Makes Me Wonder - Maroon 5

today was fried food day at my school. seriously. i can feel the fried foodness in my stomach, makes me feel ill.
at lunch there were
-corn dogs
-onion rings
-a pierogies bar

then the regular stuff that you can always get aka soup, salad, sandwiches.

at dinner:
-mozzarella sticks
-pierogies bar again
-hot/bbq chicken wings

and all the regular stuff again.

but seriously. it's like this. i love mozzarella sticks, and onion rings and pierogies. it's like they are trying to kill me, and they dont' want me to stay fit. EVIL EVIL EVIL SCHOOL!!! haha.
oh well. went to the gym tonight anyways and worked out, burned 290 calories, then pry some more once i did the ab workout machine ( <3 ) and plus i basically walk around campus loads and loads all day. so who knows what means. haha. but anyways. i do love the gym. *gasp* i know this is a shocking development, but it's true. I can sort of feel myself getting healthier, except on those days when the school offers the fried food goodness. then i just feel like i gained 80000 pounds.
anyway, sorry that i just talked about food for no reason at all. haha.
so it's supposed to snow tomorrow evening into saturday evening.
i'm not sure i'm excited about this...
1. because it's the weekend, which means classes won't be cancelled.
2. i have things to do. hello, i need to work on my sculptures...
3. i'll be stuck in the apartment. with clayton and mike.
4. except they will pry somehow get out, so i'll be stuck here by myself.
5. i guess i could always just do loads of homework
6. good thing i have food here.
7. i'm not sure why i'm still writing in this format but oh well.
8. i won't be able to go to campus (even though it's like a mile away) and see my friends. i mean i dont know about you, but i dont like venturing out in winter wonderland storms, it's dangerous.
9. OOOO i could practice a lot of guitar. :) things just got brighter! bring on the SNOW SUCKAS
10. this means i'll just work on my sculptures tomorrow before it starts to snow, finish them both, make sure they are pretty (although i'm pretty sure the figure of a figure has no way of becoming pretty)

and that is what i'll be doing if it snows this weekend. perhaps i'll have a dance party in my room by myself. but that's only if mike and clayton somehow escape the apartment. haha.

uh..
anyways.
andrew creeped me out again today.
he sat diagonally from me at dinner, only because i made sure i didn't sit next to him or across from him.
then he kept looking over at me, but i kept ignoring. i'm pretty sure everyone can tell that i'm basically miserable when he's there, what can i say, he makes me uncomfortable.
i could see him keep looking over at me, and i was like I'M EATING STOP LOOKING AT ME. GAHHHAHHHHHHH.
then Jenna was sharing a story and andrew was like can i tell a story.
so he was like
"the first time i met Sam, i thought she was mute cause she didn't talk,..hahhah"

i was like >:/ intense dislike right there.
it's not funny because the first time we met i'm pretty sure i talked, so idk what the freak he is talking about.
sigh. he just wanted me to look at him and talk to him, but instead i just rolled my eyes while i continued to not look at him.
then John engaged me in a conversation and all was better.
i'm pretty sure John can always tell when i'm like blah.. because he always starts doing things to try and make me laugh or at least to make me talk. I'm seriously eternally grateful that he is my friend.
i mean he starts telling me these really random stories about things, or making me at least respond to what he's saying. and at first i'm like maybe i just dont' want to talk, but then i'm always glad that he makes me. because he always pulls me out of my funk. it's weird in a way, because i'm pretty sure he's one of the best guy friends i have ever had. I mean it's not like i share these really great details of my life with him, but slowly he is coming to know a lot of things about me. i mean just easy facts about life. things that by reading my blog or talking to me normally you would find out. i dont know that just really didn't make any sense. we will just go back to he's pry the fourth best guy friend i have ever had in my life.
the third one and the one that would be the most recent was Cody Long. :)
oh Cody. in elementary school when i was feeling really sad he used to do "Cody Flops" where he would just like pretend to run and fall down, it always made me laugh and i always felt better afterwards. i basically grew up with him, he was the first guy from my elementary school that ever came over to my house! haha. i just saw him over winter break and i was so excited, i didnt' realize that i actually missed seeing him until i saw him. haha.
my first best guy friend was a kid named Evan. i looked him up on facebook like last summer and he looks interesting. he has and always had intense blonde hair. i should look him up again, maybe message him and see if he remembers me... i mean it's not my fault i have intense memory. :) i'm pretty sure i was like in love with him in preschool, we used to color together and not talk, our teacher thought it was weird. haha. his older sister was also really nice to me, i always liked her when i was younger.
haha so my second guy best friend was a boy named David. he lived down the street from me and used to come over and play. but i stopped being his friend after he came over one time and wanted to play with my younger brother instead of me. seriously. i was like that's it we aren't friends anymore.
and i didn't talk to him again until he talked to me one time in high school about how the bus routes got changed or something. haha. back then being friends with my brother and with me was unforgivable i guess. now i dont' really care. haha.
anyways, glad that i just randomly brought up all those memories haha. oh memories :)

well back to reality.
today. i had earth and space (absolutely love Stuckey, i know i say that everytime i write about that class, but it's true, he's amazing.) my bff Tom didn't talk to me today. i think he only likes to talk to me when the mood strikes him. i mean really i'm not the type of girl who is going to be like OH MY GOSH TOM BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH. soo i'm fine with only talking to him when he talks to me. we can have that kind of friendship.
haha.
then was lunch. it was kind of uncomfortable, since i'm still kind of annoyed with Kate from after dinner yesterday, and she realized it and was like i'm so sorry i promise i wont ever do it again and i was like okay. and that's all i said and she was like SAM! and i was like what. i said okay. i forgive you, but i just need time.
so that didn't make her happy, but you know we all dont' live in her ideal world where after things like that happen everyone goes back to be super happy and everything. i mean i just need a few days. she knew how i felt about that whole situation, so she had no right to do that. it's not like i go around saying things to the boys who like her, about her. she would absolutely hate that.
i dont know i just keep telling myself she's a freshman, she's still slightly immature, things will make more sense to her next year.
maybe.
so then Kate and Joe left, and it was Jenna and me, then John showed up and started talking about a bunch of things, and well he made me laugh. as always.
haha i realize that every time i talk about John it makes it sound like i am in love with him or something. ahahha.
this is not true. he's just a good friend, i feel like he can tell when things are awkward because then he just does random things to break the ice and make everyone like laugh and become chill.

then i went to theology through film we had to find out our thinking styles for homework. i ended up being like 4/5 categories. i know that's weird.
my two highest scores were for pragmatist and realist, then idealist, then analyst and i was no where close to be a synthesist.
i find this interesting that you can be extremely close (like one number) from like other styles and the book says that 1-4 numbers means you can basically count that as one of your thinking styles. so how do you become four thinking styles? obviously i can't make decisions in life and that is reflected upon my thinking styles.
haha.
after that class came back to my apartment played guitar. yellow submarine still does not sound like yellow submarine, but that's okay. eventually i will get there :)
then i cleaned up the apartment a bit.
you know i do what i can, but the place still looks crazy.
although clayton/mike emptied their clothing out of the bathroom, usually when they do that it means a party is about to happen, but i really don't think they are having one tonight...makes me wonder about this weekend...
then it was dinner. gym. the office.
back here, my mom texting me. "guess what i'm doing"
oh i dont know mom obviously watching qvc since that's the only channel you get in your room.
haha.
also finally have a hair appointment next friday at 1:15!!!!!
it's about time! i need a hair cut majorly. i'm stoked!
dont' know how i'm going to get it "styled" but i figure that doesnt really matter, well at least not at this point. i have a week to figure it out. hey i can add that to the things i'm going to do while i'm snowed in this weekend! ahha
well i need to go to bed. i have an 8 am class, have to get up at 7 and it's already 11:07. i dont know what my problem is, i'm not even really tired...fail.
oh and btw shb count: 17... saw him in the dance studio, i think tryouts for the dances are next week. exciting.
too bad i can't dance. hahaha.
okay good night everyone :)