you don't have to look about the stars.

so right now i'm trying to work on a project i have due on thursday. it's not going that well...obviously since i'm blogging instead.. haha.
i mean it doesn't matter i already started it on like thursday and i was almost done but then i had to use the internet and my roommate was using the ethernet...since our wireless is stupid still... so i just decided not to finish it and now i'm trying to and i'm feeling no motivation.
i know it's because i went home friday for a day, to help my dad move and get my taxes done (partyyyy). but it was so nice to be home (minus the strange crying breakdown i had in front of both of my parents at separate times, obviously i'm not getting enough sleep and am super stressed out about life in general)
i'm really excited for spring break. i just need a week to relax.
so i'll be home. watching random shows on hulu that you can see the entire seasons of (example i randomly just started watching 10 items or less, which you don't need to go to hulu plus for. i'm so excited!!!) also i'm hoping on getting scheduled for work.
considering i've applied to SIX places now... and no wants me.
so i'll pry apply to some places when i'm at home, but those will be for summer.
where i want to have two jobs. good times...

anyway. i've been do these ab workouts by myself (originally to look good for florida...) and i actually feel like they are working. it's making me feel pretty good (except when i'm ridiculous and eat too much food at one meal..) but i think i'm going to keep it up. i mean i don't really want a six pack...i think they are kind of creepy on girls, but i would like to feel like my abs aren't flabby? yeah...
i guess it kind of started with reading God Loves Ugly but now it's more so for myself (since i got distracted and somehow ended up with two more books which has me reading three books at once...it's kind of confusing, so i put God Loves Ugly down for awhile until i'm finished the other two for my internship..)

also in class last week my teacher mentioned someone had told her they were counting down til commencement.
i was like who the heck is doing that. freaking crazy person. then some other kid in my class was like oh yeah it's 86 days. or whatever. i kind of wanted to throw up. that's just disturbing. i mean it's now 83 days. ugh. i really would prefer to forget that number... so i'm gonna try and do that. haha.
and you know i really need to start doing fun things around here. i'm going crazy and i feel like i never do anything fun anymore. so maybe spring break will jump start the fun i want to have the rest of the semester.
now fun for me would be like a roadtrip to philly or something to shop on south street, get my rook or tragus pierced...
and i was thinking about getting a tattoo. not to go against my parents or anything...but i want a heart on my ring finger on my left hand to remind me that i'm loved. cause you know sometimes i just forget that. it's just i'm really freaked out by needles...and the idea of a tattoo freaks me out.. a lot...
but i dont 'know i think i just need that constant reminder. unless i like make a bracelet or something. but bracelets can break or fall off.
i dont know now i'm just rambling. so i'm going to get back to my project now. maybe i'll finish it and take a nap that would be fantabulous
alright later!