Go Speed Racer, GO!!!

SOOO
i have no idea how i did on my earth and space final. all i know is it's done. and that's all i care about.
ALSO. found out i got a 93 on my Rock carving and a 92 on my bronze bowl. some of the highest grades i got in Sculpture. ahha. sounds ridiculous but i don't care. those are two of the project i liked the most. so i'm glad that i did that well on them. :)
also took all my sculpture stuff with me yesterday. it's all in my car ready to go home.
haven't decided when i will go home though.
i pry will go home friday though because that's when all my friends leave. another thing is i will have to come back up for my bed, to do a final "walk around" tour of the apartment so the owners can decide if i deserve my safety deposit back, but that can't happen until we are all moved out. which is stupid because i have no idea when clayton and mike are leaving. but next week is senior week and i'm guessing mike is def staying and clayton will probably stay because he is 21 and all the activities have to do with drinking.
so yeah.
also just finished my theology through film paper. 10 pages about speed racer. :)
i'm so glad. i think it's pretty good.
ALSO! last night hung out with my friends in our friend Steve's apartment, he is a senior so are basically spending as much time as possible with him these last few days.
so we went over there and his roommate Derek was there, he always says interesting things. can't decide if he is creepy or normal yet. haha. and their friend Elizabeth was there.
She told us last friday that she is Bi.
except she likes girls more.
sooo that was interesting because that was really the first time we officially met her.
but hey things come out when everyone is drunk...
anyways
it was Kate, Sam, Steve, Derek, Elizabeth, Joe and Me. and well that was at first. so Kate, Sam and I went in Steve's room to watch Glee because he had it like recording for us. so we watched it and got to skip all the commercials it was awesome. :)
then John showed up part way through but he stayed with everyone else in the living room.
then Kristin showed up. and well her roommate is supposed to be moved out by now but isn't so things are going bad for her.
so she problem solved by...
getting high.
but to each their own.
so after we finished Glee we all watched SPEED RACER in the living room, and it was awesome. and basically everyone loved it. which made me happy. since i adore that movie :)
and when John showed up for lunch today he kept talking about Speed Racer it was really funny.
I'm going to miss everyone over the summer.
well except Joe. he's just gross, and he was reading over my shoulder while i was writing my paper at lunch, since we sat there for like two and a half hours.
and he made suggestions and it annoyed me, because i never asked for suggestions or wanted him to look at my paper at all.
so gross.
haha. anyways i'm in the library now. Gotta get back to my Greek final. Dave from my Greek class came up to me yesterday and said it was really hard, then today he told me he finished it, but doesn't have faith that he did that great. so that makes me nervous. at least it's not due till noon on friday.
soo. Greek final time :/
until later.

I'm going crazy.

Pretty much shocked out my mind right now.
CAN'T BE TAMED

that would be the reason why.
i'm like confused by it. i mean i understand what's happening and i get that she did that to tell a story about the song but i'm still like what just happened.
i feel really weird about it.
mostly because i can't imagine any of her younger fans watching that and being okay with it. I mean if i was a parent i would not let my child watch that, i know there are worse things out there (but i wouldn't be letting them watch those either) but it's just she was like half naked, and it was well shocking.
ahha i hate that i keep using shocking as my describer but that's all i can think of to describe what i'm thinking and feeling...


anyways enough about that.
soo i'm getting a blister on my finger from carving my stone so much.
which sounds ridiculous because it's on my middle finger on my middle knuckle. have no idea why i'm getting a blister there.
well i mean i do since i pry hold the thing i'm using really weird. but still i'm like for real a blister!? gross.
also saw Chad for a bit today.
He's been coughing a lot lately, and it's really bad since they are like these hacking coughs that make me think he is going to like cough up his lung which would be so sad. since obviously i have a crush on him.
i was kind of lame today. because i was working on my stone carving (AGAIN) and Sam and Kristin were there (again also haha) and they were like it's looking more like a heart and Chad like turned around from where he was standing and like stared at it from where he was. which he could only see the back of it which the back looks really bad. so that was interesting.
then he told one of the other girls there that he was leaving and he took an abnormally long time to leave. he legit took like ten minutes to leave. i was like alright... then when he actually left he like looked back to where i was sitting, but i'm really slow so i like didn't even look up until after he already looked away.
i dont know what my problem is. it's like i want to date him/ become friends with him. oh i don't know MARRY him ahah. but at the same time i like sabotage myself.
i'm so weird. I guess i'm kind of in the mindset that God will make it happen if it's meant to be.
i just don't know because he is the only one who actually talks to me well now.
shb never talked to me (well except that one time he was here and i freaked out)
Wedding boy hasn't sent me a message since Easter. idk what is up with that.
and well Chad talks to me all the time and smiles at me, and melts my heart basically.
but i really don't know that much about him, besides the fact that his name is EPIC.
for some reason i adore the name Chad, i had a crush on this kid who was a year younger than me and his name was Chad, granted it was Chadwick which i thought was epic, and this Chad's name is Chadston, which i love.
so yeah. what to do what to do.
I don't know he's going to graduate and then I might not ever see him again, which if that happens then it probably wasn't meant right?
this just makes me sad.
I'm going to spend everyday in the sculpture room, now until i leave, Chad and I...we are going to be really good friends by the end of this semester.
the one week that is left that is :(((((
bahhh.
also i'm wearing my favorite shorts tomorrow, that will make me happy, they always make me happy, then i'll smile a lot, and he will see me and be like yeah she seems cool.
ahha.
oh man i'm so weird.

SO ANYWAYS.
i sent my toms back TWO WEEKS AGO, and they emailed me today telling me they got the exchange information >:I not happy. I'm hoping that they will ship them out abnormally fast and i'll get them like mONDAY. but with my luck they will arrive oh next friday. WHEN I AM AT HOME. and the school will have to ship them to me which WILL TAKE LONGER!!!!!
GAHHH.
i just want them now. *cries*
i'm sorry i'm in a ridiculous mood right now.
i think it's from
1. Kickboxing. John was there. we didnt' do abs. we did a lot of squats (WHICH I HATE) and used weights and worked on our arms (which MINE ALREADY HURT FROM STONE CARVING)
2. Chad. he makes me happy and sad. since he's leaving.
3. i'm Ridiculous.
4. I had cake and lemonade today in theology through film class while watching The Fisher King, it was cool.
5. it was sunny out and it rained for like 15 seconds while my friends and i were sitting in the Dell today. it was weird.
6. Finals make me crazy.
7. Quiero mis Toms. :/
8. It's almost 1 in the morning YAY FOR NO GREEK !

so uh yeah.
that really should be it. i should sleep. i'm obviously going crazy.
hahaha.
good night

The daily happenings of my crazy life.

So more exciting news :)
well first of all. i accidentally got "slurry" on my shirt this morning.
i went to dip my wax thing in the slurry and i forgot to put an apron on, then i got it on my shirt of course.
i was like GO FREAKING FIGURE. idk i was a mess this morning, i almost forgot my mask, and gloves, then i got that on my shirt. i was just like greattt blahhh.
so hopefully it doesn't stain, idk i washed it off, but it sort of turned white today so i dont know what to think of that.
then at lunch i was just sitting there at the stalker table (which is the round table right where you first come in, you see everyone so we call it the stalker table) and i saw someone wearing the Toms that i was really contemplating buying, they are grey cordones and i really like them. then i notice the person is wearing white pants, and i was like hmm, i mean i think white pants are weird, just because i feel like you can get anything on them and it will be extremely noticeable. then i looked up and was like hmm black shirt, then i realized it was shb.
i was like DARN YOU, he freaking got the shoes that i wanted.
i can't even believe this. we now have the same jacket and almost the same shoes. thank goodness i didn't buy them. although i still want them.
jeez.
and he's still looking good, i'm just like nope you had your chance. hahaha.
so after that i went to theology through film and sat through two more presentations, one was about Pan's Labyrinth, and that seemed like a good movie. the other girls who went presented together and presented Anime movies.
Princess Mononoke (which my uncle bought me for Christmas once when i was like ten. my family watched it and we were all freaked out by it, it was really weird, but i mean i was ten and had no idea what was happening...) and Howl's moving castle. which that one actually looked pretty good. it was just interesting because it was anime, and well they were like making jokes about the original film being in Japanese and being better, since they are both Japanese majors.
plus they took like 45 minutes, and kept saying um. and having these awkward pauses, which i understand happens, but they had index cards and a powerpoint to look at.
so yeah.
after that i went back to the sculpture room to dip my thing in the slurry again. and Chad was there :)
he looked at me when i walked in and smiled and said hi. i was like Hey :)
so apparently we are now able to say hi to eachother? ahha. YES!
then my friend Sam has class at that time so i just chilled with her for awhile.
then we left when her class was done, since she's in ceramics and they are just finishing stuff up. and we went and laid out in the sun for awhile with our friend Kristin.
then i went back to dip my thing in slurry again, and Chad was still there, except this time he was wearing a bandana on his head, and like a smock. which made me sort of laugh. i'm not really sure what he was doing but it almost looked like he was making more things for his independent study in ceramics, but i feel like that's ridiculous since we have one week of classes left and then finals.
but whatever. he looked good even in that smock and bandana.ha
went to dinner. sat outside for a bit. went and dipped my thing in slurry again, Chad was still there, ahha. he always looks up when people walk in, which i do too, so now i smile at him.
:)
left then my friend and i went to watch Community, got some cookies from Sam's room since her guy friend Jake made her cookies and her grandma sent her some from some cookie company. she has a lot of cookies lol.
went to dip my thing in slurry again, some kid from my class was there and he was like talking to me and it was kind of weird since he normally doesn't talk to me, and apparently one of the girls in my class, her wax figure broke apart.
i was like oh man that would stink. i would be so sad if that happened to mine.
then i left again and we went and watched the office, then went to see Finding Nemo, since this weekend is TGIS. (thank goodness it's summer) at my school. which basically means party time, and everything is like beach themed.
i'm not that excited since basically all my friends are going home, except my guy friends. and i dont' really usually just hang out with them.
so apparently i will be spending some quality time in the library again.
i'll pry work on finishing my sculpture paper.
doing my theology through film paper.
correcting some things on my greek paper, which he sent back to me and told me i could correct, but without correcting i have a B. so i'm sort of contemplating now correcting it...but we'll see.
then i also might just go hang out in the sculpture room and start carving my stone..which i dont' even want to do. but what else am i going to do by myself all weekend, plus maybe Chad will be there! haha
so yeah.
I've moved onto Chad.
and at least he talks to me and knows i exist, and he seems to have a good personality.
still sad that he smokes, but maybe i can convince him to quit :)
ahhahahaha
anyways i'm going to go watch some episodes of Chuck since Greek is cancelled tomorrow! yeahhh. haha
i'm also painting my toenails and i decided i'm wearing a skirt tomorrow.
watch out Chad, i'm going to look SO GOOD.
HA :)
laterrr

Vogue.

soo today i had earth and space. and i was driving to school to go park and i saw CHAD well more specifically i saw his backpack and his hair...
yes it is sad that i recognize his hair/backpack.
but i got really excited and iw as like "CHAD!"
and my window was down...
BUT luckily he didn't hear me, ahha considering i was still far enough away. but then i parked and i got out of my car and he had just gotten to there to like go to his car and he looked at me. and i was like oh man.
i mean neither of us smiled at each other, but i was still like oo chad .
:)
haha.
now if he would just quit smoking. heck yes.
oh and it was weird because when it was later in the day after i was done theology through film i went to my car and chad's car was parked in the space behind mine...it wasn't there when i parked earlier in the day.
it kind of was weird/awesome!
ahha
and i'm pretty sure i keep seeing his friend who he had lunch with on saturday. it's freaking me out.

but anyways.
earth and space was weird we watched a movie on supervolcanoes and it kind of freaked me out, because it was like if we ever have a super volcano everyone will probably die from all the ash in the sky.
and there is one under yellowstone national park. that's sort of due to erupt.
so it was freaky, but i decided that if it's meant then it's meant.
right?
yeah.
also got my test back. not happy with the result. i mean it's not horribly bad. but i thought i did better. i want like a 100 on the final now though. yup.

went to lunch.
checked my mail. still no toms shoes :(
went to theology through film. watched some presentations
came back to my apartment
played guitar, it was relaxing especially after my mom called me and was like i'm getting rid of this out of your room.
i was like excuse me. no you aren't and she was like yeah i'm making it look nice. and i was like what does it even matter mom.
and she was like you don't even use it. i was like great mom just great rid of everything in my room why dont you.
okay i didn't really say that but i thought it because it felt like that's what she was doing.
(which it's one of those things you can use as a backrest and it's like giant and has arm things, i have no idea what they call those, but i honestly barely ever use it i just don't like my mom invading my space when i'm not there.)
then she was like oh by the way the house is going up for sale tomorrow
and i was liek WHAT THE HECK you weren't even going to tell me/! i live there too you know. and i kind of freaked out and my mom was like i just found out and i was like i dont care IT'S MY HOUSE. and she was like i really don't like calling you becaues you are always in a bad mood and i was like well i dont' like when you call either because you are the BEARER OF BAD NEWS.
and she was like oh yeah. that's true.
blah. so then we hung up and i cried for a bit.
i honestly didn't expect it but i kind of just broke down and cried.
i mean thats the house i grew up in my entire life.
i'm trying to think positive about it, but it's tough to do when school is stressful and finals are coming up in threeish weeks and i have to do that internship over the summer and work. when i just need a break.
sigh.

anyways that was depressing,...
so after that i played guitar, and it was relaxing like i said. it made me feel a lot better.
funny cause i was playing black keys and you know those jonas brothers always make me feel better when i feel like my world is crashing down.
i miss them.

uh anyways then i went to dinner.
we went earlier than normal because at kickboxing we always feel like we are dying.
problem is we got milkshakes after dinner at the blue bean (which is this little cafe thing in our school where you can get milkshakes/coffee/smoothies, cupcakes, pieces of pie. you know things like that) and well it was mint chocolate chip my favorite! then we sat outside for a long time talking
then we went to kickboxing she brought long poles and we worked out with those then did an intense ab workout and my sides hurt and my abs are going to hurt tomorrow.
and John came for the first time, and it was hilarious.
he's much too entertaining.
and he ended up being my partner when we did ab workouts and he kept talking and i was like AHH JOHN I CAN'T RESPOND WHEN I DO THESE. jeez.
haha
but oh well. we had to do leg lifts with our arms like hooked and man he is really muscular.
haha. that's weird to say but he seriously has some biceps, it was intense.
hahahah
anyways then we went to kristin's dorm.
i showered at her dorm.
i dont' really like the showers there.
the one i used sprayed all over and i was like is the shampoo even coming out of my hair?
it was weird.
then it was GLEE TIME!
the show is getting crazy, and i also like when all the members of glee sing. i mean i like rachel she has a good voice but i like hearing kurt and mercedes and puck and even quinn.
you know!
ahha.
also don't really like this jesse st james character (although the guy who plays him is from around the area my school is in!!! what what!)
he seems secretive...
idk.
anyways i need to go to sleep have greek in the morning.
blahh and i think it's supposed to rain. which makes it worse.
sigh.
soo good night!

i'm going to be a senior next year. ahhhh

So today is Monday, and i'm pretty much exhausted from this weekend still.
but my paper is finished and that's all that matters.
although my greek teacher said we could turn it in at anytime this week.
i was like oh great i wasted my weekend away writing this stupid paper and now it doesn't even have a real due date?!?!?
but oh well, at least it's done. i still want to try and add accents, but i'm really bad with accents so i hope he's not expecting anything crazy.
then i went to work. well now it's actually volunteer work, and i got a paper cut!!! right at the tip of my pinky well where it bends.
so annoying.
then i went to guitar lessons. EXCEPT my teacher didn't show up.
i have no idea where he was, and he didn't tell me that the lesson would be cancelled or anything, so i think it's really weird.
i hope everything is all right and he just forgot to tell me that my lesson was cancelled.
:/
THEN i registered for classes!!!!
it was crazy.
I'm taking
Aerobics
Guitar
something New Testament
Religion and Violence
Life and the Purposeful Life?
and some other class.
hhaha obviously i have no idea what the names are for like half of my classes. but whatever.
i also am going to need to do a two or possibly three credit internship.
after that went to lunch.
then sculpture.
where my luna assemblage was waiting for me. and i was really confused as to why it was there, then milton told us that the guy who decided what was going into the art show was pretty straight edged and didn't really like any of the mixed media stuff.
i was sad since i liked my luna thing and i dont' really like my sculpture that much. since it's cracked on the back. but whatever.
at least i have something in the art show!
STILL waiting for my toms shoes to arrive. it's kind of annoying since when i read all the comments they all said that their shoes came earlier than expected. well mine are expected wednesday. and all those people said they got theirs like three days before expected. and at this point it looks like a possible one day before or on the day of.
but oh well. i'm still super stoked to get them!!! wooo.
also three more weeks of class.
i think that's pretty crazy!!!
not really panicking yet. but i think i'll write two papers this week. or at least my sculpture one. because that one is due sooner than my theology through film one.
either way. i should write a paper this weekend. although i really want to go to the mall. it's been forever since i could buy anything. haha
anyways. i'm still tired. going to finish my greek homework for wednesday that way i can enjoy glee tomorrow after kickboxing then go to bed afterwards :)
yayyy!
goodnight

test and presentation.

SOOOOO
My test wasn't too bad this morning. I'll be happy with like an 85. yup. Mostly because there were a few questions i just didn't know and they were on the study guide but i couldn't find them anywhere in the four chapters our test was on. but it happens.
then i had my presentation and it went pretty well. well i think it did at least. People laughed, and even asked questions. and i actually calmed down when i went up there. although I pretty much butchered Martin Scorsese's name...
but it happens. haha
and today was a really nice day out.
:)
AND! i saw my bff Chad! the one who smiles at me when he's in the ceramics/sculpture room!
yup. he was actually dressed pretty nice today..well he was actually wearing all black...and i was like dude it's HOT out. but it was like an outfit that looked like he had to present or something. he's pretty awesome.
except then when i was going to class i saw him standing outside a building smoking, and i was like .ew. so that really makes me disappointed in him!
oh well. i'm going to become friends with him and convince him to not smoke :)
oh and shwayze just came to visit me. aha
anyways today was go barefoot day.
i really wanted to do it, but i dont' feel confident enough that my school has clean sidewalks or that the roads are clean. which guess what the road near my apartment and where i park has broken beer bottles everywhere. so yeah.
anyways have to get ready for dinner.
greek. guitar make up lesson and work tomorrow then Rachel might come to visit! woo.

half of my heart has a hold on the situation.

boy from the wedding just told me that he shaved his beard for easter and so far at least 7 girls have told him he looks better without a beard.
i laughed.
mostly because i agree.
he looks way better without a beard...
ahahah.
anyways earth and space test tomorrow. been doing this study guide all week and i still feel unprepared. idk he kept saying it was going to be easy though. so i'll run through the study guide one more time. then sleep!
also have a presentation for theology through film.
sigh.
btw today was amazingly beautiful. and hot.
haha.
oh and Kate always says hi to this one kid whom all my friends say he is a crazy psychopath who will go on a killing spree, mostly because he always looks angry and he hates when kate says hi to him.
but anyways apparently that kid told John that he is going to get a restraining order for harassment against kate.
i think it's hilarious, mostly because he wouldn't have a case. she's just being nice.
ha
alright.
gotta study! blah.

I love spring! :)

Sooo I'm back at school now.
woke up this morning at 9, but went back to sleep till 10. then i did nothing...
had ice cream for breakfast.
hahah.
then made sure i had everything packed.
played guitar for a bit.
packed up some of my car.
had lunch... which was only sweet potato fries that my mom made, and were actually kind of weird.
i mean i've had AMAZING sweet potato fries before but well that wasn't today...
i mean they weren't horrible, but they weren't that great either....
anyways packed up the rest of my car. dropped my brother off at school so he could get ready for his lacrosse game.
then drove here.
unpacked my car.
it was really hot.
realized i brought back more clothing than i wanted too. i was kind of annoyed by that.
then went to dinner and saw my friends.
John was in a much crazier mood than normal. but i realized how much i missed them all. :)
well maybe not joe.. buttt anyways.
we like hung out for two hours just talking it was sweet.
and we ate outside and it was SO NICE OUT!
then everyone was like oh i gotta study.
so i went and hung out with sam, told her about my adventures with look-a-like Elijah Wood.
haha.
and well left her room at 10.
and now i'm just chilling in my room, and it's REALLY HOT. which is weird since my room is normally kind of cold. so i'm contemplating taking off either my comforter or the last blanket i have on my bed... didn't realize i could do that so soon, since last week was still cold!
anyways. have earth and space tomorrow and theology through film. and kickboxing ! woo.
think i'm going to work on the study guide for earth and space for awhile!
good night!

Happy Easter!

Went to church this morning. After church came back and laid out in the sun. it felt so good. i love the warmth! haha. then had lunch. my mom made homemade chicken pot pie. after that did all my greek homework...outside of course. since it was so nice out!
then watched the Departed for my theo through film class.
then watched some JCTV. one of the only channels we get. they were doing some special on this cloth that they think is possible that Jesus might have been wrapped in after his crucifixion. idk how i feel about that, since i kind of feel like it would have deteriorated. but who knows.
i mean either way i still believe, so it's not like a piece of cloth will change anything for me.
anyways. packed all my shorts for school. can't believe tomorrow is already time to go back. sigh.
but only one month til school is done! still need a job though...
sigh.
this week i have a test, a presentation and a meeting for scheduling classes for next semester.
so it should be an interesting week.
anyways i'm really tired. i haven't been sleeping a lot lately.
sooo going to sleep.
and heading back to school tomorrow.
laterrrr

I WON A FISH!

so i have one more class until spring break! ahh!
i started packing today of course, i want to leave here as soon as possible. i guess mostly to miss traffic. but still. my room looks insanely clean it's weird...
but anyways had earth and space today we talked about tectonic plates and some other things that were sort of interesting but sort of really boring at the same time.
i know that's weird.
anyways then i had lunch, and it was weird because normally it's just me and my one other friend but today it was practically everyone. it was crazy!
then i had theology through film we finished watching Awakenings and discussed it. it was a really sad movie though.
it's also based on a true story.
anyways after that class i came back to the apartment practiced guitar for a bit, then cleaned up my room, started packing, i even changed my sheets. it's pretty sweet.
then went to dinner, and then we went to check out the "spring carnival" my school was having. it was basically giving out information about alcohol and what can happen to you and such. we played flip cup, with this juice was horrible, it made me feel kind of sick actually. then we threw darts at balloons and inside the balloons were facts about alcohol, we played four square while wearing drunk goggles, which was kind of horrible because apparently i got the pair that is when you are the most drunk. i have no idea how people do it because after wearing them for like five minutes i thought i was going to throw up. horrible. we tried to make ping pong balls into cups surrounded by soda cans, we played name that tune, which i failed horribly at the first three times. well the first two times both Jenna and John beat me, then the third time they were like trying to help me, but still technically beat me. then we went and played "fish" pong. which was basically beer pong except without beer and the idea was to win a fish!
i failed horribly the first time at that.
then Jenna and John left and Kate and Chuck showed up so we played all the games again well except flip cup cause that was horrible, and four square because i refused to wear those goggles again!
but we played name that tune three or four times and i won every time hahaha. it was awesome, pry because the guy was playing all the music that's basically on my ipod. example.
T.Swift - picture to burn
miley/hannah- rockstar, see you again
jonas- play my music, sos.

AND the best part was the guy KNEW the words to ROCKSTAR! for real, i was like rocking out and he was singing with me! i was like oh man you are awesome.
he also looked like the guy who plays Sylar on Heroes, Kate was like he was not cute at all, but umm i thought he was really cute... haha.
oh well.

so then we went and played fish pong well i did because there were three guys playing alraedy and the one guy needed a partner. it ended up that i got more ping pong balls in the cups of water to get them removed than he did. it was awesome. and i won a fish!!!!
My friends suggested I name it "Pong" since i won it playing fish pong. haha. but i dont know yet. all i know is i can't wait to tell my mom i won a fish playing "beer" pong even though it wasn't even close to beer pong hahaha.
YAY!
sigh. i like cute boys who know my music, and winning fish.
:D
oh yeah i also won glow sticks! well i mean all those games give you tickets then you pick a prize, so i picked glow sticks, since everything else was kind of a fail. haha.
then went to my friends room and we watched the office! i thought it was pretty funny, i sort of adore pam and jim, well mostly Jim he's amazinggggggggg.
and Dwight is sooo ridiculous!
anyways i need to go to bed! i have greek tomorrow then i go home! and i GET MY COMPUTER BACK!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:)
good night!

three classes away from spring break!

so i dont' really remember anything i did yesterday which means it wasn't that important. I mean mostly i went to class. In theology through film we watched Awakenings, which is a movie with Robert DeNiro and Robin Williams. and it's actually a serious movie, rather than the funny roles Robin usually plays.
Earth and Space was lame without Stuckey again. I dont think i'm going to enjoy that class anymore. so sad.
did all the usual things i do during the day i guess. went to kickboxing. we used weights. it was kind of painful, i mean they were only five pound weights but doing all those repetitions kills. at least i know i'm getting toned. :) we also did ab workouts, which i hate, but also greatly enjoy since i know my abs are also getting toned! woo.
today had greek. it was lame. haha. i'm pry going to start my greek homework like now. even though i probably wont' get that far since i'm already tired...
also had work then sculpture.
My teacher told me i had nice eyes today. it was weird. i mean he was helping my partner sculpt my eyes for the head bust, but STILL. it's weird. he doesn't really say those kinds of things to anyone else... at least not that i hear.
so awkward.
well i'm just doing some homework. I'M SO EXCITED ONLY THREE CLASSES LEFT UNTIL SPRING BREAK!
i also vacuumed my room today! it looks clean :)
oh man i can't wait for spring break. not that i really want to go home, i more or less just want to see my bffl, sleep and practice guitar. and I GUESS see my family. but only for like a day.
haha. i'm so mean. i don't know i just really love being here at school, well not the school part. the hanging out with my friends and doing ridiculous things part :)
well i need to start my lame greek homework and sleep! :)
later!

more snow? for real.

sooo earth and space test? not so bad! woo! it turns out i didn't need to worry that much :) although i do believe the real teacher of the course comes back now for the rest of the semester. majorly sad. i love stuckey :/
oh wells.
we watched Edward Scissorhands in Theology through film class yesterday. I really liked it, except it was super sad. and johnny depp was incredibly different looking. so so so strange!
went to kickboxing last night. it was intense. we did like 80 million leg lifts. but surprisingly i can walk today and i feel no pain. it's very interesting...
today had greek. class might be cancelled friday! but only if it snows and my teacher can't make it. now i don't really want more snow. i just want spring to come, but i would love to sleep in friday. it's the truth. haha.
went to work.
same old same old. of course i'm still sick so i had to go to giant to buy more tissues since i used them all up. insanity. then had sculpture class. we are now working on making head busts. so far mine is not symmetrical at all... but it's alright i have time to make it look better especially by monday.
ooo Apolo qualified for the quarterfinals on friday for the olympics for 500 M.
pretty excited.
except Apolo is doing like 4 events friday and friday is a mad cow comedy show.
Olympics? or Mad Cow?
i mean Apolo is retiring after this year. at least that what he keeps saying. haha. and mad cow will be around next month...
i'm more leaning towards olympics although i'm pretty sure my friends all wont' go for that...
oh well.
haha.
guitar is coming along.
and it's supposed to start snowing tonight until friday. tomorrow is supposed to be the heavy amount of snow day. although we are only supposed to get 6 inches... soo it's weird.
also apparently i got a letter at home saying i might have jury duty in May. of course this is unacceptable since i'm a student. so i should be able to get out of it. lets all hope!
well that is all. i want to go to sleep to try and sleep the rest of this cold away. especially since i'm tired of blowing my nose so much, and it's starting to look red and hurt. :/
ahh.
good night!

Igloos, sledding and AWESOME Snow Days!

so last night i sent in my Greek homework, and my teacher looked over it today and emailed me back and told me that he isn't sure i understand how to do the syntax or something. because i didn't fill out the charts fully. pretty funny considering i told him i don't like the charts... plus i don't actually know how to use them. soo that was great. i'm not sure how he planned on grading it anyway and he was like you can call me so we can discuss it. but i'm not calling him because i dont want to discuss it...
so bad.
anyways this morning i woke up and it was still snowing!!!!!!!! it was awesome!
so i started writing my theology paper (which i need to finish but it's actually not that bad i wrote a page in like twenty minutes!) then i got ready and headed to the school. except i walked there. a mile. IN THE SNOW! it was insane. but like no one was driving so i just walked on the road again. got there and Sam, Joe and I were waiting for our friends and it turned out they were already upstairs in the "quiet" section, which doesn't have enough seats for all the friends we have now acquired. so we had to push two tables together which was ridiculous. then Kate told me that i looked really cute today. and i was like what the heck i look like a bum and i was wearing four shirts and two pairs of pants...haha. so idk what she was talking about. apparently i should just look like a bum all the time. ha. so after lunch we went and everyone got ready for the snow. but i was already ready sooo it didn't matter haha. then we finally went outside and we walked by these guys building an igloo and they were like "yo igloo party tonight at ten! clothing is optional...but YOU HAVE TO BRING SNACKS!!!" i just laughed hysterically i mean seriously what else can you do in a situation like that.
then we went to meet up with Kristin and we ran into John and he just came along with us even though he claimed to not be ready to play in the snow. then we had all our friends and we went and found a giant snow pile and on one pile we built a slide and kept sledding/sliding down it SO MUCH FUN! then in the other pile everyone else was digging it out and started to make an igloo. that basically took all afternoon and when i left at like 4:30 it could fit four people inside it haha! it was actually really nice because it blocked the wind. sooo i think it would be epic if we got a snow day again tomorrow because we could continue with that! plus we already got an email from the president of the school saying it's possible that school will be cancelled tomorrow as well. we just have to stay tuned to all "media" to find out if it will be cancelled.
but i'm so excited! i mean i'll still write my paper tonight just in case, but how awesome would it be to get another snow day!!! mhmm :)
sad thing is i didn't see shb today. but you know it's cool because i had a lot of fun sledding and such. plus everyone who walked by our igloo was like that's so awesome, and when we were in the jays nest we saw some guys think about going inside of it. haha.
that was pretty much my day :) so awesome. can't wait til i get my computer back so i can upload all the pictures!!!
i wonder if it's still snowing. it seems like we got another two feet. it's getting kind of ridiculous! the balcony is so covered in snow it's insane! haha.
oh man. it would also be great if school was cancelled tomorrow because otherwise i have to go dig my car out in the morning...not cool.
don't really know where my roommates are right now. buttt no big deal ahha :)
okay going to work on my essay now.
so tired from playing in the snow all day :D
love you all!

Greek is going to give me a mental breakdown

why can't i go back to the happiness i felt yesterday.
you know what's brining me down?
my stupid Greek homework.
seriously i just had a mini meltdown since i can't find like three words in this STUPID greek dictionary in the back of the book, and i'm freaking out.
SINCE.
classes are cancelled tomorrow. my college cancelled them all today at like 3:30 it was pretty epic.
then it started to snow at like four.
but you know what. my greek teacher sucks and he expects us to still send in the homework to him. i worked on it for like two hours yesterday, and i've been working on it for like three hours today already. we have to fill out this stupid chart that i hate filling out. i'm seriously contemplating just leaving it the way it is and sending it in. i mean i told him straight out that i hate using the charts, they dont' help me, i just get more stressed out having to use them.
it's really not fair.
:(
i'm just really not happy. i mean it's snowing, all my friends are hanging out since we dont' have classes tomorrow, and here i am in my apartment doing this stupid homework. i mean even clayton and mike were hanging out, i could have went out there and talked to them...but NO i WAS STUCK IN MY ROOM DOING THIS STUPID HOMEWORK.
i seriously have decided i hate this class. and i don't ever want to see Greek again after this semester. although i think my advisor wants me to do my "senior" project on something having to do with Greek, since she's all excited that i'm taking greek and that she knows it. but i'm not excited by this prospect. i would rather gut fish.
okay well maybe not gut fish. but i feel like i'd rather do anything else than do something with greek. i mean at this point, it's ruining my semester already and it hasn't even been a month. Sam told me today that Greek is like the only class i'm taking because it's the only class i ever talk about having so much homework in.
so sad.
and i really need to write a paper that's due on thursday, but i can't because this stupid greek homework that feels like SO MUCH is due tomorrow.
:(
i know i'm just complaining and complaining and complaining. but i just want to go back to yesterday when SHB talked to me. now that was a good day.
tell me again why i chose to take Greek?
sigh.
trying to think happy thoughts so i can finish the dumb homework and send it off.
Earth and Space was funny today. i love Stuckey, he makes that class so fun.
and in theology through film we watched most of the movie "the piano"
it's really strange. i mean i can't figure out if she's deaf or mute or both. because she seems to be able to hear people when they talk to her, but i thought i remember someone saying that she was deaf...
i don't know. it's strange, and it's rated R for nudity.
my favorite part was when she slapped someone. the rest of the movie has been extremely strange.

then after that came back and practiced guitar. idk, it's not coming along as great as it has been these past few weeks. i just feel like i have no rhythm, even using the online metronome, which i kind of hate, since it makes me nervous. i can't change chords that fast yet.
overall i'm just not having a good day. i dont even know why. i should be happy i have no school tomorrow. and my friends want to play in the snow. which should be so fun. and i saw shb at dinner today. he looked over at the table where my friends and i were sitting, (which somehow we have acquired ten people...it's getting a little out of hand now) which made me happy for a bit then Chuck started talking and he's just strange.
anyways i guess i need to go finish greek so that i can celebrate and send my greek teacher it and tell him how much i hate the charts which is why it isn't even filled out the right way.
sigh.
i'm sorry this is a depressing blog. send me happy thoughts please?
i heart you.

Nothing can bring me down today! (except maybe excessive Greek homework)

Today, was a beautiful day. I mean seriously, i had a wonderful wonderful WONDERFUL day :D
well i mean i woke up this morning not knowing it was going to be a great day. actually i woke up feeling super tired. but then again that happens every monday. well actually basically everyday of the week. haha.
anyways went to Greek class, my teacher gave us alot of homework. and since it's supposed to snow again tomorrow afternoon until wednesday sometime, he expects us to send the homework in, if we dont' have class. I'm extremely disappointed because it's actually a lot of stuff to translate in like twoish days. I mean that's not the only class i have. so annoying. plus i had to download the Greek font onto this loaner computer, which took me like twenty minutes. valuable homework time. seriously. fail.
also my facebook finally changed to the new way. i really dont' like the new one. It's so confusing, it's enough to make a person want to stop using facebook.
anyways. so after Greek i went to work, the elementary school had another two hour delay. it gets really confusing when that happens, because the secretary isn't at the desk and i have no idea how to get into the building, unless someone lets me in. It's very unfortunate.
so i worked for 2 hours and 35 minutes then left, and headed to school for my guitar lesson. I'm pretty sure we started my guitar lesson earlier than we normally do today. but you know i'm paying for it, so it was awesome.
I still need to memorize all the chords i don't know but since i'm practically there it's getting exciting. He also wrote down some chords for You're Not Sorry by Taylor!!! so i get to work on that :) although he said that's not my main focus at this point, i'm still focusing on getting chords down and getting rhythm, and being able to sing while i change chords.
Even though i'm a horrible singer.
haha. so he gave me three other songs to work on.
ready for this...
TWINKLE, TWINKLE LITTLE STAR!! ahha. i know it's great, its' mostly because i know all the words so it'll be good for me to sing and be able to make chord changes. at least that's what mr. cullen said.
Then he gave me the song
JESUS LOVES ME. you know we used to sing that in vacation bible school, and sunday school. of course i don't remember all the words at this point, but it's alright, it's all about getting the general gist of it.
then lastly he gave me
ALL STAR, by Smash Mouth. made me laugh. since he was like think back to your childhood (which is where twinkle twinkle little star came from haha) then he was like well how about a song from Shrek, did you watch that when you were a kid. and i was thinking that movie came out when i was like 13 i think. soo i mean i was a "teen" then. but i still watched it haha. and i remember that song from other things besides that. so i get to work on that song too. it's pretty exciting. and of course i get to continue with YELLOW SUBMARINE. it was a super productive day in Guitar :)
went to lunch, saw Cameron my peer kid he said hi to me, i haven't seen him in awhile, so it was exciting to see him :)
then sculpture, we started our sculptures of actual people. it's really not coming along that great. well at least i dont think it is... haha, i'm horrible with sculpting people, i'm better at non objective things.
so after sculpture i was walking to my car and i saw Clayton, and since i was carrying my giant guitar case he was like "well that looks uncomfortable to carry around" and i was like haha oh yeah it really is, then he somehow mentioned how they can't use the track for a month because of the snow, and i was like oh man where are you going to practice and he was like the parking lot. and i was like oh wow.
so then i continued walking to my car, and he started doing sprints in the parking lot lol.
so i got back to the apartment, just turned on my computer and getting everything situated when i heard voices coming up the stairs, and i was like what the heck, they are supposed to be at track practice, so i decided to investigate so i took the cup of water that i had from the night before out to the kitchen, got blinded by the sun coming in the window and looked to the left and
IT WAS SHB. i was like woah.
and he was like "Hi, How are you? Thank you for letting me use your house." i was like "haha, Hi..."
then they left.
it was kind of weird. and Mike laughed at Shb, and me, i think since i'm pretty sure my expression was like what in the world just happened, and i was smiling like an idiot.
then i came into my room and laid on the ground and told myself to relax, then i texted Sam and we both freaked out, and then i jumped around my room for a bit.
haha.
i'm so lame.
but hey it was exciting.
he's so cute.
sigh.
:D
it makes me laugh that he thanked me for letting him "use my" house. i mean really i dont live here by myself... maybe he had a moment, and didn't know what to say to me so he said that.
because i know that as soon as i saw it was him i got really nervous. plus i think he's starting to realize that he sees me all the time, because now he keeps looking at me when i see him at different times.
haha, so after they left i tried to relax and i don't even actually remember what i did...
oh wait i tried to work on You're not sorry for a bit, but i couldn't calm down. so then i wrote some of my sculpture journals, then it was already time to go campus for dinner, i dropped my journal off for sculpture and set up all the sculptures he is going to grade, then went to dinner.
it was a relaxing dinner, since it was all girls. seriously...Joe, and Chuck weren't there. it was great. Although i did miss John, i feel like i haven't seen him in days. it's really sad, since i just saw him yesterday, but i mean i haven't really talked to him since Friday. so long!
oh but while i was waiting for everyone to come for dinner Andrew walked by.. and he was like *big smile* HEY SAM! i was like *big frown* oh hey andrew...
it's rather unfortunate that i saw him, but i was still on a major happiness high from seeing shb that he didn't even bring me down for that long :)
so we were eating dinner, and i got this strange urge to like look behind me, and SHB was at the door waiting to be swiped in. i was like woah, and it was weird because he looked at me when i turned around, so i immediately turned around, then someone made a joke about mr. cullen and i almost choked on my apple. then shb walked by our table which made it worse since everyone was like whispering oh sam there he is, and i was like guys be quiet i know!
then Sam was like can i tell them what happened to you today! i was like i guess so.
ahha. so she did and everyone was freaking out with me. it was hilarious.
we are such girls haha.
then after dinner it was time for yoga.
and my dear french stalker was there. no worries he was on the other side of the room! ahha.
but yoga was nice, and since my back had been bothering most of the day it felt really good to stretch it out. and it no longer really hurts :)
yay yoga.
and now i am back in the apartment reliving my day. hah :)
well i need to start my Greek homework, and i really should start my theology paper. boo. haha.
okay goodbye :D

Makes Me Wonder - Maroon 5

today was fried food day at my school. seriously. i can feel the fried foodness in my stomach, makes me feel ill.
at lunch there were
-corn dogs
-onion rings
-a pierogies bar

then the regular stuff that you can always get aka soup, salad, sandwiches.

at dinner:
-mozzarella sticks
-pierogies bar again
-hot/bbq chicken wings

and all the regular stuff again.

but seriously. it's like this. i love mozzarella sticks, and onion rings and pierogies. it's like they are trying to kill me, and they dont' want me to stay fit. EVIL EVIL EVIL SCHOOL!!! haha.
oh well. went to the gym tonight anyways and worked out, burned 290 calories, then pry some more once i did the ab workout machine ( <3 ) and plus i basically walk around campus loads and loads all day. so who knows what means. haha. but anyways. i do love the gym. *gasp* i know this is a shocking development, but it's true. I can sort of feel myself getting healthier, except on those days when the school offers the fried food goodness. then i just feel like i gained 80000 pounds.
anyway, sorry that i just talked about food for no reason at all. haha.
so it's supposed to snow tomorrow evening into saturday evening.
i'm not sure i'm excited about this...
1. because it's the weekend, which means classes won't be cancelled.
2. i have things to do. hello, i need to work on my sculptures...
3. i'll be stuck in the apartment. with clayton and mike.
4. except they will pry somehow get out, so i'll be stuck here by myself.
5. i guess i could always just do loads of homework
6. good thing i have food here.
7. i'm not sure why i'm still writing in this format but oh well.
8. i won't be able to go to campus (even though it's like a mile away) and see my friends. i mean i dont know about you, but i dont like venturing out in winter wonderland storms, it's dangerous.
9. OOOO i could practice a lot of guitar. :) things just got brighter! bring on the SNOW SUCKAS
10. this means i'll just work on my sculptures tomorrow before it starts to snow, finish them both, make sure they are pretty (although i'm pretty sure the figure of a figure has no way of becoming pretty)

and that is what i'll be doing if it snows this weekend. perhaps i'll have a dance party in my room by myself. but that's only if mike and clayton somehow escape the apartment. haha.

uh..
anyways.
andrew creeped me out again today.
he sat diagonally from me at dinner, only because i made sure i didn't sit next to him or across from him.
then he kept looking over at me, but i kept ignoring. i'm pretty sure everyone can tell that i'm basically miserable when he's there, what can i say, he makes me uncomfortable.
i could see him keep looking over at me, and i was like I'M EATING STOP LOOKING AT ME. GAHHHAHHHHHHH.
then Jenna was sharing a story and andrew was like can i tell a story.
so he was like
"the first time i met Sam, i thought she was mute cause she didn't talk,..hahhah"

i was like >:/ intense dislike right there.
it's not funny because the first time we met i'm pretty sure i talked, so idk what the freak he is talking about.
sigh. he just wanted me to look at him and talk to him, but instead i just rolled my eyes while i continued to not look at him.
then John engaged me in a conversation and all was better.
i'm pretty sure John can always tell when i'm like blah.. because he always starts doing things to try and make me laugh or at least to make me talk. I'm seriously eternally grateful that he is my friend.
i mean he starts telling me these really random stories about things, or making me at least respond to what he's saying. and at first i'm like maybe i just dont' want to talk, but then i'm always glad that he makes me. because he always pulls me out of my funk. it's weird in a way, because i'm pretty sure he's one of the best guy friends i have ever had. I mean it's not like i share these really great details of my life with him, but slowly he is coming to know a lot of things about me. i mean just easy facts about life. things that by reading my blog or talking to me normally you would find out. i dont know that just really didn't make any sense. we will just go back to he's pry the fourth best guy friend i have ever had in my life.
the third one and the one that would be the most recent was Cody Long. :)
oh Cody. in elementary school when i was feeling really sad he used to do "Cody Flops" where he would just like pretend to run and fall down, it always made me laugh and i always felt better afterwards. i basically grew up with him, he was the first guy from my elementary school that ever came over to my house! haha. i just saw him over winter break and i was so excited, i didnt' realize that i actually missed seeing him until i saw him. haha.
my first best guy friend was a kid named Evan. i looked him up on facebook like last summer and he looks interesting. he has and always had intense blonde hair. i should look him up again, maybe message him and see if he remembers me... i mean it's not my fault i have intense memory. :) i'm pretty sure i was like in love with him in preschool, we used to color together and not talk, our teacher thought it was weird. haha. his older sister was also really nice to me, i always liked her when i was younger.
haha so my second guy best friend was a boy named David. he lived down the street from me and used to come over and play. but i stopped being his friend after he came over one time and wanted to play with my younger brother instead of me. seriously. i was like that's it we aren't friends anymore.
and i didn't talk to him again until he talked to me one time in high school about how the bus routes got changed or something. haha. back then being friends with my brother and with me was unforgivable i guess. now i dont' really care. haha.
anyways, glad that i just randomly brought up all those memories haha. oh memories :)

well back to reality.
today. i had earth and space (absolutely love Stuckey, i know i say that everytime i write about that class, but it's true, he's amazing.) my bff Tom didn't talk to me today. i think he only likes to talk to me when the mood strikes him. i mean really i'm not the type of girl who is going to be like OH MY GOSH TOM BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH. soo i'm fine with only talking to him when he talks to me. we can have that kind of friendship.
haha.
then was lunch. it was kind of uncomfortable, since i'm still kind of annoyed with Kate from after dinner yesterday, and she realized it and was like i'm so sorry i promise i wont ever do it again and i was like okay. and that's all i said and she was like SAM! and i was like what. i said okay. i forgive you, but i just need time.
so that didn't make her happy, but you know we all dont' live in her ideal world where after things like that happen everyone goes back to be super happy and everything. i mean i just need a few days. she knew how i felt about that whole situation, so she had no right to do that. it's not like i go around saying things to the boys who like her, about her. she would absolutely hate that.
i dont know i just keep telling myself she's a freshman, she's still slightly immature, things will make more sense to her next year.
maybe.
so then Kate and Joe left, and it was Jenna and me, then John showed up and started talking about a bunch of things, and well he made me laugh. as always.
haha i realize that every time i talk about John it makes it sound like i am in love with him or something. ahahha.
this is not true. he's just a good friend, i feel like he can tell when things are awkward because then he just does random things to break the ice and make everyone like laugh and become chill.

then i went to theology through film we had to find out our thinking styles for homework. i ended up being like 4/5 categories. i know that's weird.
my two highest scores were for pragmatist and realist, then idealist, then analyst and i was no where close to be a synthesist.
i find this interesting that you can be extremely close (like one number) from like other styles and the book says that 1-4 numbers means you can basically count that as one of your thinking styles. so how do you become four thinking styles? obviously i can't make decisions in life and that is reflected upon my thinking styles.
haha.
after that class came back to my apartment played guitar. yellow submarine still does not sound like yellow submarine, but that's okay. eventually i will get there :)
then i cleaned up the apartment a bit.
you know i do what i can, but the place still looks crazy.
although clayton/mike emptied their clothing out of the bathroom, usually when they do that it means a party is about to happen, but i really don't think they are having one tonight...makes me wonder about this weekend...
then it was dinner. gym. the office.
back here, my mom texting me. "guess what i'm doing"
oh i dont know mom obviously watching qvc since that's the only channel you get in your room.
haha.
also finally have a hair appointment next friday at 1:15!!!!!
it's about time! i need a hair cut majorly. i'm stoked!
dont' know how i'm going to get it "styled" but i figure that doesnt really matter, well at least not at this point. i have a week to figure it out. hey i can add that to the things i'm going to do while i'm snowed in this weekend! ahha
well i need to go to bed. i have an 8 am class, have to get up at 7 and it's already 11:07. i dont know what my problem is, i'm not even really tired...fail.
oh and btw shb count: 17... saw him in the dance studio, i think tryouts for the dances are next week. exciting.
too bad i can't dance. hahaha.
okay good night everyone :)

last time around.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. DFHIATYUIEW4AGFHWAR8WE4FUIIURD. JYUE4WEWTHIUEHFIUEWYRUIEWAHF.

*sighs and relaxes*

sorry i just needed to get that out. A lot of pent up anger/annoyance here.
although i was playing guitar for a bit after i got really annoyed and it actually made me feel better. plus it helped me realize that i have three ish chords memorized and one of the scales memorized! ahha :) that makes me happy. :D

anyways i am annoyed because this wonderfully slow loaner computer is going to take like ten minutes to load each song off of nick's cd. i'm not excited.at.all. i mean really. i just want to listen to his songs, it seems that it would just be easier to go to myspace and listen to his songs on there. which seems ridiculous!
but you know whatever dude. i'll be happy once they are all loaded. maybe if i just didn't do anything and exited out of all the pages and like left for an hour, i could come back and they would all be loaded! haha. that would be ridiculous.

but in happier news amazon emailed me today and told me i get a refund of a dollar. :) i have never loved a website more, than i love amazon right now. haha. it's sad, but true. they have made me eternally happy. they also emailed me after i first preordered Nick cd and told me i get 3 dollars worth of free songs. i'm beyond excited by this, but i'm waiting til i get my real computer back before i go buy three songs that i want :)
so in my eyes amazon gets like 50 stars out of 5 :)
ahha.

on the negative side part two of why i am annoyed, actually it's more like part one and the reason i was annoyed in the first place...
well okay two of my friends weren't at dinner today. it was sad. i have no idea where John was, but he always makes dinner tolerable because he just talks and talks and talks and basically i could just listen to him talk forever because he just talks about the most random things ever and it's crazy awesome and interesting haha. and then my other friend Kristin had to go home for a doctor's appointment. so it was Kate, Jenna, Joe, Sam and me. and well Joe always does this thing where he has to comment on EVERYTHING THAT HAS BEEN SAID. EVERYTHINGGGGG.
so he did that during dinner, about everything and that just makes me want to tell him to not talk for like ten minutes, i mean it's really not necessary for him to comment on everything. seriously EVERYTHING.
also everytime he commented on something he really didn't need to comment on Kate would kick me under the table. pry because we talked about how weird it is that he comments on everything the other day. but it's really unnecessary for her to kick me every time he does that. i'm going to have ridiculous bruises on my shins if she keeps it up.
then lastly so this person "andrew" well i dont know why i put that in quotations since that's his real name, but whatever anyways. he is john's roommate and everyone keeps telling me he has a weird obsession with me.
i find this to be true, since he always only asks me to do really weird things. like the first week that i met him he was like "sam do you want to help me work on my portfolio?" and i was like uh what the heck are you talking about, what portfolio.
but in the end i never helped, and i sort of avoided him for awhile after that... and this was last semester keep in mind.
then monday or perhaps sunday he was like "sam do you want to go to the AT benefit with me" i was like umm...*ignore* so ignored him and talked to someone else, but then we were eating dinner and he asked me like four more times until i was like "NO! i'm busy that night!" which i honestly want to be and will do anything to be busy that night, plus i actually should be busy since my brother's girlfriend is coming to visit this weekend but i dont know what day she is coming, although after i found out what was happening at the AT benefit i was like aww i should go to that. just not with him.
it's our three on campus acapella singing groups performing. and it would have been cool to see them. but stupid andrew ruins it all.
now you are pry wondering why i dont' want to go with him.
1. he raises his hand at dinner when he wants to comment on whatever we are talking about or ask a question. seriously. like we are in class or something.
2. he awkwardly stares at me while i am eating.
3. he awkwardly asks me to things that i don't want to attend with him.
4. he always puts a salt or pepper shaker on whoevers tray is closest to his during dinner.
5. he says weird things to John all the time (we know because John tells us)
6. he tried to throw a carrot down Sam's shirt (seriously, and if it was mine i think i would have lost it)
7. he's just kind of socially awkward. i mean not that there is anything wrong with being socially awkward, since i kind of am too, but he just takes it to a whole new level of awkwardness.

i dont know what it is but at first i was like he seems like a nice guy, he's religious, seems pretty chill, then he started doing weird things. and i was like...never mind.
i dont know what it is, but i attract weirdos.
sigh.

anyways lets look at the positive things that happened today.
1. it snowed... (although we didn't even get a delay at school. fail)
2. i went to work and got to color!
3. i saw shb two times today :D (so that makes it 16? i saw him at lunch he was wearing a beanie. so adorable, and after sculpture i was walking to my car and i could see the track team running, and guess who was in front. yup shb, and he totally looked over to where i was walking. even though i was in the parking lot not that close. it was kind of weird, but i dont know if he like looked over or he was actually just like looking behind him to yell an answer to someone, but either way it counts, and i heard his voice. hahaha. i'm such a creepy person)
4. Saw the kid i know from high school! of course this time he yelled "HI SAM!" when i was like five feet away... just so i wouldn't ignore him again. i was like *super embarrassed* hey!
i still feel really bad i ignored him the other day... even though he apparently thought it was funny since i told him i was so sorry on his facebook wall and told him he could ignore me next time he saw me, and he was like it's okay sam i thought it was funny. so i guess from now on he'll just yell hi to me every time he sees me... i don't know what's worse. him yelling hi or just ignoring me... haha either way i'm glad he still said hi to me, he's such a nice kid :)
5. my sculpture is sort of coming along... although i personally think it's ridiculously ugly. my teacher only commented on three things i needed to improve. so i consider that a plus.. haha.
6. Guitar :D it makes me happy.
7. amazon :) new favorite site. haha

and well i think that pretty much sums up my annoyingly weird average day?
i just kind of want tomorrow to be better. i mean i get to sleep in (plus), i have earth and space with STUCKEY (favorite teacher :D PLUS), i have theology through film and we are talking about thinking styles, i took the quiz already and it told me i am four out of five of the thinking styles... haha oh well, but that class can still be a plus, practice guitar PLUS!, it's thursday, practically the weekend PLUS!, and i dont know what else ahha. but i'm going to make tomorrow a happy day. PLUS John and Kristin will both be at dinner (well they better be) although Sam wont be. but i guess you can't win them all.
well i think i'm going to go work on my sculpture at school. actually i know i am haha. i'm going to finish my severely ugly figure of the figure i had to copy. then i'm going to work on my non objective piece, which will be nice. so goodbye for now :)

Who I Am.

so even though i didn't see the Grammy's this weekend, i have seen some videos from it.
this video is really awesome.
I mean like i said before i'm not like this giant fan of Michael Jackson, but i can admit he had good music, and he cared about the planet, and he brought about changes to music back in the day. that's why it is the way it is now. but anyways this tribute to him was really well done.

and i think it's really cool that they had such different artists perform it. :)

anyways. today was Who I Am day. because Nick's cd came out. haha. i love his cd. it's amazing. and amazon actually had it arrive to me TODAY! which was pretty awesome :)
i'm not sure what song is my favorite though. although i've been thinking about asking mr. cullen if i can learn some of those songs on the guitar. you know when i'm ready. :)

also shb count: 14.
earth and space seemed to be extra hilarious today. i love my teacher in that class. he's just so hilarious. and in theology through film we just discussed the movie we watched last week. the ENTIRE time. but whatever. it was sort of interesting to hear everyone's view points about it. and i was definitely right in my thinking that the one lacrosse boy is someone i should continue to avoid. even though everytime he comes into class he like looks at me when he first enters and i'm like UGH i do not care for you. WEIRDO.

haha...
anyways kickboxing today was just as intense as last week. except i feel like my arms will hurt way more than they did last week.
and we did a lot more ab workout things in there. so that was good!
and IT'S SNOWING! soo i'm secretly hoping that class will be cancelled tomorrow.
well at least greek...
i know that's horrible. i just dont' feel like getting up at 7. which is why i should go to sleep now.

yup. so good night. :)
who am I?
Friend. Sister. Listener. Student. Daughter. Lutheran. Tri-Lingual (now that's hilarious to think, but technically Greek is my third language HAHA). and so many other things :)
love you all.

so why dont' we just dance.

alrighty. so
shb count: 13
yesss.
haha.
uh so i feel like a horrible person because that kid i know from high school totally said hi to me today and i kind of ignored him by accident. i was telling Sam a story and i got really into telling it and i like heard someone say hi sam but it kind of didn't cross my mind that they were talking to me until after they had walked past. then sam was like don't you know him. and then i realized who it was and i was like oh no i'm so mean :(
i mean i'm sure he'll forgive me. but he was with all his friends. and i know how embarrassing that is to say hi to someone and they ignore you.
oh man. :/
anyways yoga started back up today. it kind of made my arms burn. soo i really need to work on that.
kickboxing tomorrow. i fear the pain i will feel for like four days after that.
and well i need to study all my greek words from last semester. it's embarrassing when your teacher calls on you in class and makes you read sentences and translate them, and you don't remember the words in english...
and there are only four people in the class.
fail.
anyways got to read for theology through film and start my greek homework.
good night you lovely people.

PS. i'm learning yellow submarine on guitar now! and soon i'll get to learn taylor! i'm SO excited :D
i really like mr. cullen. he's really not that creepy. ahha :)

we are all made of star matter.

so it's really cold and windy out today and it's supposed to be again tomorrow. i'm really not looking forward to venturing out to Greek class at 8 in the morning. boo. :(
anyways SHB count: 10 :)
saw him at lunch today. i waited for 15 minutes for my one friend then when i called her she was like oh i just got out of the shower i'll be there soon. i was like you know what i'll just go up and sit with John and Steve until you get here and she was like okay. so i was up there getting food and i saw SHB, and he was wearing a baseball hat and he looked super cute, and he has the SAME COLOR NORTH FACE JACKET AS ME! ahha. it's kind of weird. since i had no idea he owned it, when i got mine. i dont know i feel like i mentioned that on here before but oh well.
so i had earth and space today, not that bad we watched three videos, one had tom selleck as the host/narrator person, it was funny.
also had theology through film we watched a movie called "this film is not yet rated" and it's about the MPAA and how they rate films and such. and well the film isn't rated, and it has a lot of content in it that would make it NC-17. i dont know it was very informative but at the same time made me feel like a major prude. i mean there were a lot of sex scenes. and to me they were kind of disturbing.
and the one guy in the film kept saying things like it's a fact that teenagers do certain things and look at certain sites. and i was like umm i've never done either of those things...
it was really awkward.
so i had mixed emotions about it.
but my teacher knows my full name now. haha. when she saw me she was like hi sam. i was like hi.
haha. oh well.
so Greek tomorrow, then work then the weekend! YAY! :)
tomorrow night is Mad Cow i'm excited :)
although Sam and Kristin both are leaving. so i guess it'll be John, Kate, Jenna, and me. so that will be interesting. and i kind of really hope Mike and Clay don't have a party. i mean i like the parties because i like laughing at the people who are drunk and stupid, but they are tiring and a lot of cleaning the next day.
although maybe SHB would be there. or my new bff Tom.
hahah.
which by the way i went up to get dessert today and i was going to sit down and i walked by Tom but i figured he wasn't going to say hi to me but then he was like "hi SAM" and he said kind of loudly and i was like hi tom,
then i saw my peer kid and he was like hey sam, and i was like hey cameron. i have never felt so popular while at school. ahha. and it was weird since they were both boys. it seems i have a lot of guy friends now. when did this happen? i have no idea. hahaha. weird.
anyways i need to perfect my greek homework and go to sleep and it's already 10:30 eww. sigh. good night!

uh quote of the day
"i need to find a mate who is just as weird as me"
-John

hahaha. we were talking about the article in the school newspaper that a girl had written about how all the guys at my school are taken, gay or just emotionally unavailable. and somehow were talking about finding the right person. and well John always says interesting things lol. i hope he wouldn't be embarrassed by the fact i just used that quote...
oh and i had a weird dream about him and SHB last night they were fighting over me, but John was being very overprotective and wouldn't let shb near me, but he somehow got near me and kissed me, and i wanted to be his girlfriend but John wouldn't let that happen, then somehow shb was writing love letters to me, and john would intercept them, but my friend found them somewhere and gave them to me and suddenly i was reading all of these adorable love letters from shb.
it was kind of extremely weird and romantic.
sigh.
okay bye for real now.