>:/

so my brother came up to visit this weekend. :)
it was awesome. saw rocky horror picture show on friday night.
hilarious. sat between my brother and John and they were like tag teaming off of each other.
so great.
Kate showed up drunk.
i ignored her while we were there. i mean i was too busy laughing at John's random shouting (since you do that at those random showing things they do) and my brother doing the same thing.
also at the random dancing we did, that was crazy. haha.
some other stuff happened (eventually i'll go into more detail) and i yelled at kate. almost punched her in the face...
she was drunk enough that she didn't remember it because she tried to sit next to me at church today. and i was like what the freak are you serious. i sort of jokingly (mostly serious though) told her she couldn't sit there. i would have eventually let her sit there but before i could move my papers she threw them on the ground.
i was like wow.
so i "went to the bathroom" to take some time to relax and not flip out on her.
i just don't get her.
she apparently was drunk thursday night too.
so wonderful.
she drinks more than i do.
sigh.
i'm honestly contemplating talking to her and being like listen our friendship does nothing productive for me or you. you act super fake around me and i don't tell you anything about my life because it's not worth it you'll just make fun of me for it.
so lets just be civil but i don't think it's worthwhile for either of us to hang out anymore.

i feel like if i do that though she'll try to manipulate everyone to be on her side...
although honestly i know sam adn nina would side with me. john would secretly side with me but still hang out with kate and kristin would flip out on me.
but whatever.
i can't take it anymore. it's my senior year of college, why should i have to deal with all of this stuff on top of my stressful academics.
it's really not necessary.
and i wouldn't stop going to everything just because she would be there i mean i enjoy all the things we go to. so she couldn't stop me.
whatevs. i'm thinking it might be time to set into motion "operation exile kate"
although exile sounds kind of terrible. it's more like just take her out of my life.

anyways i'll write more about this weekend tomorrow probably. after i finish this essay that i'm 700 words away from being done with. it's also 12:09 and i'm tired but i need to finish it by 11 tomorrow (well today) night. but i don't want to do it later.
sigh.

oh and just for a laugh. my brother thinks i should date john.
okay well back to the essay.

Iron Man 2

So i went to my cousin's confirmation today. it was nice since i haven't seen those cousins in a pretty long time. missed their faces :)
hung out with that side of the family for a few hours then. had a super good "picnic" with them all.
then my grandma confronted me about our house being sold.
and i was like listen i can't be in the middle of this. i'm sorry but i just can't be.
and basically like put my hands up to make sure she knew i was being serious. and my grandma was like okay i understand and she like looked at my mom.
since my mom didn't tell her we were moving or that our house was sold.
i honestly don't know why she didn't tell her.
i mean i can understand not wanting to tell your mom everything about your life (because i certainly do not tell my mom everything that's going on in my life) but some thing are kind of important. like the fact that we are moving.
whatever.
then we left and as soon as we got home, my brother, my dad and i went to the movie theater to see Iron Man 2. except my brother said the movie was at 3:15 when it was really at 4:15 so we ended up sitting there for an hour, of course we also got super good seats in theater haha.
and i thought the movie was good. what can i say i have a soft spot for robert downey jr.
i mean i know he did bad things in his past, but honestly i dont think i was alive when that went down, and i dont find it to be a big deal. mostly because i dont' personally know him and in his Rolling Stone article he genuinely seemed to be sorry for everything he did in the past.
so you know i forgive him, it's whatevs in my book haha
it was really funny though during the one scene someone in my theater was like "YEAH!" and everyone like laughed because we were all probalby thinking that at that point of the movie.
i kind of like when people really get into the movie like that. makes me happy. haha
so then the movie was over. we ran to the car, dropped my brother off at work. drove home super fast. except we got stuck behind a super slow person. this always happens when i have places to be that i might be late for.
finally got home i ran upstairs grabbed my bible and drove super fast...within the speed limit... and got to bible study like five minutes late.
which is something i have extreme anxiety about.
so the pastor who runs it (who also happens to be my internship advisor) made some guy get up and go get more chairs and told me to sit in his seat. i was like uhh okay.
it was awkward since i was late and everyone stared at me...
but the bible study was good we talked about Hell. although the guy who was the guest speaker didn't even really talk about it, he more so talked about how we arrive there and how it isn't God's fault no matter what, but rather ours.
which i found to be something that you should sort of already realize. but also its nice to go over things like that.
then we had little prayer groups.
afterwards they had food for everyone. which was amazing since i didn't have a chance to eat dinner, since i was running late.
talked to my brothers new friend-girl. she's nice. saw some people who went to my high school. two people i graduated with. the one talked to me the other looked at me like she had no idea who i was...it was awkward.
then there were a lot of people who graduated after me and before me.
saw some cute boys. but they were pry all taken.
well except this one guy he didn't look like he was taken. and i clearly remember him because his sister grew up with me. well she did spanish immersion with me.
it was kind of weird because i always thought her brothers were cute, but they were always way older. but i don't remember how much older they were. cause i mean if its like three years...i dont think that's too bad. especially now that i'm going to be a senior in college.
AH.!
haha
oh well. i think i'll continue to go to bible study
1. because it was very interesting and eye-opening
2. because it gives me hours for my internship
haha/
oh well. so then i came home showered and am now relaxing.
tomorrow i'm going to work more on my laptop case and i think i'm going to start a bag. :)
that's all for now!
good night!

i feel as if today was a successful day.

today i found my new favorite website.
mlia.
hahahahaaaaaaaaaaaa
seriously.
this morning i laughed so hard i actually got tears in my eyes.
it's a magical site.
i love it. lol
:)
and i want to meet all of those people who do those Harry Potter themed things. they sound like people i would LOVE to hang out with lol
that site has made my life.
it's true. haha
oh also i love Heart Heart Heartbreaker by Boys Like Girls, it's going to be one of my favorite songs of the fall. no doubt in my mind.
i also met Lenny at Sleepy's he was super funny,.
and after we left my mom made jokes about him
pry the most fun i have had with my mom all summer
i would say what she said but you know...
i kind of can't
hahah
oh and i went to target and i didn't buy a movie!
wooo!
go me! haha
but i almost walked right by my cousin and i didn't even notice it was her. ahha
and I FINALLY found a flannel shirt! i have been looking for like two years. and it was actually FLANNEL not just plaid. i was like SCOREEEEEEE LOOK MOM! and she was like oh that's good you have been looking for one for like two years. hah
so yeah. umm going to go back to reading MLIA
what can i say it's hilarious and addicting.
my.life.is.average.

Burn Out- Days Difference

Here i am just waiting for Burn Notice to come on in 14 minutes. I'm pretty excited. It's going to be awesome. Then after that i'm going to watch Royal Pains which so far has been pretty interesting.
anyways it's been rainy all week which is kind of majorly depressing. good thing i have great friends and a boyfriend who makes me smile
haha
do you know how weird it is to write that.
umm anyways.
so far this week i keep having really weird dreams.
for example the other day i had a dream about this kid who i had a class with this past semester. i was sort of but not really friends with him. i'm pretty sure he thought i was really weird.
which i am fine with haha.
anywaysssssssssssss
i'm friends with him on facebook and he just posted stuff about his new band. WOAH! haha
so maybe if you want to you can go check his band out. but don't tell him i sent you because he might think i'm stalking him then.
http://www.myspace.com/heathergreypa

haha which my dream with him involved him me and my brother.. yeah weird. and we were driving in his car. and we ended up at this random camp. i have no idea why.
and my dream last night was REALLY weird.
hated it.
YAY burn notice is on now. i love this show.
hahah Michael just hit someone with his car door. AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEE
i love this show.
oh i said that already hah
anyways.
my brother graduates tomorrow.
goodness. i am going to take pictures. heehe. it should be fun.
and weird.
he's so old.
and i'm pretty sure this isn't making sense but it's cool
so dude sunday is going to be an awesome day :)
i can't waittttttttttttttttt
yayy
okay i'm going to watch Burn Notice then Royal Pains.
soo later peeps

17 Again.... Mark's/Mike's speech= epic win.

okay so friday night. lacrosse game. my brothers team lost. 11 to 6. :( it was honestly a really bad game. it was like my brothers team didn't show up to play. i don't even know how they scored six times. basically they got lucky. It was really interesting though because the other team came to play. and to win. and they were all riled up. At one part i totally thought there was going to be a full out fight on the field, not like i would have objected to that...ahah just kidding, that would have been really bad. Plus my brother was "feeling sick" i put that in quotations, cause he is a baby and can't take it. like for real i haven't been to the doctors in oh two years. he goes like every month now. cause his girlfriends dad "Doctor..." was saying he was getting sick. like suck it up. gosh.
oh and another funny thing is i haven't seen my brother since like wednesday night. it's sunday. he lives at home. hahha. i mean i saw him at his lacrosse game, but that doesn't really count right? It's because he is apparently housesitting some house near his girlfriends house. fail.
yeah. whatever.
i'm basically so over my brother's girlfriend's family, they are weird.
Umm haha sorry i just needed to rant about that
anyways yesterday it was like 78 DEGREES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was SOOOOOOO happy. it was amazing. i uh sat on my front porch for like three hours, because it was that amazing. and the farm across the street, well they were like putting seeds down or something. haha. but it was really funny because the one kid whose grandparents own that farm, i graduated with. so he was driving the one tractor down the road and my mom was all he just looked up here like five times. and i never looked once. wooo haha. what can i say i was enjoying the weather.
SO then i went to see.....17 AGAIN!!!!!!!!
hahah dude that movie was AMAZING. STERLING KNIGHT!!! he was so cute, and Zac Efron and Matthew Perry, like dude they were acting so similar it was creepy. they def made good choices choosing them. haha i'm not goign to lie i like screamed when Zac got punched in the face. because i was like OH MY GOSH he just got KNOCKED OUT! haha. B was like woah calm down. i was like oh sorry. haha i just know that hurts.. yes i KNOW.
anyways i really loved that movie. so good. then i came home. had dinner and went to church. and my cousins and aunt went to church with us. which was super nice. and we have a new organist. like this was his first saturday night. so when we walked in like ten minutes early he was down there talking to us about how the music was going to be, and he started to like sing some lyrics and then he was like oh but you know exactly what song i'm talking about. everyone in the congregation looked around and was like umm say what? ahah.
i mean he was really enthusiastic which was nice. but no one really sings on saturday night...we all kind of mumble lol. so you could hear my pastor and the organist singing. and a bunch of mumbling. haha
so then at the end the organist always plays a little music right before the acolyte puts out the candles, and then dismissal from the pastor. welllllllllll the organist yeah he played for like ten minutes. what was really great was that at first everyone was like wow this guy is good. this is nice. but then he kept going and going and going. and we were like alright dude we get you have amazing organ playing skillzzzzzzzzzzzzz we want to LEAVE. even our pastor looked kind of annoyed.lol. oh well, he'll learn lol. maybe he'll turn our music program around... but no matter what i'm still not joining the choir hahah.
my mom, brother, and i then went over to my cousins and aunts house and we talked to them for like two hours, it was really nice catching up with them i guess. i mean they live so close but we dont' really ever see them. so it was nice.
plus we made fun of my brother who wasn't there. hahah good times good times.
so that was basically all i did.
today i need to write some papers. it's imperative since this week i will be extremely busy. well it always seems that way, when in reality i do nothing. haha
but school just drains me. so sleep is always nice. right?
i dont' even know what i'm talking about anymore. so goign to go eat lunch. do some laundry and write PAPERS YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
:)

Family

"Our family is a circle of strength and love. With every birth and every union, the circle - grows. Every joy shared adds more love. Every crisis faced together, makes the circle stronger."


"Family ties are special threads"


This holiday season I hope you think of your family, and realize how special they are.

I got overexcited when Cedric jumped out of a tree...

yup. Right in the beginning.I was like OH MAN that's where he gets his abilities for when he turns into Edward Cullen (hahahah)
anyways Harry Potter Weekend is over now. sad face. almost cried when Cedric died. legit. i was like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
and when his dad is like screaming. i was like oh man i forgot how sad this is.
anyways i think i need to see twilight again. hahah
okay this blog was basically pointless. i painted my nails red and green :)
and had my family holiday party today. it was with my second and third and well first cousins too and aunts and uncles and you know them all lol. it's pretty much crazy. and everyone has basically agree that the grandparents are insane. for example
every year we get a $5 to walmart. i know it doesn't seem like much but it's nice when there are like 30 grandchildren among 3 sets of grandparents. so today they made us stand up and INTRODUCE OURSELVES it's like we all know eachother so it was lame. and then WE HAD TO SAY SOMETHING ABOUT OURSELVES like the first day of school. it was majorly lame. so then everyone said one thing then it was my turn and my grandmother asked me questions so i basically said wayyyyyyyyyyyyy more than everyone else. i was like well then. all for five bucks. whatever. then i sat down and looked at the envelope the gift card came in. and they spelled my name wrong. yeah. my own family spelled my name wrong. i was like what the heck is it that hard to spell my name?!? NO. sigh. lol and my mom's one uncle didn't know who i was but it's cool cause i dont' really know him that well either lol, but he said once you get old you can be retired and retarded then he laughed. it was great.
and well that's it. lol all the excitement in my life :)

just saying thanks

okay so i'm actually really religious so i'm just going to write a letter to God here thanking him, even though i can do that through prayer. i just want to do it on here too. k all?


Dear God,
Thank you so much for keeping me safe for all the years of my life. Thank you for carrying me through the hard times, even when i acted like i could walk alone. Thank you for being there for me, always, even when i didn't know. Thank you for keeping me safe. Thank you for letting me find such amazing friends. Thank you for letting me keep all the promises i made to myself and to you. Thank you for showing me that there are boys out there who are worthwhile and actually have values and morals. Thank you for letting me make mistakes, just so i could learn from them and fix them myself. Thank you for sending people into my life, even if they are only supposed to be there for a little while. Thank you for letting me find the Jonas Brothers on TV that one day. Thank you for letting me win that Meet and Greet. Thank you for letting me meet Demi Lovato...(and maybe again !!). Thank you for letting me meet Kate Voegele. Thank you for letting me meet Josh Duhamel. Thank you for letting me win that contest on fanbolt (my prize is cool even though i can't read the signatures.. oh well who needs to know who they are anyways? hah). Thank you for introducing me to random music, at random times, like when you know i need something inspirational. Thank you for B and J :). Thank you for my family, yes that includes my wonderfully annoying brothers whom i love, and my cousins who claim to strongly dislike JB. (i will turn them though don't worry one day they will love JB!!!). Thank you for letting me go to LCCC, although it's really annoying using all that gas, i just know there is a reason you wanted me to go there. Thank you for letting me get crazy teachers who are actually amazing at teaching. Thank you for showing me that there are actual nice people out there who are willing to talk to shy people like me. Thank you for everything. Just thank you so so so much!
and again for serious thank you so much for the meet and greet to meet JB. THANK YOU!
I love you forever and for always.
Sam

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