final though so hopefully i did alright.
So I got home from school on Thursday night :)
went to see my grandma whom i haven't seen in ...awhile. for her birthday. she was really happy to see me so i'm glad i went.
it is wonderful being home and knowing i have off for a month.
although i work tonight, but that's alright i need the money...
i wish she would schedule me more.. but so far it seems this is the only day i'm scheduled.
sigh.
oh wells
friday i went christmas shopping with my grandma at the mall it was fun! there is this store at the mall that seems to be newer and they have a bunch of things made of alpaca fur. it was pretty awesome!
friday night i watched inception, it was good, the ending was kind of lame though...
then some random kid from camp called me...it was awkward since i didn't know who it was..
haha.
oh well. he like talked to me for an hour though. it was strange haha.
yesterday my dad, brothers and i got a christmas tree :) i loveee the smell of christmas trees so i'm super excited we got one :)
went and did some shopping with my dad. then last night i watched the movie the other guys with my dad. it was alright. idk. it's the kind of comedy you expect from will ferrel now
today i went to church. and then i cleaned up most of the stuff i brought home from school.its still a mess since my brothers never clean so i did my best.
have work tonight at 6:30
really need to do some christmas shopping... like so badly. guess i'll do that tomorrow...oh well.
well i don't know that's pretty much it.
oh wait.. hear some things about someone and i must say they are going down a dangerous slippery slope. they also called me a bitch. not to my face of course. but what can you do.
i'm not surprised she would say that. she's changed a lot from who she was last year.
one of the reasons we are no longer friends.
i think she's pretty close to doing legit drugs...instead of just getting high from pills. but you know to each their own.
i mean i feel bad how our friendship ended, but it happens.
oh well.
i'm going to go do something idk. haha
have a good day!

study.study.study.

so it's finals week.
pretty much the worst week of the year.
my eyes are going to fall out of my head. then my brain is going to melt out.
just sayin'
anyways...lets see last week ended alright. i guess. can't say i actually remember i think i studied too much so far this week...
that's all i remember doing..
hmm no seriously i can't remember what i did this weekend...
oh wait oh wait!
okay friday was the emotions dance show. i always love going to that they have such cool dances. it makes me wish i could dance :)
after that that sam and i made pancakes at like 11 at night and took weird crazy pictures. they are hilarious.
we were basically dancing around the kitchen to crazy rap music
.
I believe we danced to Miley's can't be tamed. and if i chose the right one that should be above this.
we also did crazy dances to rubber band man..
haha. i don't even know.
um went to bed at like one in the morning.
uh woke up at like noon worked on my final paper for awhile. actually for like six hours. even though i only wrote like four pages within that time. sam left to visit her b/f he was having a party.
i watched Across the Universe.
worked on my paper for a bit after that.
then went to bed.
sunday.
went to church.
established my internship :)
uh went to the choir/jazz band concert.
met John's parents. his dad called him a nerd... i laughed.
what can i say it was funny.
um the concert was exciting sang some christmas carols
SANTA (I KNOW HIM!) was there. and Frosty and Mrs. Frosty and Rudolph. it was a crazy time yo.
but it was very enjoyable!
um then we went to church again.
then i studied all night.
had a final yesterday at 2:30
think i did okay.
then i studied like all last night again
had a final today at 11
umm then after that i watched two weird movies on hulu
(happily never after 1 and 2)
and then i started packing to go home and cleaning my room. when i really should be studying...so yeah. i'll be studying some more. then i have a review session tomorrow morning at 9.
my teacher is just mean.
then i'll study some more have a jam session. study some more. then nina is having a sleep over with us i guess.
then thursday. some more studying final at 2:30 then homeeeeeee!!!! YESSSS
i'm so excited.
:)
also the people that live below us have been fighting every night this week at like 1-4 in the morning. not the entire time but just within those hours. it's really annoying. especially since it's finals week. hopefully they work it out.
well going to study now. finally...haha

exhaustion.

Today I kind of feel like my friendship with someone is kind of gone. I mean she still texts me about coming to dinner, but that's about it. And when i go to dinner i really dont talk to her mostly because she usually just talks about science the entire time with John or talks to Kate. so i usually just talk to nina. or sam.
i don't know. we used to have a pretty good friendship i thought but this semester she's been acting really weird. And i barely ever see her except for dinner. It's just weird. i don't even know why she still invites me to dinner, it's kind of useless.
And dinner's are always scheduled around what Kate can do, it's really annoying.
Like today we are eating at 5. that's in 45 minutes. i'm not even hungry... i mean that could be because i ate some special k like 45 minutes ago... or the fact that we normally dont eat until like 6.
I kind of just don't feel like going. I'm so tired, i haven't been sleeping very well. And I want to make sure my paper is good and then send it in. which i guess i could be doing now. but no thanks. haha.
anyways i don't know i'm feeling kind of sick, i'm afraid that i might have a fever. I"m so cold right now and the heat is on in my room but i can't even feel it. i'm like ready to crawl under my blankets and take a nap or something.
but i would probably miss dinner if i did that.
sigh. i just need to get through this week and next week, then i'm home for break.
I can do it.
sigh.
guess i'll work on my paper for a bit, go to dinner, then wait three hours until the Christmas candle light service which i love.
it's just so cold out. i'm so tired
i need to call my grandma too.
goodness.
well goodbye.

"i don't know if you know this about her...but she's really quiet."

Alright so the peer mentor dinner...
yeah it was just as awkward as i suspected.
first i showed up and people were supposed to be taking pictures the first thirty minutes. um my camera is at home hopefully getting fixed. woo awesome.
so i just sort of went for a table where there were already people and asked to join them. i mean i talk to most of them so that wasn't bad.
i took one picture with one person.
yup. shows how many people actually enjoy talking to me at those things. it's whatever. so i just sort of stayed around the table.
then wonderful awkward mike showed up (my third peer partner in case you have forgotten ;) ) and he like saw me waved and came and sat near me right away. i was like oh goodness. so then we were both like awkwardly talking about how we can't wait for break then the conversation ended then. it was a good time. haha
so anyways dinner finally came. it was kind of lame it was salad, bread, green beans, baked ziti and meatballs. we get served these things on a regular basis at school. some catering service it was... the dessert was good though they had like pumpkin roll. and i LOVE the icing center in those things. so that was worth it.
after dinner they gave out awards, only two of them they were like best leader and an achievement award or something.
then it was time for the tributes to the seniors. there were 28 seniors this year.
guess whose tribute was last.
yup.
mine. ahha. my name isn't even last in the alphabet.
i was like oh it's cool they totally forgot about me. whatever.
but they didnt' then which was good because you know i would have been like ahha they really did forget about me. that could have been bad.
anyways the one girl who did it was one of the first people i talked to at summer orientation and she has a pair of toms that i have. which is cool, and then the other guy is actually my cohort leader. which he totally creeped me out the first time i saw him he like kept staring at me and it was weird. but he's pretty cool, and it makes me laugh that he did my tribute.
but it was nice. it wasn't super funny like the first one the tribute to mr. etown. but it was still nice :)
after that we watched a mini seven minute video of pictures then we finally got to leave.
it took over four hours.
isn't that insane.
i think it is.
and i'm glad it's done. i also realized i need to get some stuff done.
i have a presentation tomorrow. that i completely forgot about until like twenty minutes ago.
granted it should be super easy.
but still i was contemplating sweat pants tomorrow but if i have to present that's a no go
such a shame.
anyways after i left i checked my messages, i had six. (5 from twitter. one from John!) the one from John was so nice :)
he was like "thanks again for hanging with me today it was a good escape!"
it totally made me smile because i had been thinking about texting him before the dinner and telling him i really enjoyed our random drive. but then i didn't so i'm glad he texted me that. hah :)
anyways i'm going to prepare my presentation and do some homework i guess... haha.
good night!

Why do you let me stay here? - She & Him

Went to the Lutheran Church in town today. It was kind of awesome. I mean i really do enjoy the non-denominational church services at school at night, but there is just something so much better about going to a real church and having a real service with real pastors giving the sermon instead of just random students. I dont know, i feel like i got so much more out of the service today. the sermon was about Matt. 3:1-12. and the Pastor was talking about cuttings things out of your life that make you feel dead or just as if you can't find God or Jesus. and i realized I did that. and then i was like wow. but then i also was wondering if maybe i just take things the way that i see them instead of how they are actually being portrayed...
but i guess everyone probably does that.
anyways sam and her b/f and John were supposed to go with me, but then sam and her b/f decided not to so then it was only me and john.
and it's always super awkward how i always seem to end up in these situations with john when it's like we are on a date or something.. happens so much.
but it wasn't bad. i mean i picked him up then we were going and he like got in the car and started talking then he was like oh good morning and i was like hah good morning. so we went to church and apparently John goes to that one pretty frequently so he was like telling me a lot of things about it, which was funny. but it was cool.
even one of his bio teachers were a deacon. so she came over and he was like yeah this is my friend sam she's a lute too! and i was just like oh goodness and i was like shaking my head and she was like oh is he embarrassing you, and i was like hah no but john was all OH YEAH Everyday! i was like oh jeez. HAH. He's so crazy hah
i really liked the church. i would totally consider going there more often. i would even consider doing my internship there. the only thing that was weird was that the kneel to receive holy communion and in the beginning to silently confess their sins.
i dont' know that was just strange and i was completely not used to that.
anyway. it was a good service. afterwards we walked through the cemetery (now that's a hot date.. ahha kidding this wasn't a date)
but it was crazy there were like gravestones from the war in 1776! isn't that crazy! it was so cool! so then we left and John just got a new car this weekend so he was like want to see my car! so we like were sitting in his car (i know that's strange) and then he was like do you want to go for a drive! i was like um sure haha. so we just went for this random sunday afternoon drive!! haha. it was kind of cool we almost got lost. but somehow he figure out where we were. i have no idea how hah but whatevs. it was cool we like were in the country which i absolutely LOVE. it was so cool and we saw some alpacas which john like freaked out about he was like screaming like a little boy. i was like goodness gracious. haha. i mean it was cool but not really screaming worthy haha. but its' whatever i'm used to him doing that. hah so we finally made it back to school. it was cool. his car is super nice. and i was happy that we got to hang out since it feels like we never see him anymore. so yeah.
then i came back to the apartment did some laundry. i have to go to this peer mentor dinner at 5:30. i really dont' feel like going. i just don't like peer mentor things i always feel so awkward. but oh well it's the only one i'll ever attend so i guess i'll just go.
anyways i should pry do some work... now that i've procrastinated all afternoon. read about bonnie and clyde. they are pretty cool. i don't know i just really like outlaw things right now i guess. haha.
oh also if the rumors are true about joe and ashley thinking about marriage, i think i might barf. i mean it hasn't even been six months. disturbing.
she's totally using him, but oh well he has to live his life however he wants.
yup. okay bye.!

Thelma and Louise!

pretty sure i'm getting sick. i have been freezing pretty much all day.
quite depressing. only one week of classes then finals. and i would get sick. boo.
anyways watched Up In The Air last night. it was kind of depressing. i felt bad for Ryan (the main character).
but then afterwards watched Thelma and Louise and that movie is freaking awesomeeee
well the one with Geena Davis and Susan Sarandon.
yeah they are awesome.
it was like woman empowerment right there.
greatly enjoyed it.
also since i watched it with Sam we were deciding who we would be and we decided she would be thelma and i would be louise. haha. crazy times.
went to the mall today. and TJ Maxx saw some things that i wanted from Tj Maxx but i'm a bit broke. quite sad. also saw a possible dress for junior/senior. if i choose to go, it was only thirty dollars which wasn't bad and it was black and white. i mean i only currently have thirty dollars. i feel like i should have gotten it, but i needed money for gas for when i go home so yeah.
whatevs.
anyways it's cold
and i'm tired but pry going to watch more movies tonight.
including how to train your dragon! and thelma and louise again haha.

getting work done. oh yeah.

so i'm surprisingly actually getting stuff done. yeahhhh
as in i actually finished what i needed to finish earlier today rather than late in the night tonight.
haha.
lets see i have three papers that are/were due this week and one due next week.
so finished the one that was due today at like 4:30 yesterday. (granted this one was also almost done i was just reviewing the final of the rough draft that i had already been working on.)
finished the one that's due tomorrow at around 5 today. it had to be 4-5 pages, i had no pages done and i started at like 1 pm...
haha. i also kept going on facebook and such because i was procrastinating badly. but thankfully my classes were cancelled today sooo i got to get work done!
woo!
i also figured out my finals schedule. and i am done the 16. so i'm def going home that day. then i think i'm going to call my grandma up this week and see if going christmas shopping with her on the 17 would be okay. :)
and maybe she will teach me how to knit that day too!
woo.
anyways i have another paper due friday i think that's only two pages though so that shouldn't be bad.
then my last paper is due next week and thats my king david paper that i just need to go over her comments and make it better. woo.
so yeah. i'm feeling better now that half of my papers are done.
anyways need to read for class. would love to sleep earlier tonight.
so good night!