Dont act like you don't care, because i know you do, yeah you do.

so i'm thinking about taking a twitter break. i mean i'll still check twitter and stuff, i just don't think i'll be tweeting for awhile. we'll see how long that lasts though.

so friday until today like two hours ago, we had no internet or tv. on friday i just thought that my computer was acting up, since it hates me so it randomly decides to just not let the internet connect. so i figured that was what happened. and i was super angry at my computer, so i went on with my day then that night i went to this improv comedy show that Mike is involved in it's called Mad Cow. So several of my friends and i went to it and it was extremely funny, and i thoroughly enjoyed it. Afterwards my friends, Sam, Kristin, Kate and Jenna came back to the apartment with me, and Clayton and his friend Brian were just chilling in the living room. so after i showed them my room since they all wanted to see it we went and talked to Clay and Brian, then Mike came back and my friends were telling Mike the things that they liked and the things they didn't like, which i think Mike appreciated since he's the captain of the group and wants to know what they can do better and what not.
and then people started to show up...
lots of people.
so Mike did ask me if they could have a party thursday night, because apparently it's a tradition, and i said yes because i mean it didn't bother me that much, i was just glad that he asked me lol.
anyways. so all the people start to show up. the music gets turned on and people start dancing and drinking, yes drinking, i would also like to clarify that mike and clayton are both 21 so for them to drink isn't a big deal, but i'm sure all the other people weren't necessarily 21. also i'm not 21, and i DO NOT drink. it's just not something i'm interested in doing, in fact i kind of think it's digusting. I do not approve of the way it makes some people act. you know? i mean it's not like i hate people who do drink, it's their life and they can do whatever they want, it's just not something i'm interested in.
anyways so the people, the music, it all starts happening, and Mike meanwhile tried to introduce me to as many people as he could, which i thought was extremely nice of him, even though most people probably won't remember me anyway. but you know it's the thought that counts. and so far i haven't ran into anyone who was at the party to know if they do remember anyway, although last night i was at dinner and saw two guys who had been talking to my friends and the one kid started to talk to me and he didn't know whether to take me seriously or not. which was rather entertaining.
i seriously enjoyed messing with his head. so two of my friend didn't drink, which made me feel better. i mean it's not like i told them to not drink and i wasn't mad that they did i just didnt' really expect it to happen. and when i did, i wasn't sure what to do. so having two of my friends not drink was very helpful. so i took those two back to their dorms first because they were going to hershey park on saturday. so then i got back to the apartment and one friend was like SAM! and gave me a hug and i was like... hi...haha. then i wondered to myself how drunk was she. i mean woah.
so an hour later i took them back to their dorms. they kept asking me if i was mad, and i was like no guys i'm not mad. and i really am not mad, just a little sad.
so i get back to the apartment and by that time a lot of people had been leaving (it was 2 in the morning i think it was good that they were leaving) and Mike asked me if i had taken my friends back to their dorms and i said yes, and this one drunk girl was all "your such a nice friend" then she like starts talking to me and i was like okay by this point i am tired, don't really like dealing with drunk girls whom i do not know and well i really wanted them to have had a designated driver to take them home, or to have called someone you know? where was their planning ahead?
the one girl threw up in the toilet, which i am SO grateful that she made it to the toilet. so i went ot bed at three, there were still four girls there, two of them stayed over night, one of them was def only a friend and just slept on the couch the other one... the your such a nice friend one...well that's probably another story...how would i know you ask? oh i heard stories. the positiveness of not being interested in drinking. in the morning i remember ALL the stories that were told the night before.
ha.
anyways i had to get up at ten to go to a lacrosse game with my peer group. which i love lacrosse and all, and i cheered on that Brian kid who was Clay's friend because he told us his number, but i was just really tired.
so after the game i went to giant did some food shopping came back to the apartment, cleaned up a bit.
i even cleaned the toilet. worst experience ever. YUCKKKK! but now it's clean and well i had bought this cleaning thing that you put in the tank and it's supposed to help clean for 2000 flushes soo lets hope it works. then i took a two hour nap and it was amazing.
then i went to dinner with my friend Kate, saw two of the kids from the party laughed hysterically at them and avoided them completely haha.
then i hung out with Kate in her room watched Grey's Anatomy which i have never watched before in my life, and then watched Dating in the Dark, most hilarious show ever. you should look it up on ABC lol. then we watche da show about OCD. came back to my apartment and i went to sleep it was amazing.
today i talked to my mom for longer than two minutes for the first time in like five days. she told me some things, then i hung up with her and cried.
and well basically i feel depressed now. so much stuff has been happening, and i just feel horrible.
so now i'm going to go to church on campus. and i think it will help. and i'll hang out with my friends and i'll feel so much better.
although today Clayton talked to me like alot and he asked me to drive him to Comcast to pay this bill that isn't ours and it's ridiculous but i drove him and it made me wonder why i had to drive him...since his car is here...
but you know i'll just wait til one day i hear all the deets. hah
so i think that's it.
don't worry about me, i'll be okay. :)