SO can i just say that i legit feel like my life is a minefield of drama. like that game mines or whatever. that you try to avoid the mines because otherwise you lose.
well my life is like that. and i lose a lot, because the mines are drama and i get it all the time.
and you know it's kind of funny because it usually comes from one person.
so hypocrites really annoy me.
(i promise this is relevant to my mine field analogy? metaphor?... wait simile!)
because last year my friend (who sometimes acts like a non-friend) refused to drink at all. and this year she drinks more than i do. which means she like sips other people drinks all the time. and i like never drink.
it really bothers me because she is always like dont' judge me blah blah blah and i'm like i'm not judging, which i'm not i'm just like why can't you stand up for yourself. she stood behind me last year when i didn't drink but she can't stand up for herself, and it's def not like we would all make her drink.
i dont know i think secretly she wanted to drink last year, and this year without me being her shield she just goes all out. it's rather dumb.
and i think it's hypocritical. what's worse is my roommate/friend Sam isn't 21 but has always told us she drinks which is fine but when she does Kate gives her this stupid what we call "mother" face, that's so totally judgmental.
it just bothers me a lot.
sigh. anyways. on the other hand my friend John is so great. haha
yesterday my advisor told me i should go to seminary, which i had thought about for a bit but then i was like i can't afford that. and then when she talked me she basically showed me that i could. and i was like oh wow. my life just changed.
like i can go to seminary if i want..
not to be a pastor but for ministry counseling.
so i kind of was freaking out and i talked to sam about it and she was helpful but then i talked to john about it and well since he's graduating with me and wants to go to grad school it's like a different perspective you know. so talking to him was incredibly helpful. and he was so funny about it he like asked me all these good questions that made me think about it differently and then he was like Sam if this is what you should do it will happen. and i was like oh man thanks John. then he was like said something about how God is first in his life and that will help him and somehow that involved me. but i was like John that's cool cause God is first in my life too. and he was like that's great! (even though i'm pretty sure he should have already known that... but whatevs haha) then he was like i'm glda you weren't freaked out that i said that to you, and i was like that doesn't bother me i think it's great!
and then he told me he prays for me. and i was like aww john. thanks. and he was like i hope that doens't freak you out either.! haha i was like no John it doesn't cause i pray for all of my friends too.
he's a funny kid.
i also called my dad about what my advisor said and my dad was all do you only go to seminary to be a pastor?! i was like ahha no that's what i thought too dad but nope.
then we talked about it and he basically was like i'll check out the school (online) and if you want to do it i'll support you.
and i was like thanks dad.
it makes me happy that i can be surrounded by good people like that :)
but i mean there always is kate. who i can't tell anything to because she uses it against me.
but it's alright because there is this freshman, Nina, who hung out wiht me and sam last night from like 1 in the morning until 7:30 this morning.
um yes. we basically pulled an all nighter talking. bahha.
but me and nina have strangely similar lives. but it's cool i like her, she's a good kid, and she's hilarious.
:)
anyways gotta get ready to go support John playing in Jazz band.
hope i don't fall asleep during the chorus parts since i only got like five hours of sleep. ha.
too funny.
p.s. i'm supposed to go to the bar tonight with John, Kristin, her b/f Matt and our friend Steve who graduated last year.
i'm kind of not feeling it... because me and drinking. idk we aren't that good of friends.
haha
we'll see how it goes i guess.
so bye!
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