Why do you let me stay here? - She & Him

Went to the Lutheran Church in town today. It was kind of awesome. I mean i really do enjoy the non-denominational church services at school at night, but there is just something so much better about going to a real church and having a real service with real pastors giving the sermon instead of just random students. I dont know, i feel like i got so much more out of the service today. the sermon was about Matt. 3:1-12. and the Pastor was talking about cuttings things out of your life that make you feel dead or just as if you can't find God or Jesus. and i realized I did that. and then i was like wow. but then i also was wondering if maybe i just take things the way that i see them instead of how they are actually being portrayed...
but i guess everyone probably does that.
anyways sam and her b/f and John were supposed to go with me, but then sam and her b/f decided not to so then it was only me and john.
and it's always super awkward how i always seem to end up in these situations with john when it's like we are on a date or something.. happens so much.
but it wasn't bad. i mean i picked him up then we were going and he like got in the car and started talking then he was like oh good morning and i was like hah good morning. so we went to church and apparently John goes to that one pretty frequently so he was like telling me a lot of things about it, which was funny. but it was cool.
even one of his bio teachers were a deacon. so she came over and he was like yeah this is my friend sam she's a lute too! and i was just like oh goodness and i was like shaking my head and she was like oh is he embarrassing you, and i was like hah no but john was all OH YEAH Everyday! i was like oh jeez. HAH. He's so crazy hah
i really liked the church. i would totally consider going there more often. i would even consider doing my internship there. the only thing that was weird was that the kneel to receive holy communion and in the beginning to silently confess their sins.
i dont' know that was just strange and i was completely not used to that.
anyway. it was a good service. afterwards we walked through the cemetery (now that's a hot date.. ahha kidding this wasn't a date)
but it was crazy there were like gravestones from the war in 1776! isn't that crazy! it was so cool! so then we left and John just got a new car this weekend so he was like want to see my car! so we like were sitting in his car (i know that's strange) and then he was like do you want to go for a drive! i was like um sure haha. so we just went for this random sunday afternoon drive!! haha. it was kind of cool we almost got lost. but somehow he figure out where we were. i have no idea how hah but whatevs. it was cool we like were in the country which i absolutely LOVE. it was so cool and we saw some alpacas which john like freaked out about he was like screaming like a little boy. i was like goodness gracious. haha. i mean it was cool but not really screaming worthy haha. but its' whatever i'm used to him doing that. hah so we finally made it back to school. it was cool. his car is super nice. and i was happy that we got to hang out since it feels like we never see him anymore. so yeah.
then i came back to the apartment did some laundry. i have to go to this peer mentor dinner at 5:30. i really dont' feel like going. i just don't like peer mentor things i always feel so awkward. but oh well it's the only one i'll ever attend so i guess i'll just go.
anyways i should pry do some work... now that i've procrastinated all afternoon. read about bonnie and clyde. they are pretty cool. i don't know i just really like outlaw things right now i guess. haha.
oh also if the rumors are true about joe and ashley thinking about marriage, i think i might barf. i mean it hasn't even been six months. disturbing.
she's totally using him, but oh well he has to live his life however he wants.
yup. okay bye.!