there's nothing wrong with staying home?

:/
should be working on a midterm that's due wednesday right now. but i can't seem to focus. plus it doesn't help that i'm completely uninterested in all the questions that he gave us as possibilities.
i decided to write on how religion is more likely to become violent in christianity because of the writings in the Bible.
he wants no more than ten pages which means as long as we get a lot of information in like 8 pages he would be fine with that.
and i'm like at half a page.
i just can't focus on it. because i don't really care for the subject matter.
but i want to get it done so i don't have to worry about it anymore.
i should have worked on it this weekend.
but with it being homecoming weekend that didn't happen.
i mean saturday after my about five hours of sleep, sam and i went to the chorus/jazz band concert and saw our friend steve who graduated last year. it was great. he's so funny :)
after that we went to giant with Kristin and her b/f matt and got pizza.
then we came back to our apartment and Courtney came over too then.
so we had pizza, carrots, chips and then carrot cake.
kristin and matt also had bought some twisted tea. so some people had some of those.
after that kate came over (i'm still annoyed with her, well she just makes it worse. i'll get to that eventually in this post i'm sure.)
so then Sam drove Me, Steve, Kristin and Matt to the bar, after we picked up John as well.
so Sam dropped us off, and we went in and got a table. and it was kind of cool since we were all 21, it was also um nerve-wracking. i mean i'm not a drinker at all. i mean i kind of don't even enjoy alcohol. but it was still cool because we were just like hanging out. Steve and John talked about science stuff which was good for John since he's like the only guy in our group of friends. besides Joe...but we dont' really include him since we aren't even sure if half the stuff he says is legit.
anyways then me and Kristin talked for a bit. then we included Matt.
and well i got a malibu bay breeze. which is cranberry juice, pineapple (or grapefruit) juice and rum. they actually made it pretty well there since i couldn't taste the alcohol that much. which was very nice. haha
then Matt offered to buy me and Kristin a shot called a buttery nipple.
uh yeah. i was like um what.
and kristin was like come on sam i wouldn't let you get a shot that wasn't good. and i was like um i guess.
i mean i kind of wanted ot try one anyway and i didn't have to pay for it so that was nice. haha
anyways it was like some kind of cream and schnapps. it was good. i mean it burned going down at first but then the end flavor was like toffee. so that was kind of amazing. haha.
i mean i would get it again, but i wouldnt' like drink a lot of those because i remember the burn very well...
haha
so then when we got back to the table steve and john were all how was it. blah blah blah and i was like it was fine guys. hah
then steve got this drink called a Milky Way Margarita.
so he let me try a sip of that and it wasn't bad, but it had a lot of alcohol in it, and i was like um i wouldn't get that for myself haha.
i also tried a sip of matt's drink (which was kind of weird since i still don't know how i feel about him, i mean like hanging out with him. i mean i def don't like him. he's dating kristin and he smokes and drinks a lot. not for me. but after that night i think i've decided he's not as gross as i thought he was...) which was long island ice tea, which tasted like lemons, but that drink is a crazy amount of alcohol.
so yeah my experience wasn't too bad.
afterwards sam came to pick us up. We dropped John off on campus so he could go to the lab (seriously he's always in there it's ridic) and then we all came back to our apartment then Matt and Kristin left, and they dropped Steve off at his car. so it was me, Sam , Kate and Courtney. and Courtney had chosen to watch Camp Rock 2 (because she likes Demi!!! i'm super stoked that she does ;) ) and Kate kept trying to put it down, but unfortunately for her it was 3 against 1 for not minding the movie. it was great. then Nina came over and we dropped Courtney off, then we went to John's quad, where there was a keg.
probably the craziest his quad has ever been. i mean we were there at like 1030 and there were a lot of people there. but nina left like almost right away i mean she was exhausted and i could tell she felt uncomfortable. then sam and i left at like 1130. i mean we were exhausted too and we wanted to clean up our apartment after the pizza "party" ahha
also i was annoyed with kate cause she drank straight rum at John's quad because apparently it "tastes" good by itself. i'm like uh rum. that's kind of gross.
idk i feel like she's trying to impress John, because she likes him again.
and meanwhile John is kind of oblivious of it, or so we think, i feel like there is a possibility that he knows she likes him but he choses to ignore it because he does not feel the same way.
i dont know. i feel so bad for him that she likes him again, especially after all the freaking drama that happened last fall when she liked him. like she is living in a dream world thinking he will date her. she was insane last year about it, and sam and i told john all the drama that happened when he wasn't around and how she acted, and he was shocked. and we were like yeah. so i'm positive he would not want that to happen again.
plus she is in a dream world if she thinks that John and her would have ended up together if she hadn't sort of dated Chuck. cause uh they would not have dated.

sorry just needed to mini rant about that.

but anyways so after Sam and I left, apparently like ten minutes later Kate made John walk her back to her dorm. which John is way nice so he obviously did it. but apparently they hung out until like 1:30 in the morning because then John got a text from his roommate that they got busted by campus security, and i was like dang he's lucky that he wasn't there.
although John is like mad because he had special imported German beer, and beer from Maine (he has a strange obsession with beer. like he REALLY REALLY likes beer. apparently he signed up to be a reviewer on some beer website...hahah)
so yeah but he said his roommate is going to reimburse him and that they want to get back at campo by throwing a crazy party where no alcohol is present.
i was like oh man john haha. i'm positive that will be fun.
so yeah.
although it was annoying because John was like sort of telling me and Nina about it and nina was like wait why weren't you in your quad when this happened where were you, and like Kate walked up then and John was like oh i was hanging out with Kate and she got this STUPID look on her face, like a smirk like yeah he was with me, and she like looked at me when she did it. i was like. what the freak is that. i mean to myself of course. but it was annoying. i was like what good for you you hung out with john by yourself. like whatever. i hang out with john all the time.
like WHATEVER.
DUMBBBB.
sigh. so yeah.
obviously i'm a bit annoyed with her.
it's alright i'm trying to let it go. it's real hard because i keep thinking about all the things that happened when she liked John last year, and how she treated us, and how she said she wouldn't drink alcohol. and i'm just like what.the.freak.
i mean i need to let it go because apparently she's going to keep drinking, (straight rum is her thing apparently) and i guess she likes John again. which is bad. because i mean i still can't decide if i do or not. and lets be honest i wouldn't act on it anyway. Kate would freak out. and well i figure if it's meant it'll happen. you know. besides it's my last year here. there's nothing wrong with just being friends.
and going to seminary?
oh gosh. ahha.
that's another thought that freaks me out.
although mentioning that when i talked to John about it friday he told me i should like do it (well not exactly like that but he basically was like you know you can focus on what you like, and then he told me i was a good listener and i was like aww wow. ahha) but he also told me he was going to look up a lutheran seminary for me in midwest, and i was like um alright. i mean i didn't expect him to, but at the bar saturday he was like SAM! and i was like uh yeah and he was like that seminary i mentioned to you?! i was like uh yeah. he was like it's called Val Praizen (or something like that) and i was like oh wow haha thanks.
i mean i'm kind of shocked he remembered. he's such a good friend.
uh anyways now that i've jumped from subject to subject multiple times i need to work on my midterm. legit.
here i come midterm...here i come :/