Hold On- Jonas Brothers

um.hi.so.
today hasn't really been a good day. i'm not even going to try and hide it, i had the most depressing weekend ever, and today kind of just got worse.
it happens.
i keep getting goosebumps up and down my legs and arms like every two minutes, it's very distracting, and annoying. but i think it's because i went into shock like an hour and a half ago. not like OHMYGOSHIJUSTHADANACCIDENT kind of shock. just like wow.that.sucks. kind of shock. i really shouldn't still be getting goosebumps. but whatever, they bring me back to reality.
you know it's two weeks and two days until i'm out of this town and at college.
what a weird thought.
i'm not going to be in the comfort of my home. I'm going to be in some apartment with two guys i don't even know.
what was i thinking. i don't even know.
i think i'm going to have an anxiety attack.

okay wow. i'm okay now. i just read Christa's latest blog, and i'm going to be okay.
so interesting the timing that just happened there. i was freaking out, then Christa posts on her twitter that she has a new blog. i go read it. and well i feel better now. i love Christa. :)

I'm not going to become a downer. i'm just not.
i guess none of this blog even makes sense, unless you know what happened today, but you know what that's okay.
i think one day i'll write about it. but i'm not ready yet.
thanks for putting up with my weirdness.
TCA's tonight. 36 minutes.
going to get a shower and be prepared.
you.are.beautiful.