Please Tell Me Why...

I decided that before i throw my life away for my greek paper today, i'll explain some things. :)

First. Chad :)
Chad is a senior i believe, and when you are a senior you have to do like a research paper or independent study or something, and well Chad is doing his with Ceramics. So for awhile when i had to go into the ceramics room after class at night to work on my sculptures in the beginning of the semester he was always there. and one night my friend Jenna introduced herself to him while she was there with me so then he introduced himself and i introduced myself. so now i see him a lot, of course we dont' really talk, BUT i really want to become his friend he seems awesome (again minus the smoking) and he's really good at ceramics. It's amazing all his bowls and vases and what not are so cool, and the way he glazes them so awesome. yup. oh what the heck while i'm talking about him i'll just go on! ahhaha he has blonde hair, and well sometimes it looks like he spiked it like shb, but i think mostly it's just sticking up. so endearing :) and he has really nice calves. you cant help but notice when he wears shorts. lol. he also sometimes has a beard/mustache thing going on with sideburns, but then sometimes he doesnt and well he looks good either way :)
well that's enough about that...for now :)

Second. SHB.
welll I'm trying to "get over" him because it's gotten to the point that whenever he enters the cafeteria or where ever i happen to be that he appears ALL MY FRIENDS stare at him and i'm pretty sure he's noticed. and it's creepy. so i've decided that i'm tired of them all making me feel uncomfortable and well probably him too. I mean I still think he's attractive, and heck if he wanted to become friends i would so become friends with him. and if he wanted to date. well i would probably date him. hahaha. i mean after i get to know him better of course.
but anyways i think it's just weird that everyone stares at him, and now sometimes his friends like stare at me. and well it creeps me out. so i don't know what is going on but i'm going to pretend not to notice him anymore. except for those times when we walk past each other on the steps both biting our lips. ridiculous. :)

Third. Clayton. surprisingly he does talk. haha. He doesn't talk that often to me but that's because we barely are ever here at the same time or i'm freaking out about my homework. well not really freaking out but you know working on it. but it was actually kind of cool that he sat there and talked with us. :)

Fourth. Next year living arrangements.
SO since i'm off-campus now. i would prefer to stay off-campus it's cheaper and well i can sort of afford it. (only i need to work a lot this summer...) and well i don't really want to stay in the apartment i'm in because i don't really like it, and i would have to find two other people to live with me, which is pretty impossible it seems because the school refuses to give out a list of people who live off campus. actually they claim they dont' even know who lives off-campus. such lies. anyways. my friend Sam was trying to get off but they gave her some lame reason that she can't get off. the real reason is they want her money. but whatever. so Clayton decided to move into the track house. which is just a bunch of people from the track team living together. so originally before he decided that we sort of talked about living together again with another roommate. but then he decided to go to the track house and i figured sam would get off. I mean i could always technically go back on campus to a dorm, but i don't want to. and i could find an apartment alone but again i dont' really want that, i would sort of feel not that safe. soo i'm hoping Sam can get off but if she can't i'll pry just ask clayton if that room in the track house is still available. which'll be kind of weird since i have no idea who lives there or how ugly the house is...

Fifth. Internships. so 120 hours doesn't seem to bad, but i think that's only for one credit. so if i do like four credits it's 480 hours of interning. and i dont' know if i can handle that over the summer on top of having a job. i mean i haven't really figured it out yet, and i think somehow i could get credits for like an independent study thing having to do with the internship so i might only have to do like 3 credits with 3 credits of independent study to go with that... but i dont really know how that works yet..
oh well.

and lastly. I have two pages written for my greek paper! i think it can be 8-10 pages. i should check just in case, but if that's the case then i'm only going for 8. haha.
soo gotta go work on that now! bye!