Just another Manic... Wednesday?

So i haven't really seen or talked to my mom since the incident of her going to the club.
it's just weird you know.
i really should visit her probably. considering i've only seen her like three times this entire break...
woops.
oh well. things happen. and i just don't feel like being around her right now.
anyways in other news my room is painted in my dad's new house. it's teal, and i love itttttt
I've decided that i probably won't be putting posters up over there. i mean how else will you see my awesome walls?
But i'm planning on putting up pictures. i mean my best friend gave me an audrey hepburn picture and then a frame that has a taylor swift quote in it from speak now. so hopefully my dad will let me put those up :) and i'm sure i can find other things to put. I'm excited for that room :)
even though my bed will still be out at school. but you know that's whatever.
i'm officially freaking out about graduating in may. idk what it is but as school gets closer the more i feel like i'm going to have a nervous breakdown. i just really feel unprepared for the future. i mean i know God will work it all out for me, it's just scary.

and i started looking at some seminaries online, and well that was strange they look kind of expensive, but then i realized they are like at least half the amount it costs to go to my school now, and that i would probably get financial aid. so you know that helped. it's still freaky though.

oh well. anyways i went to the oral surgeon yesterday so he could check up on my wisdom teeth extraction areas. and he said they are healing nicely. then i got a squirt thing to clean out the areas every morning and night.
it's kind of a weird feeling but it's also kind of cool. haha :)
although the lady who also like prepped me or talked to me everytime i went for an appointment asked me if i remember laughing at her after surgery, and i was like um actually no. which is really bad. i can't actually remember even getting home. i mean i remember having problems walking to the car, and somehow getting a frosty... but then i remember being home.
so i guess the later it is after the surgery the less you remember...but isn't life like that too?
anyways that's pretty much, just been on edge...and i really REALLY need to practice guitar...i haven't all break. mr. cullen going to notice... :/
oh wellllll.
okay well bye!
ps. that other sleepover i went to...yeah we did a dare night. crazy things happened. haha i'm tagged in the video on facebook. so if you want you can watch it there. but you don't have to :)

wisdom teeth extraction of doom.

wisdom teeth out.
mouth hurts a lot.
got them out tuesday.
went in, my doctor gave me the iv then he was like you'll feel loopy in twenty seconds in like fifteen seconds i was like woah everything looks weird then he asked me if i was feeling it and i was like uh huh then i guess i went to sleep idk. yo.
but then i woke up and my teeth were out and i just laughed a lot. then i told my one friend that the world looks nicer haha
idk. anyway life has been pretty boring, and painful.
just want to eat a hoagie or pizza or something but can't.
tired of food that isn't really solid. like ice cream or jello or something.
so annoying.
but oh well soon it'll be okay.
just need to ice my mouth a bit tonight because that actually helps a lot.
oh well.
anyway i'm exhausted because my mouth pain woke me up last night.
can't believe tomorrow is new years eve!
it's like two weeks til i go back to school.
majorly depressed. dont' want to go back.
not prepared for the futureeeeee
boo.
okay well that's it
hope y'all have been okay!

Higher Love

So just thought you all should know that after my trip to the dentist I had zero cavities, and i still do not need to get my wisdom teeth out!!! Thank goodness...i seriously don't think i could handle getting my wisdom teeth out, funny thing is my younger brother already got his out...isn't that weird. he's like a year and half younger than me and they took out his wisdom teeth..hmm strange right.
oh well it's all good that was like three months ago so who really cares now? hah
So i was babysitting this little girl last night for the second night in a row...and we had a little tea party...well actually she set up the tea party then decided she wanted me to read Winnie-the-Pooh to her...so what did i do? Read to her for a bit (by then it's like wayyyyyyyy past her bedtime heehee) and took her off to bed...where she did not promptly fall asleep instead she pretty much ran around her room jumping around so i "covered" her up like 8 times. sigh. def worked for my money last night and the night before. not going to lie i freaking love her when she is good, I mean when i come over and hang out with her (aka play with her haha) she usually is all excited and sometimes runs and gives me a hug and i can seriously like feel my heart melting and loving her even more, but then she "plays" with me ( aka smacks me on the head with her net that catches fake butterflies that fly out of this toy called the Elefun) and it's like OMG ouch...you know i guess it's true when they say "the terrible two's" although on Wednesday i took the cutest picture of her ever while we were on a little walk and deleted like thirty minutes later by accident. and i pry will never have a chance to take that picture again. sigh. oh well. well gotta go work for a few hours... so peace.......