Friends are FOREVER

forget that stupid saying diamonds are forever.
like who the freak cares.
when i die all that will matter is how i lived my life.
and those who i affected
negatively and positively.
hopefully i haven't affected anyone negatively
i mean that's a sad thing to think about
i know people who have affected my life positively and negatively
for one My friends
all whom I love with all of my heart have affected me possitively
sometimes i may seem like i am distant but you have to know that sometimes i just need some space...
i have a lot on my mind.
when i am ready i will tell you....
it's just the way i am
i need time
sometimes its a day sometimes it's week... sometimes its even a month
my friends are always on the back of mind.
cause i know i can go to them for anything, anything all.
i just need to have myself figured out before i go and lay it all on someone else
i mean i don't want them to have a breakdown cause of all of my stuff
you know
it's not like i have like really really deep stuff to lay down on people
it's just personal
and sometimes i don't like having other people know my personal business
when i tell you things your a real friend
one that i want around forever until Kingdom comes
please just accept me the way i am
sorry if that makes you feel like your left out.
like i really am sorry. its just there isn't enough time in a day
...
the negative people.. well i would think they now who they are...someday they will be sorry
but for now they live their lives the way they want to.
i tried to affect them positively but there's only so much i can do


i love you friends i love you