Lets talk about how Taylor Swift has successfully written songs that are relevant to my life once again. The single she released this week (aka Mean) umm is basically exactly what i needed to hear. i was telling my best friend B how taylor swift writes songs about my life and B was like "WAIT you dated John Mayer, Taylor Lautner and Joe Jonas and you didn't tell me!?" i laughed because i realized you could easily take that from what i said so i was just like "they made me sign a confidentiality contract"
then we laughed about how crazy that would legit be if that happened.
cause in all seriousness i probably would not date John Mayer, i like his music but he's kind of a jerk.
and Taylor Lautner is adorable but a little too young for me.
i would def date Joe though. mmhmm.
haha.
anyways this isn't a post about who i would date... haha
it's about T.Swift's song Mean. and how legit it matches Kate.
i mean everything but the line about watching football, cause Kate doesn't really do sports.
but anyways. i'm telling you it's like it's about her. cause she is so mean. all the time. and she puts people down all the time to make herself feel better. and i dont' know i just can't deal. so when i heard Mean i was like woah. i know someone like this. then it made me happy because now i just sing this song in my head whenever i'm around kate and it makes me feel better. that probably sounds crazy.
but it's true. and this song just makes me feel good because i'm just like wow. this is true. someday i'll be somewhere where she won't be able to put me down, and i'll be happy and she'll be still ranting about how all her friends in high school stopped being her friend and how she has no friends.
because that's always her back up defense for trying to make everyone stay friends with her.
and i'm always wanting to be like you know what MAYBE IF YOU WEREN'T SO FREAKING MEAN ALL THE TIME PEOPLE WOULD ACTUALLY LIKE YOU.AND WOULDN'T MIND BEING YOUR FRIEND.
but then she would cry. and i hate when people cry. i always feel bad. but i feel like with her i shouldn't feel bad because she is probably one of the meanest people i know, at least with the way she treats people. it's terrible.
sigh. it's just too much for me.
i mean let me tell you about this week.
so i didn't really talk to her at all this week, or really look at her for that matter.
i was just i don't know really annoyed with her from last weekend and i just didn't want to really go to dinner with her there. which sounds bad but i just didn't want to do it, but i mean i would have missed all my other friends so i went and just tried not to be near her.
i mean she's not dumb so she noticed that i wasn't really talking that much and that i was pretty much avoiding her.
and she kept asking everyone else if i was mad at her. which i mean i wasn't, i just wasn't happy with her decisions.
although i must admit it's kind of funny because even when i'm not annoyed with her i tend to avoid sitting next to her anyway because she's super touchy-feely and i legit do not like being touched a lot, especially not when i'm eating. and especially not by her.
so obviously she doesn't notice things like that.
but anyways back to the week.
so thursday at dinner she was acting like SUPER weird. so much weirder than normal. and she was being so much more obnoxious than normal and she purposely moved her seat to be closer to John. which was beyond what i can handle. i mean it's so freaking obvious that she likes him. it's disturbing. i mean John is super oblivious so he didnt really notice anything abnormal. which is a bit endearing but also ridiculous cause she was practically throwing herself at him.
i mean she kept touching him a lot, which he really doesn't like i mean our one friend last year used to do that (she transferred back to the school she had originally transferred in from this year) and it used to bother him a lot. i mean at dinner John was even like it's the return of Jenna!
and then Kate was like HAHAHAHAHAHA SORRY JOHN. like being super loud. and i was like what the heck she needs to calm the freak down.
then she like randomly brought up John's parents who we saw sunday, and she was like "no offense john but your parents weren't as skinny as i expected them to be" and i was like what the freak who says things like that. John kind of laughed it off though then he was like wait what is that supposed to mean. then she said something else and somehow was like what are your parents crack whores John! ahahhahaha.
and then i was really like oh my word she did not just say that.
and John got like super serious and he was like Kate if i ever said something like that to you you would get mad at me. and she was all hahaha no i wouldn't john i would just be like my parents are not crack whores.
and i was like oh my gosh. get me the freak out of here.
John got like really quiet though and i could tell it bothered him cause he like looked at me and he was like sam kate just called my parents crack whores. i was like i know john i know. that's just mean and he was like yeah. and i was like well at least they aren't and he was like yeah you're right. and i was like yeah. then kate was like JOHN BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH and i was just like really kate really. every time John tried to talk to me she would interrupt him and start talking to him and i was just like alright fine kate. fine.
like it's going to be like that. it's seriously exactly like last fall again. ugh.
so anyways she went up to get more water or something and Sam was like... She's drunk. and i was like what. then she texted me it to make sure i got it and i was like um what.
i mean this was THURSDAY NIGHT. like at 6:30 what the freak was she doing getting drunk then.
but apparently her and her roommate had a drink to celebrate how good the roommate did on a test or something. and you know it's whatever for the roommate since she's 21 but why the freak was kate doing that.
i just couldn't believe it.
like it legit upsets me.
she's going to be a freaking alcoholic at this rate.
:/
anyways afterwards we went to fake fireplace, real conversation. which is like one of my favorite things to do on campus on thursday nights. and kate was still being ridiculous so i kind of ignored her.
so maybe that was mean of me. but what the freak was she doing getting drunk.
so anyways friday i didn't see her all day, and it was glorious. then i went to the beer and wine stores with John, because i didn't want to go by myself and i was wondering about prices around here. (i mean i kind of want to just get some to have for like a casual drink on friday or saturday's nothing more than that. maybe like one mike's hard lemonade a weekend. idk) so i was supposed to go to dinner with kate at 6:20 but i told her i probably wouldnt make it and i didn't tell her why because i knew she would have asked to come with me and john and i didn't want that plus she's not 21 so it's kind of not allowed.
so anyways john and i took a really long time. plus he didn't get done in the lab until 6 when originally he said like 4.
so we went and i told him that kate likes him and he was like oh man i'm sorry and i was like it's not your fault and he was like yeah i know but i just i don't think i'm doing anything to make her think i like her and i was like your not.she's just crazy and he was kind of like alright. and i could tell it sort of freaked him out. he also admitted that he was completely oblivious to it and i was like uh yeah i know.
so anyways after we were at the store (where the beer store had a sample of Samuel Adam's winter beer, which is like seasonal and John tried it and like made me try it, which that was the first beer i have ever tried. and it was weird. i mean it was okay. but i have no idea what to compare it to, and John obviously does he's like a beer expert. the whole time we were in the beer store he just kept telling me everything about beer it was intense. ahha.) John was like we should go get a drink. and i was like uh i think we should really eat first. and he was like oh yeah good idea i haven't eaten all day. and i was like yeah lets do that. so we went to jays nest (the campus food thing where you can get food when the cafeteria is closed) and we got some sushi. well i got like a packet of sushi, john got two packets and a luna bar (he knows they are for women but he claims they are super good ,which i agree i really like luna bars haha)
but anyways it was kind of weird i always feel awkward when i'm with John alone, mostly because i can't decide if i like him more than a friend of if he's just like one of my best friends. you know?
but then kate freaking texted me asking me where i was and if she could talk to me. so she showed up and it was SO AWKWARD because she didn't talk at all and john was being nice and asking her about her day and she didn't even like respond so john kept looking at me and i was just like i dont know. so then kate basically made john leave because she was like sam can i talk to you and i was like yeah. what. and then she looked at John and he was like oh what do you want me to leave. and i was like oh brother and she was like yeah. so she made him leave.
then she was like are you mad at me. and i was like no kate i just dont' agree with the decisions you have been making dealing with alcohol. you've been drinking like every weekend and i dont like how last year you said you would never drink and now you do a lot. and she laughed at me and was like i dont drink every weekend. and i was like um yeah you do kate. and she does for the past month she has had a drink every weekend. and then she made some excuse about how she never said she never wanted to drink she just didnt think she would like it and then she tried it and it wasn't as bad as she thought. blah blah blah.and i was like seriously.
whatever. and she was like do you understand what i'm saying. and i was just like yeah. and she was like sam do you and i was like yeah i get it. then she complained about how me and sam always have john over and how she feels left out, especially since we take all those pictures with him. and i'm like we don't have him over all the time. like we barely have him over. we've been at school for like two months now and he's only really come over like ten times. which isn't that much within 8 weeks of school. and we dont' take pictures with him all the time. that happened twice.
she's so irrational. it's only because it's me and sam with john. and she wants john all to herself. which i refuse to do.
i think it's ridiculous. john is my friend and if i want to freaking hang out with him i freaking will.
UGH.
then she was like you were acting so secretive tonight for dinner. and i was like what it didn't matter i was like i wanted to go to the beer store with john to look around. and she was like you wanted to look around and she laughed AGAIN. and i was like (anger boiling what the freak why is that funny. yes i wanted to freaking look around i mean what's wrong with that. i'm not a freaking alcoholic like she is apparently grrrr. like this pisses me off so much even now a day later.) uh yeah i wanted to look around and she was all i thought you didn't like the beer store. and i was like i never said didn't like the beer store it's just not a place i want to go to.
like whatever.
and then she was all like offended i went with john and that we had dinner without her.
and it's dumb because it's not like she didn't eat with other people. she has friends.
of course this was also when she was like i just feel like i have no friends here. and i have seriously heard her say this so much that it's just a lie.
i was just like seriously kate you have friends no one would talk to you if you didn't and she was like well i just dont feel that way no one invites me to things.
it was just legit dumb. i mean obviously i'm not going to invite her to EVERYTHING I DO. first of all i dont want her at everything i do. and second of all she annoys me and apparently will proceed to drink at everything now.
so it's just not happening.
i'm kind of upset my roommate went home this weekend because i know she would have been helpful to talk this out with. i mean i texted her everything that happened and she got really mad about kate saying she has no friends because it's a lie. and about us hanging out with john "all the time"
it's just ridiculous
anyways after her stupid talk with me i left and came back to my apartment. i texted john to ask him if he wanted the wine he left in my car and he was like oh i'll come by sometime tomorrow to get it and i think we have to talk i'm a bit confused.
and i was like what the freak is he confused about.
it's probably the way she treated him when she showed up.
i swear if she ruins my friendship with him i'm flipping out and ending my friendship with her.
i don't need it.
she just puts me down, and stresses me out so whatever.
so yeah. after that i just was in my apartment and i was like this day ended up sucking.
so i watched harry potter and the sorcerers stone and drank the only drink i have in the fridge which was a twisted tea.
and then i watched princess diaries and went to bed.
although it was strange because i woke up this morning not feeling that great, well like i felt nauseous. so i think alcohol makes me feel sick. because everytime i drink (the two times. wooo) i feel sick the next day. and that's pretty bad since i only had one drink (and a sample)
apparently drinking is not for me.
but that's fine with me. i dont need to drink.
unless i'm around kate then maybe i should just black out....
haha just kidding that would be ridiculous.
she does make me want to forget that i'm her friend though. and that's bad.
and she's also the reason i can't wait to graduate and get the freak away from her.
i've pretty much decided she is going to be one of those people i never see/talk to again after college.
i don't need the drama she brings into life.
or the way she puts everyone around me down.
i mean she's not a good friend at all. i can't tell her anything personal about me because she uses it against me all the time.
friends shouldn't do that.
she's basically the only one of my friends who doesnt know that my parents are getting divorced. that's pretty bad.
and it's worse because i don't even want to tell her.
i keep wondering if upon graduation my parents will throw me a graduation party. i also keep wondering if that happens which parent will do it or if they both will and if so if i really need to invite kate.
that's terrible but true. i feel like i pry will have to then she'll find out. although i'm secretly hoping she'll be too busy to show up.
does that make me a bad person? i feel like it does. sigh.
i just don't want her to see my house, my family, my life.
alright now i know that mean.
she just uses everything against me. always. anything you say or do is like stored in her mind to throw back at you if you do anything.
so yeah. now that i ranted about my life i think i'm good for a bit.
John just called me to come over.
he wants his wine and probably to talk about last night.
which i don't want to talk about.
also i'm really awkward on the phone. it's awesome.
so yeah.
thanks for um "listening" to my crazy long rants.
bye
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