so. i finished that paper last week. it didn't end up being that bad.
sort of.
i don't know.
but now I'm working on a five page paper due tomorrow. that i forgot about this weekend when i went home.
great times.
this dumb paper is on a 64 page book of RULES. and we are supposed to find the thesis which is non-existent (no seriously i've talked to my class mates and they said they couldn't' find it either) anyways it's on the book The Rule of Saint Benedict.
which is really boring and about the rules of being a monk.
don't know how i'm going to get 5 pages. but i think i'm going to use my friend John's advice. just use a lot of quotations from the book and explain them. which i sort of have to do anyways. but i'm just going to go way beyond what our teacher expects...
in hopes of reaching five pages.
anyways fall break is this week. i'm so excited.
i need a break.
although i'm working every day but i don't really care. i really like working at the scoop :)
free ice cream!!! haha
also this past weekend when i went home i was supposed to hang out with my friend Laura for her birthday. instead she chose to hang out with a boy. :/ and i even knew him from camp. i was like SO NOT COOL.
but it was alright. i went to see another girl from camp cheering at her school with one of my brother's ex-girlfriends..
ahha.
i know that's weird but somehow i become friends with his exes.
not my fault.
:)
anyways so we went to the football game with her brother and her friend Tim that she's known since second grade.
and we were joking about coming up with a story of why we were there but then we stood in the student section and the kids actually asked us why we were there.
so we told them we were starting school there on Monday.
and they believed us.
i was amazed that they thought it was for real. we told them we were all going to be seniors and that we were all related and that our cousin was one of the cheerleaders (our friend that we came to watch cheer)
it was amazing.
but also slightly terrible because these kids who were sophomores went and got this girl who is a senior and brought her up to us and she introduced herself to us.
then she was like asking us about our lives.
it was terrible.
but hilarious.
we told her we moved from texas. but we weren't originally from there since we don't have a texas accent or anything and that our parents are in the military or something.
it was pretty much the craziest night ever.
and every time i hang out with her i end up taking pictures with strangers, or apparently getting a whole new identity.
after the game we all went back to my bro's ex-gf's house and some of her friends came over and then it got so weird because her one friend kept asking tim EXTREMELY personal questions. (ie. boxers/briefs which led to if he was a virgin or not. it was probably one of the most awkward things that i have ever had to witness)
but then we watched Get him to the greek. which was kind of dumb, but kind of not. idk it had funny parts but i still kind of dont like russell brand, or jonah hill.
what can i say those movies aren't really my type.
anyways i really like going home now. i mean i love school and my friends but i like going home and spending time with my dad, i think he gets a little lonely since my youngest brother has to switch between house and house because of the divorce, and my other brother hasn't come home since he's been at school.
and i enjoy being around my dad now, i think this summer was good for our relationship.
:)
and speaking of relationships...
i'm still single! haha.
although i think i have a problem.. i think i'm starting to like my friend John. but the problem is i can't tell if i'm starting to like him or if it's just i like him as my friend.
this is always my problem. and it's terrible.
but the reason i think i actually like him is he said the other week something about starting to like a girl and i kind of was like oh my gosh. and it sort of hurt. not like oh my gosh i'm in pain but sort of like woah what if he dates someone.
i dont know if that sounds weird.
and i dont even know if i want to date john.
he's just himself.
so hard to explain. i mean he's awesome. but he's JOHN.
ahhh.
my life.
also on a sad note i just realized today while i was my guitar teacher's concert at school (which btw he's amazing at playing. i mean he should be he's won a Grammy but he's amazing) that this year at Christmas i'm going to have to go to TWO HOUSES. as in my mom's and my dad's.
and i dont' know what i'm going to do.
it makes me feel awkward
i mean i think i'm going to stay with my dad over winter break.
but the idea of having to go to my mom's house at a separate time is just weird.
:/
this is why if/when i get married i want to stay married FOREVER. and seriously death til us part. like that's legit for me.
i dont' want to ever get divorced. it's a life ruiner.
and i mean i can tell it's sort of made me narcissistic because at church (at school) yesterday we had to draw a picture of our family. and umm i drew a giant x between my parents.
then i felt like crying because we are doing a unit on family at church, and i was just like wow my family is a mess. everyone else had these happy pictures (well except John he drew his cat as a fire-breathing cat, although i guess that's still happy since he's oddly obsessed with cats) and mine just wasn't.
i don't know.
my life just feels like a mess.
on a happy note though. i still love learning guitar. like it feels so good to play. when i actually practice. i really enjoy it.
anyways i need to write this paper and sleep. or well i'm going to fail. and that's not cool.
so sorry for my random weird rants.
p.s. in case you wondering today it was 50 degrees and raining.
so unusual since last week it was like in the 70's. ridiculoussss.
love.
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