if the heart is always searching...

so i might possibly feel like throwing up right now...and i can't tell if it's because the school had all the greasiest foods available to eat today or if i'm just getting sick...i'm mostly going with the school had a lot of greasy foods today and i shouldn't have eaten all the ones that i did... yuck.
anyways. started translating the princess and the pea today! i know i said i was going to do that yesterday...but I DIDN'T haha. so far it looks like i'll be looking up a lot of words up at the library this weekend/tomorrow. going to be spending some quality time in the library. woo.
not.
also i think i'm supposed to be tie-dying shirts with my peer training group tomorrow night but i'm not really sure. i mean that's what the last email said but my peer trainer made it sound questionable like it might not be at that place and time. so i'm like GREAT. just let me know for serious.
also talked to my teacher about doing an internship this summer/independent study to make up for those five credits i'm lacking in. going to be a terrible summer, since she said each internship credit needs 120 hours of interning...
sounds insane to me.
but i need to make those up... :/
oh well.
still waiting for my toms shoes to arrive! i'm like freaking out. i saw like five people wearing them today (including shb apparently he has a light blue pair and a white pair... and here i am trying to act nonchalant whenever i see him. because i think something weird is going on...i'm telling you it's like everyone on the track team always stares at me whenever he's around and it creeps me out...but i couldn't help but be secretly excited beyond reason seeing him wear those shoes. it makes me happy)
anyways. i also have a headache, i had one last night to, i think it's a stress headache since i'm starting to freak out about my greek paper due monday, and well alot of other things are stressing me out on top of that. and well lets just say i really dont need this now.
on a sidenote i entered two things into the art show! my "assemblage" of trash lol. which i actually really like it turned out pretty cool, and i put down that if someone wants to buy it they can. hahaha. i mean seriously who would want to buy trash? and then i also put in one of my figure sculptures of my partner Katie, i kind of hate it because it cracked on the back but milton said it wasn't that noticeable so i said okay and i entered it. haha
sooo YAY!
ahah
we shall see how that goes.
well i need to sleep i think. i'm feeling really blah right now and it's not helping any that these words look really small right now on my computer screen...
oh but before i go, i want to gush about chad whom i talked about on here before. umm HE is so adorable he wore a suit today? or maybe it was just a nice shirt with a tie and nice pants? idk but either way he looked really good, i was like aww chad! :) haha, yesterday he came in during my sculpture class and he was like listening in on my conversation with milton about what i wanted to enter in the art show. his stuff is way cooler than mine though. he has all of these super cool bowls and vases and containers. like i would legit buy one of his things if they were in a store or something. they are so cool. and on a sidenote i would also so date him.hahaha
his only downfall, that i know of that is, he smokes, and well that's a big turnoff to me. smoking is gross and it smells bad.
and it could kill you.
but he is really cute.
so that was weird i feel mildly better now after gushing about him ahhaha.
i'm such a weirdo.
anyways i'm still going to go. i need sleep. sooo laterrrr